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3.5 Shadow parts vs. successful relationships | Internal VIT for healthy connections

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - May 05, 2023 10:52 - 21 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
We MFs struggle to begin or maintain healthy relationship dynamics, with a lot of externalized finger pointing about why. "Abusers just flock to me." But the truth is, the abuse recreation is mutual and it all starts in the place we attempt to willfully ignore - inside ourselves, within our pref...

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"Recovery Emotions vs. Life Obligations" Mailbag!

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - April 28, 2023 14:36 - 33 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
You wrote, I do my best to answer! Today's Q: "Your episodes trigger the fuck out of me, therapy is going to do the same.... so how do I keep up my hyper-functionality while the emotional tides rage?" My A: I wish "do yoga about it" worked across the board. But it don't, so let's approach this f...

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Special release | "Ah Hell Naw" Learned obstacles to forming close relationships

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - April 21, 2023 10:21 - 40 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
Why don't we sign up for close connections anymore? Especially after learning about our CPTSD patterns? It's an episode pulled from the private Fort! Let's talk about relationship hangups from an experiential standpoint, integrating what we've heard from the research with real life brain opera...

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3.4 Vulnerability, Intimacy, and Trust Issues in Relationship

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - April 07, 2023 13:46 - 22 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
"So how do you feel about relationships?  Complicated?  You want them? You despise them? You fear them? You long for them? You try them? You exit them rapidly? Or you try to? You get stuck in them? And haunted by cycles of unfulfillment?" Today, let's talk about the obstacles we face when con...

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Mailbag! Identifying CPTSD, understanding partners, and coping through relationship dissolutions

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - March 24, 2023 10:10 - 37 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
My inbox collects a lot of stories and questions... and I think they'd be put to better use anonymously shared with the whole crew. Let's dip into some listener feedback and questions today, asking "Do I have CPTSD?" "How do I understand my partner better?" and "How do I cope in this relationall...

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3.3. Subconscious Self-loathing

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - March 10, 2023 15:42 - 21 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
So you're doing your damndest to be "your best self." Maybe you're confident and comfortable in your identity these days. But, at the same time, you still find that self-condemnation is a big part of your day to day. Why?  Let's talk about self-judgment taking place on subconscious levels. How ...

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Hardening versus Healing

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - February 24, 2023 09:24 - 21 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
Today, sharing a mini essay I wrote for another platform, where controversial perspectives are the topic of conversation. In so much of this "trauma recovery game" we're inspired to hunker down against past patterns. But is that really healing? Want more Traumatized Motherfuckers? Join the Pat...

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3.2. Healing self-contradicting brains with Internal Family Systems (IFS) Therapy

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - February 10, 2023 15:00 - 29 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
Ever feel like you've got a whole household of people contained in one skull? Fighting, just like they did in your family home? Turns out, that's normal.  Today, let's talk about Internal Family Systems and the roles cemented in your brain. Protectors, Exiles, Distractors, and their vicious cyc...

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2. Healing self-contradicting brains with Internal Family Systems (IFS) Therapy

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - February 10, 2023 15:00 - 29 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
Ever feel like you've got a whole household of people contained in one skull? Fighting, just like they did in your family home? Turns out, that's normal.  Today, let's talk about Internal Family Systems and the roles cemented in your brain. Protectors, Exiles, Distractors, and their vicious cyc...

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Early Day Episodes Rereleases

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - January 29, 2023 19:33 - 8 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
When your brain is a spiralling hellhole of "not good enough, never have been"... sometimes you withdraw. When that shitscape is finally over, it's time to reconsider the hiding you've been doing.  Let's talk about what happened in those isolative times '21-22 and the sudden re-release of episo...

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1. Loneliness and Isolation in CPTSD

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - January 25, 2023 18:25 - 19 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
Surprise, we're back! Keeping up with the private stream's topic of the month, we're here to talk about Loneliness.  Let's discuss the varieties of loneliness, the trends that start in childhood and pervade a lifetime, and the separate condition known as Isolation. Plus, how being a relational ca...

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3.1. Loneliness and Isolation in CPTSD

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - January 25, 2023 18:25 - 19 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
Surprise, we're back! Keeping up with the private stream's topic of the month, we're here to talk about Loneliness. Let's discuss the varieties of loneliness, the trends that start in childhood and pervade a lifetime, and the separate condition known as Isolation. Plus, how being a relational cas...

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2.12. Challenges of breaking the cycle | AKA - generational upset, NC, a new world

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:27 - 33 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
Let's talk about the opposition we face during trauma recovery - namely, from our social contacts who aren't ready to have their own histories and perspectives pulled into focus. And, let's discuss the reason why the battle is worth all the effort. Don't give up, brave Motherfucker. Remember th...

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12. Challenges of breaking the cycle | AKA - generational upset, NC, a new world

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:27 - 33 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
Let's talk about the opposition we face during trauma recovery - namely, from our social contacts who aren't ready to have their own histories and perspectives pulled into focus. And, let's discuss the reason why the battle is worth all the effort. Don't give up, brave Motherfucker. Remember th...

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11. Forming new lives | AKA - reintegration efforts for lasting change

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:27 - 27 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
So we do this painful and energetically expensive inner work. And then what? Return to the same old lives? Naw, Fucker. That's the fastest way to hit "revert to draft." Once the integrative inner work starts, the outer labor has to keep up.  Let's talk about supporting our brain changes by buil...

