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Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers

282 episodes - English - Latest episode: about 1 month ago - ★★★★★ - 152 ratings

Peer-review and irreverent dark humor meet relational trauma recovery, without the "enforced bright sides." Let's talk about the complicated experience of rectifying a life built on trauma and relearning to be human... more healthily than those shitheads who raised you. You aren't alone, damaged, doomed, or dead yet. But with all the grit and gumption necessary to keep growing, you might be a real MF.

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Conversation | My MOM! Part 1

September 05, 2020 11:00 - 46 minutes - 42.7 MB

Part One. If you've been listening, you've heard about my neurotic, emotionally-averse Mom. I've been staying with her for the past 3 months and - for the first time in 20 years - we've been spending time together without tearing each others heads off. HOW? Yeah, Fuckers, I wonder, too. Some of our newfound relatability has to do with my Trauma recovery, which has bled into her own mental health discoveries. For the first time, we can talk about our family history and mutual struggles with ...

Comfort in Chaos

September 04, 2020 11:00 - 27 minutes - 25.6 MB

Ever heard that generality, "Complex Trauma survivors culture chaos in their lives because it feels normal"? Fuck that, amiright? No way this constant shitshow is my fault. I do NOT want any of this entropy that follows me. Well, Fuckers, today I'm taking a look at the more subtle forms of chaos that have been ruling my life and relations for the past 3 months. Maaaaybe it's time to acknowledge that chaos does something to calm this brain.... even if I don't want it to be true.  --- Send...

The Anxiety Chronicles 2019

September 02, 2020 11:00 - 27 minutes - 25.9 MB

Recently, there have been some challenging flashbacks and memories in my world. Anniversaries do that to me. One year ago there was a lot going on - from publishing an article in The Lily about life with debilitating anxiety... to finally being permitted to retrieve belongings from my ex's house... to his continued harassment and emotional abuse.  Today, I'm taking a look in the past; reading up on what happened in August 2019, my account of anxious living, and how (for once) I kept myself ...

Punk Rock Saved My Life

August 29, 2020 11:00 - 38 minutes - 35.4 MB

Punk Rock Saved My Life. Original assertion? Nope. #frankturner  Punk is the trauma genre, drawing misfits and unwanted outsiders together to create their own community. And they don't have time for yer basic shit.  Fact is, if I hadn't become a punk, I probably would have followed in my family footsteps. Without this community, lord knows I wouldn't have escaped my circumstances; abuse, addiction, poverty, and rural-shittery. Wanna check out the musics? Find the Spotify playlist! Search T...

Early Days Rerelease: Comfort in Chaos

August 28, 2020 18:11 - 29 minutes - 26.9 MB

Ever heard that generality, "Complex Trauma survivors culture chaos in their lives because it feels normal"? Fuck that, amiright? No way this constant shitshow is my fault. I do NOT want any of this entropy that follows me. Well, Fuckers, today I'm taking a look at the more subtle forms of chaos that have been ruling my life and relations for the past 3 months. Maaaaybe it's time to acknowledge that chaos does something to calm this brain.... even if I don't want it to be true.  --- Send...

Distress Intolerance and Perseverant Thinking

August 28, 2020 12:00 - 57 minutes - 52.8 MB

Ever feel overwhelmed and shut-down for... well... kind of mundane reasons? Like you're about to explode if your phone doesn't stop pinging? You might kill your significant other if they don't let *that issue* go? You might break down if you get an email at 9pm?  When the agitation from over stimulation builds up, what happens next? Shutdown, avoidance, aggression? A quick turn towards maladaptive behaviors that lingers for days? Yeah, Fucker, today I'm talking about Distress Intolerance, i...

ACEs and Work Environments

August 26, 2020 22:00 - 29 minutes - 27.6 MB

Struggle with work environments triggering your trauma and disrupting your life? Wonder why coworkers drive you over the edge? Ever feel like you're just "not cut out" for a 9-5? Yeah, Fucker. You aren't alone. Of course, our ACEs contribute to difficult work relationships and poor life balance. When organizations encourage security hierarchies, poor boundaries, and social aggression... is it really any wonder that Traumatized Motherfuckers feel their mental health going by the wayside?  -...

