EP3 - The dark side of my entrepreneurship journey and my fear of being homeless.

EP3 - The dark side of my entrepreneurship journey and my fear of being homeless.

[00:00:00] What's going on everyone. So hope you're having a fantastic day, night, afternoon, evening, whatever it is, wherever you are. Welcome back to another episode of moments of wisdom with Brett Williams. Now this lesson is going to be in and around chasing your dreams. Now, perhaps with everything that's going on right now, you're starting to think, you know what, okay, I'm going to take this opportunity to go and dive into my own dreams and really just, you know, go after it because maybe right now, Work has shifted work has changed.

[00:00:31] Maybe you don't have work. And you're really now starting to think, okay, so this online game, this making money outside of a nine to five, you know, other people are doing it, maybe I'm going to do it as well. And so in a share a little bit of a story about my journey and the moment that I made the decision to dive into pursuing my dreams, which, uh, now it would be.

[00:00:54] What was it be almost about sir, two and a half years ago now? I think it was that, that I left my nine to five and I took the leap of faith. And I really went after chasing after my own dreams. Now, granted, I didn't just make that decision there. And then in the moment, it wasn't a case of, I woke up one day and all of a sudden I was going to jump in with two feet and go after it now.

[00:01:17] In the backstory in the background, I had been working on my passion, working on my vision, working on my dreams for probably the best part of four to five years prior to that. And I think I mentioned in episode one where we're diving into. You know, network marketing, affiliate, marketing, uh, getting into coaching, making some money, investing into things that ended up going by, uh, bankrupt or bust or whatever, and losing a lot of money.

[00:01:47] And ultimately learning one heck of a lot of lessons when it came to my journey of this entrepreneurial and, uh, pursuing your dreams. Now end of the day, for what I saw, there was no real textbook. There was definitely a few things to understand, and there was. A heck of a lot to really actually learn when I actually really got into it and really dived into it.

[00:02:09] Because at the end of the day, when you're starting out, you do need to be a master of all talents. You need to be wearing every single hat. You need to be the marketer. You need to be the coach or the presenter or the. Generator of the products, whatever it might be that you're going to sell. And you also then need to be the branding expert, the social media expert and all of these things.

[00:02:31] And all of that takes time. Now they, um, they can definitely be obviously outsourced, as I said, in, in week one and or episode one, but at the same time, My experience. And one of the things that I saw was the fact that I'd heard stories about people getting taken advantage of financially. So in that moment, I made the decision that I was going to learn the lessons and learn the knowledge and wisdom for myself.

[00:02:54] And, you know, there's definitely advantages in doing that because I strongly believe that when you start out in business, that you should know every aspect of your business, it is not smart to outsource something. And not have any awareness about it, as much as it might be a resistance for yourself to learn about that specific topic or perhaps it is, uh, you know, just something that isn't interesting to you, but at the end of the day, you need to find a different perspective that is going to make sure that it is interesting to you because it depends on their success or your success of your business.

[00:03:27] Depends on it. And so two and a half years ago, when I made the decision to take that leap of faith, there is a, um, You know, thought process that went through my head and perhaps this is the one that you we're having at the moment. And one of the things that I really connect to is, um, you know, Steve jobs used to talk about it, you know, looking in the mirror every single day and asking himself if today was the day that I was going to die.

[00:03:51] Am I happy to be doing what I'm doing today? And at the end of the day, I might, I asked myself similar questions along the lines of that. And. Utilizing more of a case of like, if I was to die tomorrow, like, would I regret what I'm doing today or regret going forward or not going for it. And that's how I made my decision to ultimately just pack my bags and go for it.

[00:04:10] Now I did have some money in the bank, so it wasn't just completely, uh, you know, Taking a silly risk and a silly, a leap of faith. But the thing was because I burned through that money in a very short couple of months. Um, even though it was multiple, multiple thousands of dollars, I still burnt through it very, very quickly because I was learning.

[00:04:30] I was growing, I was trying to do everything and ultimately I didn't have any cash flow coming into the business for a period of time. And so it was all frantic stations with. That first moved to Bali now, uh, I knew in Bali that I had support networks around me and that side of things, and it was one of the reasons why I ended up choosing to go to Bali.

[00:04:48] And, you know, as I sit here, back in Perth, I can't wait to get back to Bali. I'm super pumped and excited to, uh, we'll see when the economy picks back up and the borders open and all that sort of thing. But at the end of the day, for me, it was really about. Working on each of those aspects within my business learning and growing their skills so that I can move my business forward and create a solid stable foundation for it.

