Feelin Weird
209 episodes - English - Latest episode: 10 months ago - ★★★★★ - 181 ratings* ACCESS ALL PAST EPISODES AT PATREON.COM/FEELINWEIRD *
Gentle, intimate, & heartfelt conversations about taboo and stigmatized subjects aimed to normalize the humyn experience and to create a feeling of "I'm not alone!"
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(BONUS EP) Waking Up To Love and Feelings (ITASAOAMB?! Part 1)
April 05, 2021 15:39 - 57 minutes - 32.9 MBPart 1 of "Is This A Spiritual Awakening (or a mental breakdown)?!" (A short series during a period in my life where I am experiencing some kind of awakening/understanding of my self and the world I exist in (and aware that it MIGHT sound "crazy" to some people). I discuss all sorts of silly/playful ideas about this idea of really FEELing everything): ideas like "maybe all this entire experience is IS a WAVE of FEELINGS and feeeeeling states?" I also talk about: CRYing while eating PIZZA;...
Waking Up To Love and Feelings (ITASAOAMB?! Part 1) (PATREON Bonus Ep)
April 01, 2021 19:00 - 57 minutes - 33.1 MBPart 1 of "Is This A Spiritual Awakening (OR a mental breakdown)?!" (A short series during a period in my life where I am experiencing some kind of awakening/understanding of my self and the world I exist in (and aware that it MIGHT sound "crazy" to some people). I discuss all sorts of silly/playful ideas about this idea of really FEELing everything): ideas like "maybe all this entire experience is IS a WAVE of FEELINGS and feeeeeling states?" I also talk about: CRYing while eating PIZZA;...
105. Unlearning Toxic Masculinity (w/ Hillary L Mcbride)
March 24, 2021 17:30 - 1 hour - 48.7 MBHillary L McBride (Therapist, Writer, Podcaster) has a HEART-FELT conversation/connection with me about unlearning toxic masculinity (harm) and reconnecting with AUTHENTIC self (among MANY other things)(healing). I cried, I laughed, I loved this. We also discuss: eating disorders; feminism; healing with love; patriarchy as a harm to EVERY-ONE; colonization; systems that disconnect self from self and others; therapy/counselling; understanding projections; sitting with the fear; unlearning ...
105. Unlearning Toxic Masculinity + Reconnecting With Authentic Self (w/ Hillary L Mcbride)
March 24, 2021 17:30 - 1 hour - 48.7 MBHillary L McBride (Therapist, Writer, Podcaster, Magical Humyn) has a HEART-FELT conversation/connection with me about unlearning toxic masculinity (harm) and reconnecting with AUTHENTIC self (among MANY other things)(healing). I cried, I laughed, I loved this. We also discuss: eating disorders; feminism; healing with love; patriarchy as a harm to EVERY-ONE; colonization; systems that disconnect self from self and others; therapy/counselling; understanding projections; sitting with the fe...
104. Ask Me Anything! (w/ Tuna Melt)
February 28, 2021 14:08 - 1 hour - 48.3 MBMy partner and I sit down to answer questions asked via an A.M.A. prompt (on IG). Topics include: gender queer, internet bullying, sexual shame, wanting to be seen, moving across the country, laughter, psilocybin, BPD, autism, pronouns, learning to love my body, the creative process, making music, fear, not having a job, crying along to songs, and SO much more! Buy MERCH: www.kyeplant.bandcamp.com PATREON: www.patreon.com/feelinweird DONATE via Paypal Instagram: @feelinweirdpod We...
103. Masculinity, Privilege + Dads
January 19, 2021 16:20 - 2 hours - 94.8 MBBlair joins me to discuss relationships with our dads, being raised male, repressed emotions, cool guys, toxic masculinity, what "success" means, being young punks, the harm we've caused, unlearning bias and learning tenderness. We also talk music!, anxiety, depression, vulnerability, stoicism, feeling shy, masking fear, bullying, conflict, physicality as identity, feeling DIFFERENT, stress, aging, authentic connection, privilege as harmful for all, drinking, nurturing childlike wonder, an...
Listening to Inner Wisdom (PATREON Bonus Ep 44)
January 05, 2021 16:34 - 1 hour - 39.1 MBA Patreon BONUS episode (audio journal) in which I discuss SLOWING down (REST); tapping into inner wisdom; finding CALM, AUTHENTIC strength within; a perfect counselling experience; processing anger; and showing up as authentically as possible. To listen to more bonus episodes like this, visit the Feelin Weird PATREON! I also talk about fitting into a world that doesn't make sense to me; GRIEVING my childhood; feeling perpetually dissatisfied; enlightenment; xmas feelings; shedding my de...
