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370: Charlotte A. revisits
April 27, 2024 08:00 - 1 hour - 77.1 MB🔸 Overwhelming beauty: Charlotte's wins and/or "too high on life" 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Climate control new IFS room. Oh, it was Frank Anderson saying "source", not Jay Early. ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form 😀Come chat with us: Discord 🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: Itunes YouTube How to leave a review - iPhone 👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire
378: Christine A. revisits
April 25, 2024 11:44 - 1 hour - 98.6 MB🔸 What are the consequences of being vulnerable? Of trusting men? An experiment. 🔹 Parts: Ps: Put it all out there v. hold back E: 14 responsible, get a job, romantic partners E: love and acceptance from male role models 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Do differently: prepare better for midday calls, I'm often a little slow out of the gate. Grateful for Christine's leadership, which refocused the session multiple times. ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form 😀Come ...
377: Justine A. revisits
April 23, 2024 11:35 - 1 hour - 74.2 MB🔸 Doing it wrong and the real fear chat with James. 🔹 Parts: P: Judgement about watching tv, should be more noble and spiritual. Puts a bow on it, labeling it. Too much content. Stuff going on at 3 is a boring old story. Frustrated others can’t read my mind. Where do i fit in? (Same burden as exiles) P: “You’re not real and you don’t belong” (same as above?) P: fear of above, of it taking over. Just needs the physical needs met, tuck in at night. E: 7 yo protected by p1 E: 5 yo unseen...
374: Onyx A. revisits
April 19, 2024 17:56 - 1 hour - 73.3 MB🔸 Overwhelmed puzzler, a problem I'm not in the middle of. 🔹 Parts: Walking in a pool of grief Crying when thinking about being held The clouds, don’t know, not sure, can’t place things, feel lost Overwhelmed, about parts, work, about life. You don’t understand how complex that is. Sad about the overwhelmed Puzzler Figure it out Pusher 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: I can’t explain every decision made in targeting. We can move quickly, I want to keep looking out for it being to...
371: Theresa A. revisits
April 16, 2024 11:42 - 1 hour - 64.2 MB🔸 Family loss. She needed there to be more of a network 🔹 Parts: P: minimizer. This is fine now, nothing to see here. Family image protector. Never look back. Doesn’t want a bunch of whining, it’s weak to be bothered by things that aren’t horrible. “Self like” is not gonna get the job done E: kid from whom something was taken. There weren’t other adults. I want my auntie. Too much focus on her. Nobody explained. 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Once I was certain about Theresa’s conne...
372: Mio A. revisits
April 13, 2024 09:51 - 1 hour - 81.4 MB🔸 Hot date heartache. Making it safe to want. 🔹 Parts: P: the deep well. Feeling left out, parts that are hurt. i’m not acceptable, there’s something wrong with me, im ugly, old, unlovable. longing to be loved and recognized but asking for it will bring ridicule P: scared, hopeless, it will swallow me up. The want is too big. P: judge. who do you think you are, you want too much. Judging the anger of: E: (same as first?) angry 2 year old hitting her sister. felt robbed, little sister s...
369: Bee A. revisits
April 11, 2024 08:00 - 1 hour - 64.9 MB🔸 The one who won't use her voice 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Something. Not sure. ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form 😀Come chat with us: Discord 🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: Itunes YouTube How to leave a review - iPhone 👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire
362: Pro: Alethea Hanna with Alex
April 09, 2024 08:00 - 2 hours - 159 MB🔸 Alethea Hanna is a trauma recovery coach with IFS Level II training. She is passionate about the IFS model and looks forward to the day when everyone can regularly experience the relief of looking at and listening to their parts with love. She can be reached at [email protected]. 🎓 What Alethea would like to do differently: I should have ended the session sooner. I think both of us were motivated by the desire for Alex to experience a satisfying shift, which made me less attenti...
368: Olivia A. revisits
April 07, 2024 08:00 - 1 hour - 63.7 MB🔸 MDMA. Hide the body parts! *Note: Olivia is not a pot head 🔹 Parts: P: The ones who block the body part fear. Manager can’t step back cuz no analysis and method. Afraid of fear of Gatekeeper. P: ”body” part, best thing ever, gives joy meaning. Expansive access. Leads to: E: Grief of losing ex if I find out, Im irredeemable, everything is ruined. 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: I had my own sense of "futility", not in a bad way. It was when we realized gatekeepers just want Self's ...