[00:05:12] Now that's something, as I said, took them, took a long, long time. That's something that I'd been working on for quite a number of years prior to taking that leap of faith. And so, you know, even know that I had been putting all of that time, time, and effort and focus into it. I still found myself at times when I was in Bali with literally no money for food.

[00:05:34] And there was a couple of days where the money just wasn't coming in and for a few days for some clients and. There's very, literally a couple of days where I actually didn't eat, or maybe I had one meal at one of the local wild rooms, because it was only $2 Australian for the meal. Like things got very, very tough and tight now.

[00:05:53] There is a lot of people that probably don't necessarily talk about that. And that's something that is a very real aspect of getting into business. Like if your first business succeeds, well, then one you've done something. Right. But more importantly, you've probably flipped it. And the thing is, is it's all about being able to create repetition and, um, Replicating what it is that you did.

[00:06:16] So that ultimately comes down to understanding why and what you actually did to be able to achieve that. Now, if you've kind of just thrown everything at it and it's worked out for yourself, then the chances are, you know, there might also become a little bit of self doubt in there as well that says, you know, Gosh, can I, can I reap, can I recreate this?

[00:06:35] Like, can I do it again for the next product launch or for the next, um, you know, program or whatever it might be. And so, you know, really being able to create a sustainable and stability, stable income through your business is really important. And you know what? I. Put my hand up. That was something that I wasn't even aware of getting into it because one of the issues that I was doing at the time was, you know, and most entrepreneurs are doing this as well.

[00:06:59] They're trying to grow the business well, they're also trying to live off what profits that business makes for. And so at the end of the day, that just becomes a very, um, A challenging Seesaw, like experience because as the money comes in, you're using it for food, you're using it for, you know, other expenses, rent, phone, whatever it might be.

[00:07:22] And then at the same time, you're trying to have money to invest back into your business for say, maybe outsourcing some skills or maybe also in, uh, investing into paid marketing or whatever it might be. And so it really becomes a massive challenge and. That was something that I, as I said, didn't really appreciate back in the day.

[00:07:39] And, uh, you know, hindsight looking back, I wouldn't change anything, but sure as heck made my journey a lot longer, it made it a lot harder. Um, and it meant that I went through a lot more dark challenges. Now, one of the things in there as well, that I I'll touch on, on this one and we'll go into it a little bit more in another episode is, uh, the biggest fear or rather my biggest fear.

[00:08:04] And I do trust that everything it happens for a reason. I do trust that my journey through the things that I went through has made me a heck of a lot stronger. It means that I will be able to create financial, stable, stable, and secure income for the rest of my life because I've gone through the trenches.

[00:08:22] And all of that is really starting to show now with having two programs last weekend and men's, and women's, uh, Relationship abuse, recovery, or rather, uh, healing, abusive relationship trauma, um, programs have started last week. We've got a couple of other things. I've got all sorts of things going on at the moment.

[00:08:40] So it's so super exciting times. And right now this covert period for myself has actually been some of the best time for myself, but I digress now. Coming back to what I was saying, as far as my biggest fear, I think this is what really led me, me down the path of having these moments and times to not actually have money, to be able to buy food.

[00:09:01] Now, my biggest fear, um, and I still to this day don't necessarily know where it comes from, but it's definitely a very legitimate fear for myself, but I think it's a fear of, um, Like my own learning, my own growth, my own resilience, my own, all of that. And that is the fear of being homeless now where that fear comes from for myself or rather what the, this fear means for myself is that the fear of falling down such an emotional hole, such a black dark emotional hole that ultimately I will give up.

[00:09:34] And now. It was very, uh, liberating for myself to find myself in a situation which quote unquote would have otherwise been homeless. Had I not had paid rent in advance for a couple of months because I kinda knew that finances were going to be tight. So I prioritized, okay. What's most important for me right now.

[00:09:53] And at that time I did, I prepaid my rent for a couple of months. So I knew that I had a place to stay and then I was able to manage and work around everything else there now. Sure. I could've reached out to friends. I could have reached out to family. I could have done any of those things, but at the end of the day that doesn't teach me the lessons and it doesn't allow me to grow, to be able to go through what I need to go through to be able to transform this fear of being homeless.

[00:10:18] And as I said, it's that fear of giving up completely. It's the fear of just rolling over and, uh, you know, succumbing to my circumstances and what I ultimately learned about myself. Through those challenging times. And it has been come such an ingrained aspect into my own identity is the fact that I am somebody who does not give up on myself and when you can get to that place.