BONUS: Listening to Inner Wisdom + Finding Calm, Authentic Strength (audio journal)
January 05, 2021 16:34 - 1 hour - 39.1 MBA Patreon BONUS episode (audio journal) in which I discuss SLOWING down (REST); tapping into inner wisdom; a perfect counselling experience; processing anger; and showing up as authentically as possible. To listen to more bonus episodes like this, visit http://www.Patreon.com/feelinweird I also talk about fitting into a world that doesn't make sense to me; GRIEVING my childhood; feeling perpetually dissatisfied; enlightenment; xmas feelings; shedding my defensive/protective parts; spirit...
On Processing BIG Feelings + Judgements (Patreon Bonus ep40)
December 11, 2020 18:02 - 49 minutes - 35.3 MBAn audio journal in which I discuss how I process big feelings as a result of being triggered by what someone else says/does AND how I see how my projections play a part in that process. Patreon Bonus Episode! Go to www.patreon.com/feelinweird to listen to every bonus episode. I also discuss: learning to collaborate; judging my feelings; BPD; 'feeling' rejected; wanting to lash out; non-violent communication; making space for OLD pain; learning to play again; and SO much more! Record...
On Processing BIG Feelings + Judgements (PATREON Bonus Ep 40)
December 11, 2020 18:02 - 49 minutes - 35.3 MBAn audio journal in which I discuss how I process big feelings as a result of being triggered by what someone else says/does AND how I see how my projections play a part in that process. This is a PATREON Bonus Episode! Go to www.patreon.com/feelinweird to listen to every bonus episode & to support the show. I also discuss: learning to collaborate; judging my feelings; BPD; 'feeling' rejected; wanting to lash out; non-violent communication; making space for OLD pain; learning to play a...
BONUS: On Processing BIG Feelings + Judgements
December 11, 2020 18:02 - 49 minutes - 35.3 MBPatreon Bonus Episode! Go to www.patreon.com/feelinweird to listen to every bonus episode. An audio journal in which I discuss how I process big feelings as a result of being triggered by what someone else says/does AND how I see how my projections play a part in that process. I also discuss: learning to collaborate; judging my feelings; BPD; 'feeling' rejected; wanting to lash out; non-violent communication; making space for OLD pain; learning to play again; and SO much more! Recorde...
102. Big Feelings About Parents + Autism
November 29, 2020 16:37 - 1 hour - 83.8 MBNic (Pynk Spots, Bitchy Shit Show, etc) talks repressing emotions, anger, disability, getting diagnosed with autism as an adult and SO MUCH more! Listen-to and/or Watch my episode (ep 002) on Pynk Spots Support Feelin Weird on PATREON: www.patreon.com/feelinweird Buy M E R C H: www.kyeplant.bandcamp.com Donate via PAYPAL: www.feelinweird.com Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Email: [email protected]
102. Big Feelings, Challenging Parents + Autism (w/ Nic of Pynk Spots, Bitchy Shitshow)
November 29, 2020 16:37 - 1 hour - 84.6 MBNic (Pynk Spots, Bitchy Shit Show, etc) talks repressing emotions, anger, disability, getting diagnosed with autism as an adult and SO MUCH more! Listen-to and/or Watch my episode (ep 002) on Pynk Spots SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin ...
102. Big Feelings, Challenging Parents + Autism (w/ Nic of Pynk Spots)
November 29, 2020 16:37 - 1 hour - 83.8 MBNic (Pynk Spots, Bitchy Shit Show, etc) talks repressing emotions, anger, disability, getting diagnosed with autism as an adult and SO MUCH more! Listen-to and/or Watch my episode (ep 002) on Pynk Spots Support Feelin Weird on PATREON: www.patreon.com/feelinweird Buy M E R C H: www.kyeplant.bandcamp.com Donate via PAYPAL: www.feelinweird.com Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Email: [email protected]
102. Big Feelings & Autism!
November 29, 2020 16:37 - 1 hour - 84.6 MBNic (Pynk Spots, Bitchy Shit Show, etc) talks repressing emotions, anger, disability, getting diagnosed with autism as an adult and SO MUCH more! Listen-to and/or Watch my episode (ep 002) on Pynk Spots SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin ...