Early Days Rerelease: Axes of Trauma recovery

August 26, 2020 18:11 - 58 minutes - 53.3 MB

I'm not a scientist anymore, but some things haven't faded. Today, I'm laying out my hypothesis that there are three major areas of life that need to be positively changed and maintained for lasting Trauma brain recovery to happen. The massive, overarching elements that require exhaustive attention and brave behavior changes. What are those areas? How do they impact our mental health? What happens when one or two of the components are in place - good enough, right? (Nah.)  --- Send in a v...

Early Days Rerelease: Distress Intolerance and Perseverant Thinking

August 26, 2020 18:10 - 58 minutes - 53.5 MB

Ever feel overwhelmed and shut-down for... well... kind of mundane reasons? Like you're about to explode if your phone doesn't stop pinging? You might kill your significant other if they don't let *that issue* go? You might break down if you get an email at 9pm?  When the agitation from over stimulation builds up, what happens next? Shutdown, avoidance, aggression? A quick turn towards maladaptive behaviors that lingers for days? Yeah, Fucker, today I'm talking about Distress Intolerance, i...

Victim or Motherfucker? Has Trauma ever "helped?"

August 24, 2020 11:00 - 31 minutes - 28.8 MB

Unpopular opinion; early trauma gave me a lot of positive personality traits... you know, along with all the terrible ones.  Am I a basketcase sometimes? Sure. Am I also resilient, responsible, good at reading people, and ready for disaster? Yer motherfucking right. How do you feel? Is trauma a help or strictly a hindrance in your life? Get in touch, MF. Find us at traumatizedmotherfuckers.com or t-mfrs.com. Holler and raise hell.  --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/complext...

Deactivation; hot & cold relationships explained

August 20, 2020 11:00 - 17 minutes - 16.5 MB

Ever heard of Deactivation? I hadn't either. But it explains a lot about my do-or-die relationships and flighty nature.  A die-hard companion. A martyr for relationships. A friend until the end. (READ: A codependent mess) UNTIL I'M NOT. Here for you one day, freaked out and disappeared the next. Is this a shitty personality, or survival instincts gone wrong?  Time to research something new - Deactivation. Does this sound like you, too? You might belong in the TMFR Discord community. Head ...

Early Days Rerelease: Prolonged Freeze States

August 19, 2020 18:02 - 26 minutes - 23.8 MB

Ever feel like you get "stuck" in a void? Like your brain goes blank and your tongue gets tied? Do you watch your life deteriorate while you're stuck in a parallel dimension? Hey, today I'm discussing Freeze States in Trauma survivors. I've got a research article for you, revealing the occurrence of "prolonged" Freeze States in rats under Complex Trauma Conditions. Plus, we're talking about the ways that this survival mechanism can become a long-term maladaptive response instead of a moment...

Early Days Rerelease: Emotional Dissociation (AKA Numbing)

August 19, 2020 18:01 - 33 minutes - 30.3 MB

How are your emotions? Black and white, like everything else? 0 or 100? Big surprise, your trauma brain is just trying to keep you safe.  Today, I'm discussing some research on Emotional Dissociation as well as my own experience with the learned defense mechanism. The emotional "switch" that flips when things are overwhelming... and how it takes on a life of its own.  --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message

Early Days Rerelease: ACEs and Work Environments

August 19, 2020 18:01 - 28 minutes - 26.5 MB

Struggle with work environments triggering your trauma and disrupting your life? Wonder why coworkers drive you over the edge? Ever feel like you're just "not cut out" for a 9-5? Yeah, Fucker. You aren't alone. Of course, our ACEs contribute to difficult work relationships and poor life balance. When organizations encourage security hierarchies, poor boundaries, and social aggression... is it really any wonder that Traumatized Motherfuckers feel their mental health going by the wayside?  -...

Shame and C-PTSD

August 16, 2020 11:00 - 39 minutes - 36.8 MB

If you google Complex Trauma you'll find many mentions of Shame. I get it, I think, but also... What the fuck IS shame, exactly? How is it different from guilt? How does it interplay with Trauma? Doing some "real research" and reporting back on the hidden experience of Shame. One of the most painful and pervasive emotions. Wanna give me a new topic to look at? Report it at t-mfrs.com and I'll see what I can find on PubMed. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/complextrauma/mes...

Caring for everyone... but you.