367: Christine A. - first call
April 05, 2024 08:00 - 1 hour - 67.5 MB🔸 People don’t take you seriously when you’re excited 🔹 Parts: P: School teacher: You shouldn’t be this excited. You make a fool of yourself, you overwhelm people with the way you are.. don’t be embarrassing. calm equals effective. Rather be helping w understanding. Thinks im 7. P: Excited. Why are you raining on our parade? P: Efficient E: 15yo got really excited, jumped up on desk. Get in trouble. Get banished. Disconnection E: 7, maybe, finally spoke up and regretted it ----- 🗳 Sen...
366: Justine A. revisits
April 03, 2024 08:00 - 1 hour - 74.4 MB🔸 Unboxing "Spoiling Christmas" 🔹 Parts: P (target) has to do it all or else nothing will get done. On its own P trying to create the magic of Christmas P this commercial stuff bullshit P worth from things , the currency of love P you have to be the best, you’re not doing it right. P the elves. Exiles too dangerous!: PE: told ruined Xmas , shroud over! E black sheep. Age 5. I'm on my own and no one is coming. There’s no one who knows me the way I need to be known. Not fair that I w...
365: Elena A. revisits (J edit)
March 19, 2024 14:08 - 1 hour - 55 MB🔸 Pushing ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form 😀Come chat with us: Discord 🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: Itunes YouTube How to leave a review - iPhone 👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire
363: Genie A. revisits
March 15, 2024 14:08 - 1 hour - 78.5 MB🔸 Another lovely day at the park. The unfinished bits, untangling, rewinding. 📌 Genie followed up: i had made a conscious decision before that session, to fully 'go there' - wherever 'there' was - and not to 'try' doing anything - no figuring, no thinking, no looking for answers, no wondering how i was coming across, whether it was 'real' or not, no trying to be...anything/something or other. kind of like a trust falling exercise. just let go and do it. the reason being, i wanted to know...
361: Mio A. revisits
March 11, 2024 05:00 - 1 hour - 76 MB🔸 The diplomat & actress. 🔹 Parts: Accommodating calm veneer until overload. Rather be pampering me. thinks im 6-7. Is this the same as?: Big sister guilt, everything is my fault. If I’m not accommodating, I’m bad. The young one, (same as blue overalls?) she is so torn because she’s getting the message that everything is her fault. Made her feel so alone and so unprotected. And so trapped, she can’t do anything over again.. I want to hold your hand (w little sister allies). 2.5yo so a...
360: Theresa A. revisits (J edit)
March 09, 2024 13:03 - 1 hour - 88.3 MB🔸 Hold on. What is the point if the problem is big and huge and not in here? 📌 Theresa followed up: Hi. thanks again for your time and help last night. I was just thinking, when people ask me right before a trip if I am "excited" , I always think, "I'll be excited when the plane takes off, until then, there is SO much to do and things to take care of, it just feels like a marathon of chores.". Anyway, I hope your trip is beautiful. I wanted to ask more about what it was that you were hopin...
359: Onyx A. revisits
March 03, 2024 15:04 - 56 minutes - 51.8 MB🔸 A beautiful mess 🔹 Parts: The clouds: messy! Self doubt -> check out Small shrinking feeling wanting to disappear - shame. (Exile we plan to go to) Anxious re going to above Tired of anxious- stop being so messy, inefficient in IFS Sadness 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Exactly how I felt getting into it: "this is just a room of children, I know how to handle this." ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form 😀Come chat with us: Discord 🙏PLEASE help Internal Fami...
358: Charlotte A. revisits
March 01, 2024 15:04 - 1 hour - 75.7 MB🔸ATJOS: You guys can talk & cry all you want (in these session), I'll be here doing the real things 📌 Charlotte followed up: Superfun session and I love my failure list. Ten solid failures and my Defeated Part is feeling very seen. Thank you. 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Day 3 of deep relaxation (trying to see how much it affects an ailment of mine). But I always regret skipping much of my call prep. ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form 😀Come chat with us: Disc...
357:⏫️ Olivia A. revisits
February 28, 2024 09:28 - 2 hours - 139 MB🔸 1️⃣ Progress tracking toward knowing the secrets of the universe. *** 2️⃣ A baby! Is this real? Going into the grief. 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: 2️⃣ It’s times like these when I feel most dumb. But also most redundant, so it kinda works out. Seems without exception: when mother is rocking baby, I can only get in the way. P: "James talking sooo much”… yeah ok, but, was that from an agenda part? I wanted my only agenda to be connection. P: “But james you weren’t connecting ...
