The Truth that Heals
152 episodes - English - Latest episode: about 2 months ago -The Truth That Heals Podcast focuses on healing, overcoming, and resilience ❤️🔥 Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support
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#10- My Battles with Thought Reform and Brainwashing
October 17, 2022 20:47 - 37 minutes - 34.3 MBIn today's episode I give details how we were trained to die to ourselves and to no longer think freely. Free Will no longer existed. The only thing that existed was the Community. There was no I in the community. I break down the battles I had to go through when trying to leave and how hard it was to pierce through all of the brainwashing from over the years. I held on to the smallest bit of hope and that has helped me get through the darkest thoughts. If you would like to make a contributi...
My Battles with Thought Reform and Brainwashing
October 17, 2022 20:47 - 37 minutes - 34.3 MBIn today's episode I give details how we were trained to die to ourselves and to no longer think freely. Free Will no longer existed. The only thing that existed was the Community. There was no I in the community. I break down the battles I had to go through when trying to leave and how hard it was to pierce through all of the brainwashing from over the years. I held on to the smallest bit of hope and that has helped me get through the darkest thoughts. If you would like to make a contribut...
#9-Conversations with former JW
October 01, 2022 16:14 - 32 minutes - 29.5 MBIn today’s episode I sat down with good friend Gilbert Gonzalez to hear his story regarding faith, individual journey, healing, and surviving after leaving the Jehovah Witnesses. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support
Conversations with former JW
October 01, 2022 16:14 - 32 minutes - 29.5 MBIn today’s episode I sat down with good friend Gilbert Gonzalez to hear his story regarding faith, individual journey, healing, and surviving after leaving the Jehovah Witnesses. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support
the EX members of the Community. The HEXED Members
September 27, 2022 02:54 - 50 minutes - 45.8 MBIn this episode I want to give examples of how Fr. Bing gave us an US VERSUS THEM MENTALITY so that you can understand what religious abuse, spiritual abuse, and cult abuse looks like from the world I lived in. If you would like to support my podcast with a donation you are welcomed to do so as your help gives me the assistance to keep my work going. You may go to this link: https://anchor.fm/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support Follow me on twitter @TruthThatHeals --- Support this podcast: ht...
#8- the EX members of the Community. The HEXED Members
September 27, 2022 02:54 - 50 minutes - 45.8 MBIn this episode I want to give examples of how Fr. Bing gave us an US VERSUS THEM MENTALITY so that you can understand what religious abuse, spiritual abuse, and cult abuse looks like from the world I lived in. If you would like to support my podcast with a donation you are welcomed to do so as your help gives me the assistance to keep my work going. You may go to this link: https://anchor.fm/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support Follow me on twitter @TruthThatHeals --- Support this podcast: ht...
#7- Healing Friendships in Dublin
September 20, 2022 21:53 - 14 minutes - 13.4 MBThank you for coming this far with me in my healing journey!! Today I wanted to share the importance of having a friend to be there for you and to listen to you. Being told to keep quiet about my traumas has been so devastating and has been painful however I’ve had a few friends step it up and show their support and love. So I came to Dublin to find healing through friendship. It’s been a short trip but it has been completely worth it ❤️ ❤️🩹 --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.s...
Healing Friendships in Dublin
September 20, 2022 21:53 - 14 minutes - 13.4 MBThank you for coming this far with me in my healing journey!! Today I wanted to share the importance of having a friend to be there for you and to listen to you. Being told to keep quiet about my traumas has been so devastating and has been painful however I’ve had a few friends step it up and show their support and love. So I came to Dublin to find healing through friendship. It’s been a short trip but it has been completely worth it ❤️ ❤️🩹 --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.s...
Fr. Bing, Exorcisms, and Dover, Delaware
September 16, 2022 16:29 - 37 minutes - 34.3 MBin this episode I share with you the narrative that Fr Bing and his closest superiors shared with the people when we were kicked out from the Diocese of Wilmington in Dover, Delaware. He made it look like we were an innocent community receiving unjust persecution from the Church. However, as an insider during these events, I want to share what REALLY happened as I watched things play out in real time. You deserve to know the ENTIRE TRUTH --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify...