August 13, 2020 11:00 - 20 minutes - 19 MB

I'm great at taking care of everyone... but myself. Always dissociated. Always slave-driving. Always worried about everyone else. Sound right? What is this "self-care?" How does one "have fun?" Lessons from a life constructed of workaholism and martyring tendencies. If you agree... Motherfucker, take a break and join the TMFR community. Find us at t-mfrs.com and support yourself for once. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/complextrauma/message

Trauma and physical manifestions

August 10, 2020 11:00 - 42 minutes - 39.4 MB

So... things suddenly aren't going so well with your body? Weird shit is happening, acutely and chronically?  Sorry, Motherfucker. Welcome to the world of trauma manifestation in physical symptoms. Talking flashbacks, dissociation, and all the assorted ailments you can expect. Plus, my general advice based on what helped me quiet down these autoimmune diseases, digestive failures, acid reflux, FUPAs, migraines, and more. Take it or leave it. What did I miss? I'm sure there's a lot more. Le...

Applied Behavior Analysis and Trauma Recovery

August 08, 2020 11:00 - 25 minutes - 23.5 MB

Guess who's going back to school? Mhmm, yer girl's getting her M.S. in ABA (Applied Behavior Analysis) after years of putting off further formal education. What IS ABA, how has it helped in this ttrauma recovery journey, and how can it help other Motherfuckers? Wanna rap? Interested in trying out behavioral analysis for your mental health management? Get the fuck in touch! Find more at t-mfrs.com  --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/complextrauma/message

The masks we wear; Hiding mental illness

August 08, 2020 10:00 - 40 minutes - 37.7 MB

Sound quality warning! Get ready for some birds and bees. When you can't talk about your experiences and subsequent mental illness... you hide it. I spent my life trying to patch the holes with all sorts of disguise; fading into the background, embodying a subservient worker bee, coating my exhausted face with layers of paint. In hindsight, to pacify other people and fit into the "healthy herd."  Did it ever really work? Nah, motherfuckers. Nobody has ever called this walking war against s...

Emotional roller coasters; The rise is relative to the fall

August 06, 2020 12:00 - 18 minutes - 17 MB

Anyone else have big emotions that shift faster than the wind? One moment I'm floating, the next I'm fucking sinking. External circumstances don't even have to wreck this ship; I have an explosive boiler room powering this ocean liner. With spiraling thoughts, fear-based perception, and a general ignorance of what "doing well" even means... it's hard to keep positive emotions stable or properly name your mental state. Everything is relative, and compared to others, I'm relatively-great at be...

Early Days Rerelease: Deactivation, hot & cold relationships explained

August 05, 2020 18:00 - 19 minutes - 18.1 MB

Ever heard of Deactivation? I hadn't either. But it explains a lot about my do-or-die relationships and flighty nature.  A die-hard companion. A martyr for relationships. A friend until the end. (READ: A codependent mess) UNTIL I'M NOT. Here for you one day, freaked out and disappeared the next. Is this a shitty personality, or survival instincts gone wrong?  Time to research something new - Deactivation. Does this sound like you, too? You might belong in the TMFR Discord community. Head ...

Early Days Rerelease: Shame and C-PTSD

August 05, 2020 17:59 - 38 minutes - 35.6 MB

If you google Complex Trauma you'll find many mentions of Shame. I get it, I think, but also... What the fuck IS shame, exactly? How is it different from guilt? How does it interplay with Trauma? Doing some "real research" and reporting back on the hidden experience of Shame. One of the most painful and pervasive emotions. Wanna give me a new topic to look at? Report it at t-mfrs.com and I'll see what I can find on PubMed. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/...

"I can't" | Too inferior to fail

August 03, 2020 12:00 - 25 minutes - 23.7 MB

Always waiting for something to change before you can? Convinced that the obstacle is too large - and uncomfortable - to start climbing? Yeah, me too. But rest assured, no one knows what the fuck they're doing. The inferiority fear and resistance is more than half the battle. Get moving and figure it out as you go, Motherfucker.  Find me at t-mfrs.com  --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/complextrauma/message

Early Days Rerelease: Trauma and physical manifestions

August 01, 2020 17:58 - 41 minutes - 38.2 MB

So... things suddenly aren't going so well with your body? Weird shit is happening, acutely and chronically?  Sorry, Motherfucker. Welcome to the world of trauma manifestation in physical symptoms. Talking flashbacks, dissociation, and all the assorted ailments you can expect. Plus, my general advice based on what helped me quiet down these autoimmune diseases, digestive failures, acid reflux, FUPAs, migraines, and more. Take it or leave it. What did I miss? I'm sure there's a lot more. Le...