356: Bee A. revisits
February 26, 2024 15:03 - 1 hour - 64.1 MB🔸Everybody leaves when they’re happy 📌 Bee followed up: I listened to the session you and I did together (#327) and I wept in gratitude for your patience and guidance and I wept for the parts that were met. That’s a different space than I usually go to. I noticed there was no one saying Listen to your voice! What were you thinking? Just tears of compassion and so much gratitude. 🔷 Parts: P: If I am too happy, I'll leave everyone I love P: why would you wanna talk to her? She’s never...
355: Justine A. revisits
February 24, 2024 15:02 - 1 hour - 85.7 MB🔸 The dad shield 🔹 Parts: Red: Never good enough. You cant get it right. Cynic. Holds dad shield E: Little spider part. 8yo. Wearing all black in black place, wants to let it rip. Forgot the socks (school play). P: self like part (the older one who sits on rage in a box) 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Let Justine know what an honor it is ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form 😀Come chat with us: Discord 🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Sub...
354: Daniel A. revisits
February 22, 2024 08:00 - 1 hour - 69.5 MB🔸 Carl Jung learns IFS 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Trying something new: walking during this call. In the past we haven't gone ultra slow, so I wanted to see if movement would help me keep up. It didn't, I quit after ~20m. ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form 😀Come chat with us: Discord 🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: Itunes YouTube How to leave a review - iPhone 👉 Find your ACE score with t...
353: Sienna A. revisits
February 20, 2024 15:01 - 1 hour - 67.3 MB🔸 Appreciating the compliment repeller, Sienna with another high score! 🔹 Parts: The shield, the complement repeller, it saves me from disappointment. Don’t let it get to your head. And the higher you go the longer you fall. And you’re not all good anyway. You are undeserving. Because you have.: A bad part, told so in school. We can’t go there or else it will be confirmed and then: Kill myself The warm place, where the compliments go, it’s outside An anxiety of being present, without s...
352: Genie A. revisits
February 18, 2024 15:00 - 1 hour - 86.5 MB🔸 “I don’t know what I believe anymore”, radiating oceanic love (for fuck’s sake!), and reactions to calls w Bee. 🔹 Parts: Helped off a tight rope. You don’t comprehend how big, complicated, dangerous the world is. She wants proof, presence. You need to stop doing this IFS nonsense. ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form 😀Come chat with us: Discord 🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: Itunes YouTube H...
351: Mio A. revisits
February 16, 2024 14:59 - 1 hour - 85.5 MB🔸 Triggered. "When I was 5 I liked to tie my belt so tight..." 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Obviously my own parts are triggered at start of call (yes, published with approval). We're "just chatting"; I'm not asking those parts of me for space. But plenty of missteps. I kept trying to call on my curiosity in the beginning but … fitness *does* prevent chaos, create safety. I'm trying to get clear on what parts are involved. And after her story my parts are saying "How awful! Let’s b...
350: Clare A. revisits
February 14, 2024 08:00 - 1 hour - 68.6 MB🔸 The answer, what you've been waiting for: What’s in the box?? 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Maybe I'm making too many assumptions. Feeling great. I started a new parts-work protocol about 3 days ago and this was day one of focusing on my “best” box, the biggest one still in shadow. IFS is the best. Oh and my ego-assasin (whom I met this morning) wants me to include some caveats about how maybe I just got lucky, Clare should get most/all credit, and also we’re all gonna die anyway...
349: Charlotte A. revisits
February 12, 2024 14:58 - 1 hour - 93.8 MB🔸 The show must go on, a kick into chaos, and a James exile. 📌 'References to oranges was from a not-published convo. James' reference, "I like my stuff" etc comes from the best youtube video ever: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qR3rK0kZFkg 🔹 Parts: P: Self (-like?) Relaxed is blissful, euphoric, delicious, exotic. Expansive awareness (but why can’t I just have my state without the interruptions!) Can’t make myself understood and hassled by the need to. P: Striving to be on top of it ...