101. Autism
November 19, 2020 19:17 - 1 hour - 76.8 MBTobias didn't receive his autism diagnosis until he was in his 20s! In this episode, he explains disability, stimming, masking, ableism, and his experiences and obstacles. We also discuss: sensory overstimulation; not having childhood memories; eye contact; closed captions; accessibility barriers; learning disabilities; CRIP CAMP; fear of disability; disability-first language; conversion therapy (ABA); shame; unlearning bias; colonialism; neurodivergence and neurotypicality; and SO much m...
100. Understanding Emotions (w/ Hilary Jacobs Hendel)
November 04, 2020 12:13 - 1 hour - 46 MBHilary Jacobs Hendel (author of "It's Not Always Depression"; psychotherapist) explains AEDP, how emotions & trauma function, and how shame, depression and anxiety act as adaptive states. We also discuss: emotionphobic culture; laughter as a defence; feeling overwhelmed & dissociated; banishing parts of the self; repressing emotions; triggers; emotional neglect; "the body knows how to heal"; creating a sense of safety; and SO much more! Hilary's website: http://hilaryjacobshendel.com/ ...
99. Blackness & Mental Health
October 20, 2020 13:43 - 1 hour - 83.4 MB(CW: brief talk of suicide & self harm) Alexis explains how white supremacy and racism has drastically impacted her mental health as a black womyn. She talks growing up in white spaces; needing to work X times harder than white people to get half as much; and the power of collective/communal trauma & healing. We also discuss: depression; suicide + self harm; dissociation; feeling HIGHLY sensitive + emotional; challenging parents; learning to trust people; embracing softness & vulnerabi...
98. Anxiety + Chasing the Present (w/ James Sebastiano Jr.)
September 29, 2020 17:52 - 1 hour - 79.2 MBJames Sebastiano Jr. talks anxiety, depression, and his pursuit to understand his mental health, all of which are topics of his recent film, Chasing The Present (available Sept 29, 2020). We also discuss: panic attacks; numbing feelings with drugs/alcohol; learning to suppress feelings at a young age; masculinity; opening up to parents; ayahuasca; getting everything you've ever wanted (and still feeling empty); spirituality; meditation; anxiety as a warning signal; self-sabotage; surrender...
97. AEDP (w/ Penny Fenske)
September 15, 2020 22:27 - 1 hour - 58.3 MBPenny Fenske (AEDP practitioner, clinical counselor) explains what Accelerated Experiential Dynamic Psychotherapy IS and how it affects people. Penny is one of the warmest, kindest, strongest people I know and I feel so honoured to share this conversation. I myself have gained tremendous benefits from this therapy modality! We also discuss trauma; learning to trust people; DSM diagnoses; connected-healing; BPD; depression; anxiety; attachment wounds; and we give a real-time example of wh...
96. Social Justice, Allyship + Reparenting
September 01, 2020 00:02 - 2 hours - 105 MBPEPAḴIYE Ashley Cooper returns (episode 18) to continue the discussion about race, racism and stepping into fear. She tells of her experience as an indigenous woman, reclaiming her identity, culture, language and sense of belonging. This is a tender and HEARTWARMING conversation with a DEAR friend of mine. We also discuss: INTERGENERATIONAL TRAUMA; unlearning BIAS; learning to let love in; inner-child healing; gender; adult children of alcoholics; learning to PLAY again; decolonizing; fe...
96. Social Justice, Allyship + Reparenting Your Inner-Child
September 01, 2020 00:02 - 2 hours - 105 MBPEPAḴIYE Ashley Cooper returns (episode 18) to continue the discussion about race, racism and stepping into fear. She tells of her experience as an indigenous woman, reclaiming her identity, culture, language and sense of belonging. This is a tender and HEARTWARMING conversation with a DEAR friend of mine. We also discuss: INTERGENERATIONAL TRAUMA; unlearning BIAS; learning to let love in; inner-child healing; gender; adult children of alcoholics; learning to PLAY again; decolonizing; fe...
95. Race, Racism + Fear of Failure (Part 2)
August 20, 2020 19:00 - 2 hours - 75.5 MBChayenne (Episode 94) returns to continue the conversation about privilege, identity and belonging. We also discuss: SHAME, white men; "all lives matter"; understanding my gender; feeling invalidated by parents; "I don't see colour"; LABELS; editing parts of the self; collective trauma; collective gaslighting + trauma response; naming "the thing' and MUCH more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscr...