Early Days Rerelease: Punk Rock Saved My Life

August 01, 2020 17:58 - 39 minutes - 36.3 MB

Punk Rock Saved My Life. Original assertion? Nope. #frankturner  Punk is the trauma genre, drawing misfits and unwanted outsiders together to create their own community. And they don't have time for yer basic shit.  Fact is, if I hadn't become a punk, I probably would have followed in my family footsteps. Without this community, lord knows I wouldn't have escaped my circumstances; abuse, addiction, poverty, and rural-shittery. Wanna check out the musics? Find the Spotify playlist! Search T...

Was it really "Trauma?"

July 31, 2020 12:00 - 31 minutes - 28.8 MB

Or am I just dramatic? It's hard to know, when our culture has reduced "PTSD" to mean "Soldiers' disease." Oh, and your history-denying family? Yeah, they're not helping either. What is "Trauma," and how do you cope with the diagnosis? Feeling the Trauma-shaming shakeup? Hey, us too. Jump into the community or get in touch at www.t-mfrs.com --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/complextrauma/message

Complex obstacle; Starting therapy

July 28, 2020 12:00 - 29 minutes - 27.3 MB

What's harder than living in hell everyday? Finding someone who can help you get out. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/complextrauma/message

Early Days Rerelease: Traumastates - Like remembering a fever nightmare

July 26, 2020 17:57 - 19 minutes - 18.1 MB

Looking back on those days of trauma-responses and utter misery... sometimes feels more like trying to remember a fever nightmare, rather than recalling the past.  --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message

Early Days Rerelease: Emotional roller coasters | The rise is relative to the fall

July 25, 2020 17:55 - 19 minutes - 18.2 MB

Anyone else have big emotions that shift faster than the wind? One moment I'm floating, the next I'm fucking sinking. External circumstances don't even have to wreck this ship; I have an explosive boiler room powering this ocean liner. With spiraling thoughts, fear-based perception, and a general ignorance of what "doing well" even means... it's hard to keep positive emotions stable or properly name your mental state. Everything is relative, and compared to others, I'm relatively-great at be...

Walkntalk | “All your fault,” shinner critic screams.

July 24, 2020 19:49 - 21 minutes - 20.2 MB

Shit inner critic, that is. Mine‘s been rearing his ugly fucking face in regards to personal relationships... Logical brain quietly disagrees. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/complextrauma/message

The nightmarish experience of trauma-living

July 22, 2020 15:52 - 16 minutes - 15.5 MB

Looking back on those days of trauma-responses and utter misery... sometimes feels more like trying to remember a nightmare, rather than recalling the past.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Like remembering a fever nightmare

July 22, 2020 15:52 - 16 minutes - 15.5 MB

Looking back on those days of trauma-responses and utter misery... sometimes feels more like trying to remember a fever nightmare, rather than recalling the past.  --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/complextrauma/message

What IS Complex Trauma?

July 22, 2020 15:39 - 42 minutes - 38.9 MB

When we discuss this C-PTSD thing... what the fuck are we really talking about? What is it? How does it happen? What are the long lasting effects? What did I forget? Write to me at t-mfrs.com --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/complextrauma/message

Early Days Rerelease: “I’m doing fine,” and other human lies

July 21, 2020 17:54 - 24 minutes - 22.1 MB

Revisiting an old post, from May 2020.  Tired of painting on a happy face? We all are. For better or for worse, we have all been programmed to keep our heads down and project utter bliss, or at least sufficient satisfaction, to the entire planet. This only equips us with the universal expectation that everyone is actually fine, and we should be too.  If you're tired of being "fine," you know where to find other Fuckers. Join up at www.t-mfrs.com --- Send in a voice message: https://podc...