348: Theresa A. revisits
February 10, 2024 08:00 - 51 minutes - 47 MB🔸 Cosmic baby's collision 📌 Theresa Followed up: Thanks again for the help James. 🐝 That was a surprising session. I had it in my mind that it was going to be arduous, that I was going to be exhausted after. Not the case. I guess I should know by now not to try to predict. It's coming together, how those three parts are connected. Pops, Defiance, and the cosmic infant. ✨ Protector, fire fighter, and (now) cherished little one who I'm no longer afraid of. 🤓 Thanks for helping me be with th...
347: Onyx A. - first call
February 08, 2024 13:47 - 1 hour - 69.1 MB🔸 All around anxious 🔷 Parts: I want to disappear critic anxious about safety or ability to land Hinders me from doing new things annoyed with anxious I’m trying to get some stuff done Afraid I wouldn’t make it… Tearing up about how much time I spend not feeling safe. 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: I had some anxious parts up the whole time. New caller with some quick shifts that I didn't interpreting so well. In hindsight I see it’s her clarity, but in the moment I don’t kno...
346: Olivia A. revisits
January 24, 2024 08:00 - 1 hour - 76.8 MB🔸 "I'm sad about a plant." Witnessing the inherent trauma of existing. The first noble truth. 🔹 Parts: There must be another way to resolve this, we can’t figure out a rational answer until the exile is healed Weird to tell parents Futile parts How can I feel like the world is a good place when I rely on their death to live Can’t grieve anything cuz I'd have to grieve everything 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Keep going (in myself). ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: F...
345: Bee A. revisits
January 21, 2024 08:00 - 1 hour - 66.5 MB🔸 Meaning without the making. A little closer to home. 🔹 Parts: P: Meaning maker. To avoid regret and get belonging. P: Afraid of losing control (is making me sick) “see what happens when you don’t think ahead?” Plan better! P: Cloud: how could you ever do all that writing? E: Wants to belong. Wants spotlight for more than her problems. E: a bother to others P: if you see her as well, you’ll stop taking care of yourself 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Day 4 of poor sleep. In ...
344: Justine A. revisits
December 30, 2023 08:00 - 1 hour - 71.3 MB🔸 Wins, apps & systems, and efficient parts work! 📌 Justing followed up: I listened to Bee #310 this morning. Terrible insomnia so you both kept me company. Such a moving session (#2 particularly), and your clarity of defining the steps at the end was great. I noted them down. Because I always forget what to do when I try and do solo work (what question am I supposed to ask now? What happens next?). So I wrote them down in Notes. And then I turned to my system and put the recorder on. It ...
343: Sienna A. revisits
December 28, 2023 08:00 - 1 hour - 78.5 MB🔸 Stop eating, I hate you, Kill yourself, I got you. 🔹 Parts: Stop eating! Self hate because ate, failed, regret. You’re a glutton. Large (like mom) is ugly, disgusting, dirty. Thinks im 16-17 No, you can be large and happy Cynical you’re not gonna fix this, so you are wasting your time 12-16 she has an eating disorder, I want attention like her 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: I knew Sienna was traveling, not settled, so I opted for a little more explaining, a little less directin...
342: Genie A. revisits
December 26, 2023 08:00 - 1 hour - 90.5 MB🔸 IFS is pointless, Genie's a s@#%, shut it down. 📌 Genie Followed up: Thanks James. That was pretty important I think. 🥰 🤗 🙏 A lot of gifts in that. Hope I can do them justice. feel like there are some precious things that I need to care of. Not quite sure how yet, but..... Oh!! I think that might be a sort of self quality? Maybe? Taking care of precious things? Oh my. 🔹 Parts: P: Have to make Genie feel bad, so she at least knows her effect on people. Makes her withdraw so she doesn’t ...
341: Mio A. revisits
December 19, 2023 08:00 - 1 hour - 72.7 MB🔸 The Supercontroller: brush your teeth, go to school, no more eating. 🔹 Parts: 13.5 yo anorexic 7-8 yo helpless in the chaos. If i wasn’t ugly why wasn’t I loved. ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form 😀Come chat with us: Discord 🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: Itunes YouTube How to leave a review - iPhone 👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire
340: ⏫️ Clare A. revisits
December 18, 2023 08:00 - 2 hours - 111 MB🔸 1️⃣ Choppin’ it up with the tired part *** 2️⃣ Where is the love? 🔹 Parts: 1️⃣ - P: The bug out part: run! (from the ridiculousness) - P: Tired. They are to blame - get out! It sweeps, keeps it clean inside. Thinks Clare is 12. (Shh don’t go there!) Rather be fishing. Don’t open the doors it gets cold. Cooking show… no mess there, sleep cleans mess. Needs a wagon to put all the stuff in and a broom. Wants to be listened to. Why 12? 2️⃣ - P: Don’t lose the love! Who’s in charge he...
