Life presents endless questions and contradictions that seem to have no answer. We go round and round trying to figure things out, creating strategies, going over the benefits and costs. And still a true solution can't be found. In a sense life is presenting us koans again and again. In Zen practice is an unanswerable question we are given to grapple with. When we run out of our ordinary means of approaching it, after we fail again and again, an entirely new way arises to practice with the koan so that the heart of the matter is revealed. And we are changed forever. Not only in the way we work with the koan, but the way in which we live our lives. 
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