Early Days Rerelease: "I can't" | Too inferior to fail

July 21, 2020 17:53 - 27 minutes - 25.6 MB

Always waiting for something to change before you can? Convinced that the obstacle is too large - and uncomfortable - to start climbing? Yeah, me too. But rest assured, no one knows what the fuck they're doing. The inferiority fear and resistance is more than half the battle. Get moving and figure it out as you go, Motherfucker.  Find me at t-mfrs.com  --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/complextrauma/message

Early Days Rerelease: The masks we wear | Hiding mental illness

July 17, 2020 17:52 - 42 minutes - 38.6 MB

Sound quality warning! Get ready for some birds and bees. When you can't talk about your experiences and subsequent mental illness... you hide it. I spent my life trying to patch the holes with all sorts of disguise; fading into the background, embodying a subservient worker bee, coating my exhausted face with layers of paint. In hindsight, to pacify other people and fit into the "healthy herd."  Did it ever really work? Nah, motherfuckers. Nobody has ever called this walking war against s...

Live | HIATUS; I am the project of a lifetime

July 16, 2020 12:00 - 26 minutes - 24.7 MB

Compulsive workaholic for the sake of escaping your own life? Holler - lifetime member of the Overdoing It club. All that self-neglect in the name of accomplishing? It makes me lose sight of my complex trauma recovery. This past month of June, I was deep in a work-tunnel, escaping from myself.  This Traumatized Motherfucker cast/blog/community is fun and fulfilling - but I forgot something critical - TMFRs isn't running the show; I'M the real project. You know I have plenty to work on witho...

HIATUS; I am the project of a lifetime

July 16, 2020 12:00 - 26 minutes - 24.7 MB

Compulsive workaholic for the sake of escaping your own life? Holler - lifetime member of the Overdoing It club. All that self-neglect in the name of accomplishing? It makes me lose sight of my complex trauma recovery. This past month of June, I was deep in a work-tunnel, escaping from myself.  This Traumatized Motherfucker cast/blog/community is fun and fulfilling - but I forgot something critical - TMFRs isn't running the show; I'M the real project. You know I have plenty to work on witho...

Brain Overload; Trauma or just busted?

July 16, 2020 10:00 - 24 minutes - 22.5 MB

Am I the only Motherfucker who suffers from chronic brain overwhelm and thought disorganization? It feels like info and events from my life flutter around this brain box like a swirling ticker tape parade. And MF, it really doesn't take much for my head to get filled with garbage.  Integrating the details to form a cohesive, realistic picture of what's going on in front of me? Not inherently good at it. Sometimes this foggy, disorganized brain leaves me feeling handicapped when "normal life...

Blog | Appearance perfectionism and trauma; AKA, Fuck Jogging Jenny down the block

July 15, 2020 15:41 - 20 minutes - 18.7 MB

Nothing is ever good enough. Myself, especially. What's the issue with having "high standards?" Uhh... developing behaviors that actively work against you and cause new mental anguish, for starters.  How does this Trauma Brain take physical health and turn it into a life-breaking activity? The same way it takes most innocuous behaviors and gets detrimentally obsessive to the max; easily. If you aren’t treating your exercise regime as a method of self-care and mental health management.... yo...

Appearance perfectionism and trauma; AKA, Fuck Jogging Jenny down the block

July 15, 2020 15:41 - 20 minutes - 18.7 MB

Nothing is ever good enough. Myself, especially. What's the issue with having "high standards?" Uhh... developing behaviors that actively work against you and cause new mental anguish, for starters.  How does this Trauma Brain take physical health and turn it into a life-breaking activity? The same way it takes most innocuous behaviors and gets detrimentally obsessive to the max; easily. If you aren’t treating your exercise regime as a method of self-care and mental health management.... yo...

Message to the Motherfuckers

July 15, 2020 14:41 - 7 minutes - 6.97 MB

On the off-chance you're connecting with this lone weirdo talkin'bout emotions and abuse on a self-produced podcast... You actually aren't alone. So stop acting like it. Get outside your comfort zone and speak your experience - you know I'm doing it all the time, and I haven't combusted yet. Hop over to t-mfrs.com to say hey or join the TMFR support community hosted on Discord. Tell or ask me anything; after what I've been through, you know I can't judge anyone else. This is all just one lo...

Angry atheist to Woo-wonderer; Belief & C-PTSD recovery

July 13, 2020 11:00 - 38 minutes - 35.9 MB

Sometimes I slip up and mention things relating to my personal belief system... honestly, I feel a bit embarrassed by it and I don't want to push it on anyone. I try to keep my mouth tightly sewn shut instead of singing my praises of the Universe. But maybe that's doing everyone a disservice. Letting myself consider that there could be more to life than the scientific black-and-white world that I subscribed to was a huge part of my trauma recovery. I wouldn't still be standing if I hadn't s...