339: Theresa A. revisits
December 15, 2023 14:57 - 58 minutes - 53.4 MB🔸 Settling the score with mom. 📌 Theresa followed up: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qEduv96dMw8 Making good progress with "Defiance" (which is what the part we were working with last session has decided she would like to be called.) I stayed with her that day, after our session. She was curled up sleeping, and I curled up behind her, as Self. I lay down on my couch to be with her. It immediately became apparent that I should bring my cat who was laying on the "real world" couch with m...
338: Olivia A. revisits
December 13, 2023 08:00 - 1 hour - 71.7 MB🔸 "Quasi-spiritual bullshit..." Meet Jerry! 🔹 Parts: P: The skeptic, analyzer, don’t get your hopes up: The truth or is life worth living. Did I fuck up irredeemably? Is my life ruined? Integrity. Someone please prove me wrong. P: What if you were enough? The one who tries E: Yes, people are careless. If they aren’t, then I grieve for not seeing it. forever, lamenting the loss of not realizing what I was capable of P: fuck off 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Don’t tell Jerry, but ...
337: Bee A. revisits
December 11, 2023 22:00 - 1 hour - 60.4 MB🔸 So right, so true, so me — so blended! Know, don’t tell. 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: I stumbled into the call, unsettled. A part chastising for time wasted, I'm supposed to be preparing for a call, not helping a bee… Then Bee told me she was a beekeeper, and something about sweetness and honey. I short-circuited, remembering a dream I had last night. Christmas w my family of origin. They gave me a tiny vial of the most exotic honey. Rare and magnificent and almost sacred, and it...
336: Justine A. revisits
December 09, 2023 19:05 - 1 hour - 70.7 MB🔸 Blue is the story about men. The warmth of the sun: steady, not slow. 🔹 Parts: Criticism, judgment. Blue: men are bad, can’t be trusted. Absence, lack of presence. It’s not safe to feel. Not safe to have anger and rage White: safe holding rage in a box. Else eruption expulsion. Needs a hug Rage wants to come out. Wants a voice Pregnant Black: void, spacey, thinks I'm 3, too dangerous. Shrouded. Wants a window. Doesn’t have to change itself! ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to Jame...
336: Justine A. - revisits
December 09, 2023 06:19 - 1 hour - 70.7 MB🔸 Blue is the story about men. The warmth of the sun: steady, not slow. 🔹 Parts: Criticism, judgment. Blue: men are bad, can’t be trusted. Absence, lack of presence. It’s not safe to feel. Not safe to have anger and rage White: safe holding rage in a box. Else eruption expulsion. Needs a hug Rage wants to come out. Wants a voice Pregnant Black: void, spacey, thinks I'm 3, too dangerous. Shrouded. Wants a window. Doesn’t have to change itself! ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to Jame...
335: Charlotte A. revisits
December 07, 2023 08:00 - 1 hour - 73.9 MB🔸 Ground, feet, legs, night sky. 📌 Charlotte Followed up: Found some earth teeming with bugs: pic I am HIGH Holy smokes That was as usual kind of surreal - but instead of being kinda relaxed and dreamy I feel plain old happy Thank you 🙏 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Figure out what I did to get in this space today. I’m fasting again… Should I just fully embrace ascetic life? This is when I'm not reacting to food I guess. Huh. Update Dec ‘23: It was, and is solved (for good?!) Than...
334: Sienna A. revisits
December 06, 2023 01:02 - 1 hour - 78.8 MB🔸 Who can hold suicide, panic, pathetic, self-harm & the little girl in the big room? 🔹 Parts: Suicide “I could” v “I couldn’t”. Self harm. You’ve been a horrible parent. You should be punished, destroyed for good. Everything would be better if I could cry. A big lack of being held. Pathetic. (J direct accessed “this is pathetic” even though she said “feeling pathetic”) Asking to be held is weird. A tiny me in a big room.A bunny for little girl 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: ...