94. Race, Racism + Fear of Failure
August 10, 2020 12:23 - 3 hours - 100 MBChayenne and I enter into a topic that I feel SCARED of: RACE AND RACISM. Chayenne called me IN to this discussion (I wanted to avoid it because I felt so scared of getting it wrong and being punished). As a result, I've grown A LOT from it. This is a conversation about fear, connection, and the POWER of gentle kindness (in my judgement)! We discuss privilege; calling people IN; call-out & cancel culture; body shame; sense of self + belonging; grace; learning to make mistakes; fear/sh...
94. Race, Racism + Fear of Failure (Part 1)
August 10, 2020 12:23 - 3 hours - 100 MBThis is a conversation about fear, connection, and the POWER of gentle kindness! Chayenne and I enter into a topic that I feel SCARED of: RACE AND RACISM. Chayenne called me IN to this discussion (I wanted to avoid it because I felt so scared of getting it wrong and being punished). As a result, I've grown A LOT from it. We discuss: privilege; calling people IN; call-out & cancel culture; body shame; sense of self + belonging; grace; learning to make mistakes; fear/shame-based parenting; ...
93. Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD)
July 30, 2020 13:38 - 1 hour - 48.9 MBNicole explains the feeling of wearing an emotional sunburn for 3 weeks of every month--like being in a tunnel: impossible to see the future, seemingly lost and stuck in struggle. This is her experience with PMDD and she wants people out there to know they're not alone. We also discuss: deleting everyone from social media, letting love in, endometriosis, everyone's unique way of processing their hurt, toxic relationships, not remembering as a survival strategy, BPD, challenges with the me...
92. Bipolar Psych Nurse Returns
June 29, 2020 04:30 - 1 hour - 40.8 MBMy guest from episode 37 returns to explain her last two psychotic episodes and her visits to (and stays in) psychiatric emergency ("the psych ward"), where she received 8 treatments of ECT. We also discuss grief, compulsions & intrusive thoughts (OCD), wanting to be 'off meds', connection with others, and SO much more! *Listen to the FULL episode at https://www.patreon.com/feelinweird SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypa...
91. The Good in People (w/ Luke Ramsey)
May 31, 2020 23:12 - 1 hour - 48.9 MBArtist Luke Ramsey joins me to discuss creativity and the challenges of everyday life. We discuss the importance of adults/teachers in the creative journey; toxic shame; feeling compassion for self; wanting to quit; crying in public spaces; and SO MUCH MORE! "If you're stoking that fire of warmth and goodness within yourself then you want to resonate that in others" Find Luke's art at https://lukeramseystudio.com or on instagram @lukeramseystudio Post a drawing inspired by this e...
90. Self-Harm
April 01, 2020 03:33 - 1 hour - 47.4 MBMy guest grew up as a happy child but when she turned 8, her "happiness faded". She felt perpetually scared of angering her father and her mother was dealing with depression. Eventually my guest turned to self-harm as a way of coping: digging her finger nails into her skin, she felt a sense of relief. In this episode, we discuss fear of conflict, the challenge of puberty, fear of not being liked, perfectionism, feeling empowered, needs, fear of expressing anger, AND MUCH more! *...
89. Fear of Happiness
January 12, 2020 20:00 - 1 hour - 45.3 MBMy guest and I discuss addiction, challenging families, how to NOT pass on trauma to your kids, feeling okay with doing nothing, needing creativity, FOMO, the quest for power and fame and SO much more. CW: brief talk of self-harm and suicide. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here...
88. Reparenting, BPD + Boundaries
December 03, 2019 00:20 - 1 hour - 48.7 MBTessa (@citywitch) talks about the COMPLEX relationship with their mother, their B.P.D. + Bipolar diagnoses, learning what their needs are, fantasy as escape, somatic therapy, and reparenting their inner child! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus F...
BONUS #25: BPD + HEALING (w/ My Partner)
November 18, 2019 00:57 - 1 hour - 42.5 MBMy partner and I discuss my Borderline Personality Disorder diagnosis and how I've found space to heal and grow. We also discuss: understanding trauma & attachment wounds; identifying needs; communicating needs & boundaries; chaotic relationships; and fear of rejection/abandonment. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinwe...
BPD + HEALING (w/ My Partner) (PATREON Bonus Ep 25)
November 18, 2019 00:57 - 1 hour - 42.5 MBMy partner and I discuss my Borderline Personality Disorder diagnosis and how I've found space to heal and grow. This is a PATREON Bonus Episode! Go to www.patreon.com/feelinweird to listen to every bonus episode & to support the show. We also discuss: understanding trauma & attachment wounds; identifying needs; communicating needs & boundaries; chaotic relationships; and fear of rejection/abandonment. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.c...