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2.11. Forming new lives | AKA - reintegration efforts for lasting change

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:27 - 27 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
So we do this painful and energetically expensive inner work. And then what? Return to the same old lives? Naw, Fucker. That's the fastest way to hit "revert to draft." Once the integrative inner work starts, the outer labor has to keep up.  Let's talk about supporting our brain changes by buil...

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2.10. The resources needed for brain recovery | AKA - mediums for new perspectives

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:27 - 18 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
Aiming for recovery, but finding that you never have the conditions to make progress? Let's talk about what it takes for a brain to heal. The basic mediums of life that most of us are unable to access in our traumatized society.  Related eps: time distortion series, "rat cage" societal trauma ...

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10. The resources needed for brain recovery | AKA - mediums for new perspectives

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:27 - 18 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
Aiming for recovery, but finding that you never have the conditions to make progress? Let's talk about what it takes for a brain to heal. The basic mediums of life that most of us are unable to access in our traumatized society.  Related eps: time distortion series, "rat cage" societal trauma ...

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9. Loss of functionality | AKA - overcompensation, collapse, resisilence not resistence

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:26 - 14 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
A brain is busy with all those survival processes running in the background and the second-by-second management of triggers and symptoms. So what happens when that system gets overloaded? Today, we're talking about the pattern of symptom masking/ignorance, overcompensation, loss of functionalit...

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2.9. Loss of functionality | AKA - overcompensation, collapse, resisilence not resistence

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:26 - 14 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
A brain is busy with all those survival processes running in the background and the second-by-second management of triggers and symptoms. So what happens when that system gets overloaded? Today, we're talking about the pattern of symptom masking/ignorance, overcompensation, loss of functionalit...

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8. Internal battles | AKA - healing your disintegrated brain

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:26 - 15 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
Back to this self-limiting conversation... what happens when our "selves" are limited by incohesion? When we have inner wars over "the right thing," or oppositional memory and emotional responses confusing every issue? Let's talk about the battle that rages inside. Revisiting "parts" and how th...

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2.8. Internal battles | AKA - healing your disintegrated brain

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:26 - 15 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
Back to this self-limiting conversation... what happens when our "selves" are limited by incohesion? When we have inner wars over "the right thing," or oppositional memory and emotional responses confusing every issue? Let's talk about the battle that rages inside. Revisiting "parts" and how th...

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2.7. Self-limiting modes of existence | AKA - life halting programs and parts battles

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:26 - 15 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
You've decided to enact new behaviors to change your life... only to find you can't actually put them into practice. You stall out and revert to old programs to your own bewilderment. Something is stalling progress from the inside. Let's talk about self-limiting strategies for living spawned by...

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7. Self-limiting modes of existence | AKA - life halting programs and parts battles

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:26 - 15 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
You've decided to enact new behaviors to change your life... only to find you can't actually put them into practice. You stall out and revert to old programs to your own bewilderment. Something is stalling progress from the inside. Let's talk about self-limiting strategies for living spawned by...

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6. Default Mode Network (DMN) | AKA - memory throwbacks, bodily disconnection, and sub-sensory fear

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:26 - 15 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
So we all have a penchant for fear, it's a foundational aspect of PTSD. But what happens when our brain relay system is wonky due to those adaptations?  Let's talk about the faulty DMN. How it throws us into disjointed memories, disables continuous autobiographical recall, explains poor sense o...

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2.6. Default Mode Network (DMN) | AKA - memory throwbacks, bodily disconnection, and sub-sensory fear

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:26 - 15 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
So we all have a penchant for fear, it's a foundational aspect of PTSD. But what happens when our brain relay system is wonky due to those adaptations?  Let's talk about the faulty DMN. How it throws us into disjointed memories, disables continuous autobiographical recall, explains poor sense o...

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2.5. Entrapment, defeat, suicidality, and relationships | AKA - it's not worth your whole life

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:26 - 15 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
We know, trauma brains create patterns that can stall us out and keep us stuck. This is especially true when talking "relationships" of all forms. Unfortunately, leading many to feel permanently socially-tethered, personally incapable, and suicidal, instead. Today, let's talk about how relation...

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5. Entrapment, defeat, suicidality, and relationships | AKA - it's not worth your whole life

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:26 - 15 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
We know, trauma brains create patterns that can stall us out and keep us stuck. This is especially true when talking "relationships" of all forms. Unfortunately, leading many to feel permanently socially-tethered, personally incapable, and suicidal, instead. Today, let's talk about how relation...

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2.4. Filial obligation and family re-immersion | AKA - the family system trap

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:25 - 19 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
The time comes for all of us; the family call to duty. And then what. We know it's going to trigger unwanted trauma reactions. But resisting often feels futile, immoral, and socially-punishing. Let's talk about the dangers of family re-immersion for a healing trauma brain and what we can do to ...

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4. Filial obligation and family re-immersion | AKA - the family system trap

Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers - December 20, 2022 17:25 - 19 minutes ★★★★★ - 152 ratings
The time comes for all of us; the family call to duty. And then what. We know it's going to trigger unwanted trauma reactions. But resisting often feels futile, immoral, and socially-punishing. Let's talk about the dangers of family re-immersion for a healing trauma brain and what we can do to ...

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