333: Genie A. revisits
December 03, 2023 15:15 - 1 hour - 92 MB🔸 Impulsivity & Guilt. Making good decisions requires a number of things. 🔹 Parts: Guilt, not good mothering - have to understand the repercussions . The only way to get any attention at all. Impulsivity - get it now or you’ll miss the thrill. Then you won’t be special. Teen: not special = not safe. Mom and dad gave up . Go for a drive P: wants data from the drive w teen 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Sick day + 20mins of tech problems set us back. Still my favorite thing. ---...
332: Mio A. revisits
December 01, 2023 08:23 - 1 hour - 65.1 MB🔸 Hot date danger zone. Keep it together! 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Playing lifeguard more than co-driver today. It’s “easier”, and I think affordable due to how much of Mio’s self was present. Maybe helped by how early we addressed the story teller? I didn’t feel great about my (lack of) response to her parts’ request of me. Just nodded and said “yeah I want that too”. Id like to find a stronger way to communicate my understanding and intention. And holy manifestation! In #315...
331:⏫️ Clare A. revisits
November 29, 2023 08:40 - 1 hour - 106 MB🔸 1️⃣ A fawn down in a flood zone. 2️⃣ The 9 year old has a name. 🔹 Parts: 1️⃣ The wall. 12 year olds on the left, everyone else on the right. Skipping part is 7, needs mommy and daddy. Waiting for someone to come. Wants her dog and pizza 2️⃣ Apprehensive protecting: 9yo lacking a bucket of roses/flowers, water, paper and some crayons, a life. Her name is Rose. Why crying so much, why soggy shoes? 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: 1️⃣ Before the call Clare updated me about a recen...
330: Brandon A. revisits
November 27, 2023 09:00 - 55 minutes - 50.8 MB🔸 Going in. Part 2/2. 🔹 Parts: Afraid of failure. If I fail it’s true. I have to succeed to earn love Research and prepare Striving/fighting. Mom would ask “are you stupid?” I want my dad's approval more than anything, Feels like a secret, That would fix everything. I really miss my grandpa 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Continuity! I've been concerned about our work, the scheduling being sporadic, and my failure to address that more directly. But suddenly Brandon's on my calenda...
329: Theresa A. revisits
November 25, 2023 08:00 - 55 minutes - 51.1 MB🔸 A carrot, an orange; fun in the kitchen. 🔹 Parts: P: Food for entertainment (eating & cooking). We have to have something fun and interesting to experience. The other fun stuff is less simple so it doesn’t happen. Wants real savoring P: Hunger is a weakness. E: Dont wan't at the wrong time, Inconvenient to have that need, So don’t ever feel hungry. Wasn’t in charge. Feels like mom thinks she’s bad. Feels trapped. This is stupid. Expectations too narrow. Wish mom could do something fun. ...
328: Olivia A. revisits
November 23, 2023 09:00 - 58 minutes - 53.5 MB🔸 I suck, you're pathetic, they're careless. 🔹 Parts: Wanting to be able to accept sadness and discomfort, Possibly related to need to: Needs to be cool, always have a comeback. Wants to stop caring E: Preschool. Part of me feels judged and unworthy. Everyone can see I'mm pathetic. They don’t have thin skin so i suck if I do 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: That was a tough one for me. I told Olivia I had a stomach ache. It kept me squirming, distracted. The targeting felt more l...
327: Bee A. revisits
November 21, 2023 09:00 - 1 hour - 58.7 MB🔸 Balancing the numbers: health, money, appearance. control and balance “Get the right numbers”. Rigid. She’s very close to hurry. There isn’t a moment of solace. she’s in a factory with a bunch of imbeciles. If she doesn’t work so hard, the other one will eat sugar all day and turn to shit... 15yo: and then we would be a burden. We have to rely on others. Got compliments from father, wanted his attention, but terrified of his attention. I want to be well, I want to be pretty, but I’m afr...
326: Justine A. revisits
November 19, 2023 09:00 - 1 hour - 67.5 MB🔸 All knowing, innocent, and new. 🔹 Parts: Exile cries out thinking keeps me awake at night Pure. Originalness. All knowing, entirely innocent. Is that mommy? 📌 Justine followed up: The babies are doing great by the way. I’ve moved the bassinet into a forest glade with fairy lights, and a mother wolf keeping guard. They’re protected from the wind and the rain, with lots of forest creatures coming to support them. 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Lots of stuff I *could* say, but why...