87. Compassion + Rage (w/ RAIN DOVE)
November 03, 2019 22:13 - 1 hour - 31.4 MBRain Dove talks about the complex relationship between compassion and rage: how they deal with a stranger's anger being directed at them. We also discuss: activism; gender; trusting others; trauma; 'righteous rage'; power dynamics; violence; making mistakes; and SO MUCH MORE! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Em...
86. Purity Culture
October 07, 2019 03:30 - 1 hour - 42.5 MBMagnolia McKay talks about being raised Christian (where abstinence-based sexuality was the norm) + the pain and confusion that surrounded that experience. We also discuss: Spiritual Abuse, Divorce, Shame, Sexual Repression, being attracted to multiple genders, reclaiming her sexuality, and much MORE! Listen to Kye's Christianity story in episode P17! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on A...
PATREON BONUS 22: Men, Anger + Communication
September 10, 2019 00:00 - 49 minutes - 26.3 MBLevi Chase (returning guest) and I both share a fear of men (and trauma at the hands of men). Both of us attend weekly MKP I-Groups (a men's organization that acts as a direct response to 'toxic masculinity': men taking ownership and accountability for their actions and trauma). In this episode, the two of us talk all things MEN, ANGER, OWNING OUR SHIT, HEALING, and COMMUNICATION! We also talk about: being former 'social justice warriors', owning my trauma VS. projecting my tra...
85. Disordered Eating + Trauma
August 27, 2019 00:12 - 1 hour - 48.5 MBCarey Niekrash spent YEARS binge-eating + restricting + over-exercising + dieting + hating herself and her body. Holy shit, she's come a long way! She's now an anti-diet health coach, but on this episode she talks ALL about her past. We also discuss: BULIMIA, postpartum depression, sexual assault (TW), being highly-sensitive and an introvert, out-patient treatments, perfectionism + PRESSURE, therapy + healing, and SO MUCH more! Visit Carey's instagram & website SUPPORT via P...
84. MCAS (Mast Cell Activation Syndrome)
July 22, 2019 03:21 - 1 hour - 45.6 MBAn Anonymous guest talks about growing up in psych-hospitals and foster homes, coming from an abusive and violent home, and Mast Cell Activation Syndrome. We also discuss: suicide attempts (TW), psychiatric meds, being allergic to the sun, psychiatric diagnoses (and how useful/restrictive they are), assisted suicide, alternative healing, and MUCH more! SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Su...
83. Losing a Sibling to Suicide
June 14, 2019 19:00 - 1 hour - 49.8 MBRhandi's brother was diagnosed as a sociopath at a young age--he tortured animals and had violent anger outbursts (like his dad, yet more dangerous). They grew up in violent, unsafe homes in Michigan and never felt like they belonged. Rhandi's relationship with her brother was tumultuous (at best) and his recent suicide has left her feeling confused, devastated and angry: she didn't like her brother, but she loved him. CW: suicide, sexual abuse, animal abuse, violence. This episode tru...
83. Sibling Suicide
June 14, 2019 19:00 - 1 hour - 49.8 MBRhandi's brother was diagnosed as a sociopath at a young age--he tortured animals and had violent anger outbursts (like his dad, yet more dangerous). They grew up in violent, unsafe homes in Michigan and never felt like they belonged. Rhandi's relationship with her brother was tumultuous (at best) and his recent suicide has left her feeling confused, devastated and angry: she didn't like her brother, but she loved him. CW: suicide, sexual abuse, animal abuse, violence. This episode tru...
82. Anorexia (Non Wels Pt2)
May 22, 2019 19:00 - 55 minutes - 41.1 MB(CW: anorexia, suicidal ideation.) (PART TWO!) Non Wels, at age 21, living in Wales, weighed 118lbs because of anorexia. A doctor told him that he was about to die if he didn't change his disordered eating. He was in a constant state of pain. His hair fell out. He had no fat on his body. Now, he's in his late 30's and recovered. This is his journey. We also discuss over-exercise; NEEDING support; the importance of therapy & feeling feelings!; attachment theory; growing older; menta...
81. Scary Parents: Dealing With Unsupportive Family (Non Wels Pt 1)
May 19, 2019 19:00 - 1 hour - 43.2 MBNon Wels talks about being a hyper-sensitive, weirdo-artist humyn and what it was like to grow up with an angry, scary dad! We talk about asserting boundaries and interacting with those scary parents as adults. We also discuss: craving control because of chaos; embracing the chaos; wishing our dad's weren't alive; feeling like a dang weirdo who doesn't fit in; AND LOTS MORE. Listen to PART TWO here! Follow Non: @youmeempathy SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ ...