Workaholics Anon

July 11, 2020 11:30 - 36 minutes - 33.7 MB

I’m one rigid bitch. Maybe not in my beliefs or judgements of others... but shit, I can’t handle my own self. My days? Wake up, work out, werk werk werk until these eyes are ready to BLEED, promise I’m going to do better tomorrow, rinse and repeat. I never realized that this always-moving, constantly-accomplishing mindset was a part of my trauma. But hey, like everything else in life, it all goes back to childhood coping, fucked up core beliefs, anxiety and avoidance. Thanks, trauma! You ma...

Ironic followup; Saying goodbye... Also, git fucked.

July 10, 2020 20:46 - 34 minutes - 31.5 MB

Remember that post a few hours ago, "Enjoy saying goodbye to people you love"? How about an immediate update on putting it into practice? Hilarious, universe. I’m here for it.  I'm talking real shit that's happened in my week. Things I normally keep to myself... buttfuckit, the timing is too ironic. Who's ready for a rant about actively accepting loss and the challenges of going unheard to roughly half the population? Warning: I miiight be dragging hard on men in this one. Sorry if you're ...

Learn to enjoy saying goodbye to people you love

July 10, 2020 11:00 - 57 minutes - 53.5 MB

Learn to say goodbye to people you love. "Yeah fucking right?"  Fair. But there are times when I can believe it.  Relationships have always been the most important part of my life; for worse or for... still worse. You know, I've lost a lot of folks in the past year. Don't worry, they're still above ground - but we don't take walks together anymore.  At any other time, these relationship losses would be the final straw for this hunchback. But(t) luckily, I've learned how to enjoy saying goo...

Early Days Rerelease: Trauma Loops pt II: Stagnancy, terrible relationships, and self-abuse

July 08, 2020 17:51 - 56 minutes - 51.6 MB

Last time we talked Endless Trauma Loops pt I, I recounted the disappointing discovery that I've been living the same trauma-born mistakes for the past 10 years on repeat. I was both so smart - and clearly so fucking dense - to get stuck in the same life-halting traps for a decade. So, what are those repeat mishaps? Stagnancy and overdrive, tough relationships, anxious attachments, health-obsession and abuse, escapism, and an undercurrent of giving up on myself, to name a few... Sounds fami...

Blog | Trauma Loops pt II: Stagnancy, terrible relationships, and self-abuse

July 08, 2020 16:53 - 57 minutes - 53 MB

Last time we talked Endless Trauma Loops pt I, I recounted the disappointing discovery that I've been living the same trauma-born mistakes for the past 10 years on repeat. I was both so smart - and clearly so fucking dense - to get stuck in the same life-halting traps for a decade. So, what are those repeat mishaps? Stagnancy and overdrive, tough relationships, anxious attachments, health-obsession and abuse, escapism, and an undercurrent of giving up on myself, to name a few... Sounds fami...

Trauma Loops pt II: Stagnancy, terrible relationships, and self-abuse

July 08, 2020 16:53 - 54 minutes - 50 MB

Last time we talked Endless Trauma Loops pt I, I recounted the disappointing discovery that I've been living the same trauma-born mistakes for the past 10 years on repeat. I was both so smart - and clearly so fucking dense - to get stuck in the same life-halting traps for a decade. So, what are those repeat mishaps? Stagnancy and overdrive, tough relationships, anxious attachments, health-obsession and abuse, escapism, and an undercurrent of giving up on myself, to name a few... Sounds fami...

Blog | Leveraging Anger in the war of Complex Trauma Recovery

July 07, 2020 14:00 - 22 minutes - 21.1 MB

Anger has a bad rap. No, we don't need more angst or outrage in this world... but when your emotions are limited by anxiety, overwhelm, and triggers, a Motherfucker only has so many options. "Finding Peace," and, "Believing in Bright Sides," aren't going to be on that list.  This is how indigence can be a useful tool to kickstart a trauma recovery journey. Git mad, git proactive, and prove that all those fuckers who held you back back before won't hold you down forever.  By the way, I wron...