[00:10:41] And when you can really own that fact for yourself and finding that maybe for yourself, maybe you've been going through some challenging times, maybe your fear isn't being homeless, but maybe your fear is being alone or maybe your fear is being seen or whatever it might be. B, but if you can really start to transform it so that you can see for yourself that you are such a resilient person that does not give up on yourself, because I think ultimately we do fear, um, you know, just not are timing ourselves enough because we fear the disconnection from others.

[00:11:10] And ultimately when we disconnect from ourselves, it's kind of like the ultimate part for us. And so for me, going through that. As I said it was massive. It was confronting. Um, not a lot of people around me knew there was a few people that were aware of it. And there was a couple of people that did help me out with a couple of dollars here and there for food.

[00:11:29] Um, but it was something that I accepted and I knew that I was going to get through and I knew that I had to get through and ultimately it's made me stronger. Um, As I said business right now is, is better than I can ever expect. Um, I've got multiple things on the go I'm in the process right now of hiring a few extra, um, skillsets or the marketing business to help out for other clients to help out.

[00:11:53] So, and also through the coaching business, starting to expand that as well. And so. You know, if you don't go through your fears at the end of the day, your fears will always have the grasp on you. And there will always be holding you back from being able to grow and get further on in life. And so for me, I knew that I knew that I needed to go through it.

[00:12:12] I knew that I needed to confront it. I knew that at the time it sucked, but I was also aware that I had enough knowledge. Of what I could do to potentially get out of it in that moment as quickly and as best as I could. And in that moment, there was things that I learned about myself that I would never have otherwise learnt.

[00:12:30] And one of the things that I was really, really able to detach from is the, how my identity is dependent upon, or my emotional state is linked to the amount of money that I have in the bank, because at the end of the day, I had a successful friend who runs a seven minute seven figure business, and a couple of six figure businesses.

[00:12:51] Tell me once that you could still, you could have a hundred thousand dollars in the bank and still, yeah, we broke. And those words rang so strong for me when he mentioned that. And I was like, you know what? When I get to that point of having a hundred thousand dollars cash sitting in my bank account or more, I want to be in a place of abundance because at the end of the day, you've got a hundred thousand dollars cash in the bank.

[00:13:13] And so for me, what I really needed to learn and what I did learn through that process of the hardship was how to be able to be happy independent of my bank account. And when you can really do that, then all of a sudden you start transplant. Transcending money. You chat, start transcending all other circumstances and the places in which you're giving your power away to.

[00:13:35] And so in those moments, that's when the good things are going to come through because the end of the day, great things don't come to sad people and victim, pin mentality, people that are just so caught up in how the world has done the wrong, good things do not come to them because they're on the wrong vibration.

[00:13:52] They're on the wrong wavelength. And at the end of the day, You're not in the mental state to be even open to those opportunities. And people are just not going to present you with them anyway. So, you know, I knew that I knew I needed to change my mindset. I needed new, I needed to change my focus and I knew I needed to grow stronger within my own self.

[00:14:10] And so that was one of the biggest things that came out of that for me. And so, as I said before, you know, maybe your biggest fear is being alone or maybe your biggest fear is whatever it might be. Have a look into that for yourself and see how you can transpose that. Like, ha ha can you look at that a different way?

[00:14:31] How can you build a part of your identity around you that says I'm okay. No matter what, and for me, as I said, the biggest thing for me was that I learnt through that time that I will never give up on myself. And at the end of the day, I'll keep getting up and I'll keep moving forward and I'll keep chipping away at whatever it is is that I'm working on because I'm committed to do that.

[00:14:53] And that was also with a working on client work and things like that. You know, I'm committed to getting back up and I am somebody who is resilient and not going to give up on myself. And so when you get to a place like that, The sense and the feeling that I feel with inside of me, apart from an immense happiness that I've honestly never actually had before.

[00:15:14] And I was even talking to mum recently and she was admitting to me how I used to be very closed off and not happy and all of this. And this is only going back probably about maybe 10 years ago. So it's not that far away. And. You know, I was talking to a mate of mine, uh, only last week at letting him and saying to him, you know what?

[00:15:33] I actually genuinely feel happy for the first time in my life. And when you, you can get to that place, it is such a liberating experience and it may not feel like it's possible for you right now. They may feel like life is against you, perhaps all of the stuff that's is going on with covert is, is having things struggle and be a challenge for yourself, whatever it might be at the end of the day, you have the ability to be able to look at things with a different perspective and you have the ability to change it for yourself.

[00:16:06] So that being said, if you got value out of this podcast, Give me a comment down below. Let me know what came up for yourself. And again, as always, I appreciate you for tuning in and stay tuned for the next episode. See ya.