81. Scary Parents + Boundaries (Non Wels Pt1)
May 19, 2019 19:00 - 1 hour - 43.2 MBNon Wels talks about being a hyper-sensitive, weirdo-artist humyn and what it was like to grow up with an angry, scary dad! We talk about asserting boundaries and interacting with those scary parents as adults. We also discuss: craving control because of chaos; embracing the chaos; wishing our dad's weren't alive; feeling like a dang weirdo who doesn't fit in; AND LOTS MORE. Listen to PART TWO here! Follow Non: @youmeempathy SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ ...
81. Scary Parents + Boundaries
May 19, 2019 19:00 - 1 hour - 43.2 MBNon Wels talks about being a hyper-sensitive, weirdo-artist humyn and what it was like to grow up with an angry, scary dad! We talk about asserting boundaries and interacting with those scary parents as adults. We also discuss: craving control because of chaos; embracing the chaos; wishing our dad's weren't alive; feeling like a dang weirdo who doesn't fit in; AND LOTS MORE. Listen to PART TWO here! Follow Non: @youmeempathy Access ALL Feelin Weird episodes + bonus conte...
80. Childhood Emotional Neglect + BPD
May 04, 2019 19:00 - 1 hour - 46.6 MBKelsey talks emotionally neglectful parents; BPD; DBT; HEAVY emotions; HSP; dissociation; and coping mechanisms! Kelsey grew up feeling like her parents hated her and she's had troubled relationships ever since. She was eventually diagnosed with BPD, which we talk about at length, but what I find truly interesting is what some psychologists call Childhood Emotional Neglect: "Why do I feel so fucked up but can't point to any specific incident in my childhood??? My parents kept me well fed ...
79. Intergenerational Trauma
April 08, 2019 19:00 - 1 hour - 56.8 MBCarl M. tells the story of his father's chaotic and traumatic life (and how that affected Carl). Carl's grandfather abandoned the family and Carl's grandmother was mentally unstable and thus, Carl's father spent most of his own childhood physically ill and in institutions (hospitals and foster care). We discuss, directly and indirectly, the concept of intergenerational trauma and how our parents' and grandparents' pain and trauma lives in us and affects our lives. We also discuss: elec...
78. Sexual Assault + Pure O
March 17, 2019 22:38 - 1 hour - 79.8 MBAn Anonymous guest tells the story of how his childhood sexual abuse is tightly wound into his inability to "feel" heavy emotions (eg. when his best-friend died) and how later that manifested in what he now refers to as "Pure OCD". Then, as a 30 year old, he was sexually assaulted in a hook-up-gone-HORRIBLY-wrong on a foreign island, halfway across the world where homosexuality was either illegal or frowned upon--no one there for support; no one there to help him medically. He was damaged ...
77. Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors (BFRB)
March 11, 2019 19:00 - 51 minutes - 36.7 MBAneela Kumar struggled with hair pulling (trichotillomania) since a young age (because of an underlying anxiety). It wasn't until she was standing atop her business's building in NYC, wishing she could jump that she was able to finally make the changes to live a healthier life (quit her "stable", yet unfulfilling life, went backpacking, went back to school and started a career in a creative venture). She started a company called Habit Aware that has a Keen bracelet which helps people who su...
77. Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors (BFRBs)
March 11, 2019 19:00 - 51 minutes - 36.7 MBAneela Kumar struggled with hair pulling (trichotillomania) since a young age (because of an underlying anxiety). It wasn't until she was standing atop her business's building in NYC, wishing she could jump that she was able to finally make the changes to live a healthier life (quit her "stable", yet unfulfilling life, went backpacking, went back to school and started a career in a creative venture). She started a company called Habit Aware that has a Keen bracelet which helps people who su...
76. BPD + Father Trauma
February 18, 2019 03:00 - 1 hour - 56.7 MBJohn Penman talks: abusive cop father (trauma); bisexual shame; PTSD; BPD; self-harm; intuition; transforming pain into love; & more! He grew up with a father who was traumatized by his experience as a cop in Detroit in the post-"Crack Boom" era (when a once glorious city fell apart). His father constantly threatened to kill himself. He shot his gun in the house. He threatened to bring John to "little boy jail" if he didn't behave the way his father wanted. John's Father was transformed by...