#6- Fr. Bing, Exorcisms, and Dover, Delaware
September 16, 2022 16:29 - 37 minutes - 34.3 MBin this episode I share with you the narrative that Fr Bing and his closest superiors shared with the people when we were kicked out from the Diocese of Wilmington in Dover, Delaware. He made it look like we were an innocent community receiving unjust persecution from the Church. However, as an insider during these events, I want to share what REALLY happened as I watched things play out in real time. You deserve to know the ENTIRE TRUTH --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify...
Pushing my Limits with Purpose
September 13, 2022 09:00 - 13 minutes - 12.6 MBHey y'all! It's been a while since I last did a podcast. As your can hear from my voice I am so rusty and nervous but I felt that it was time to get back to doing something which I find to be exciting. Not long ago my father passed away. I always looked up to him and seeing him helpless on his deathbed sort of woke me up on the need to give life my best and to follow my dad's example of putting love in everything he did. At the end of this episode I put a challenge on my listeners to try to ...
#5- Pushing my Limits with Purpose
September 13, 2022 09:00 - 13 minutes - 12.6 MBHey y'all! It's been a while since I last did a podcast. As your can hear from my voice I am so rusty and nervous but I felt that it was time to get back to doing something which I find to be exciting. Not long ago my father passed away. I always looked up to him and seeing him helpless on his deathbed sort of woke me up on the need to give life my best and to follow my dad's example of putting love in everything he did. At the end of this episode I put a challenge on my listeners to try to ...
#4- When Following God Feels like a Mistake
September 13, 2022 09:00 - 17 minutes - 15.9 MBHey y'all! I am still hella nervous when doing podcasting so for now I am reading from my blog. I still don't feel comfortable talking on a mic but I love pushing myself a but. Plus its fun. In todays podcast I am describing a bit about myself and my journey with God. There are some people who took advantage of my eagerness to follow God. I met a lot of wolves in sheeps clothing but I also met many amazing people on my journey as well. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.c...
When Following God Feels like a Mistake
September 13, 2022 09:00 - 17 minutes - 15.9 MBHey y'all! I am still hella nervous when doing podcasting so for now I am reading from my blog. I still don't feel comfortable talking on a mic but I love pushing myself a but. Plus its fun. In todays podcast I am describing a bit about myself and my journey with God. There are some people who took advantage of my eagerness to follow God. I met a lot of wolves in sheeps clothing but I also met many amazing people on my journey as well. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.c...
#3- Outside the Kingdom Hall with Natalie Grand
September 10, 2022 07:58 - 1 hour - 72.2 MBTo order Cult Girls https://www.amazon.com/Cult-Girls-Natalie-Grand/dp/1736764799 More about Natalie Grand https://jwsurvivorsoriginal.com/cult-survivors-stories-1/f/post-cult-success-can-be-yours-author-of-cult-girls-speaks-up Petition Links https://www.change.org/p/petition-invisible-is-calling-on-congress-to-pass-a-childrightsact-abused-children-in-strict-religions-churches-cults-often-have-nowhere-to-turn-for-help-metoo-churchtoo-childabuse https://www.change.org/p/end-child-abuse-and-neg...
Outside the Kingdom Hall with Natalie Grand
September 10, 2022 07:58 - 1 hour - 72.2 MBTo order Cult Girls https://www.amazon.com/Cult-Girls-Natalie-Grand/dp/1736764799 More about Natalie Grand https://jwsurvivorsoriginal.com/cult-survivors-stories-1/f/post-cult-success-can-be-yours-author-of-cult-girls-speaks-up Petition Links https://www.change.org/p/petition-invisible-is-calling-on-congress-to-pass-a-childrightsact-abused-children-in-strict-religions-churches-cults-often-have-nowhere-to-turn-for-help-metoo-churchtoo-childabuse https://www.change.org/p/end-child-abuse-and-neg...
#2- Healing From Cult Experiences with Dr. Janja Lalich
September 03, 2022 06:13 - 1 hour - 58.3 MBI am joined today by cult expert Dr. Janja Lalich. She has authored books which will help people to understand the healing journey for cult survivors and how those around them can be very supporting in their healing journey. Leaving the cult life had left me feeling wounded, lost, confused, and at times even feeling shame. Dr. Janja Lalich really breaks down the ways my experience was culty and she also gives hope that healing and recovery is possible. For more information you can check out ...
Healing From Cult Experiences with Dr. Janja Lalich
September 03, 2022 06:13 - 1 hour - 58.3 MBI am joined today by cult expert Dr. Janja Lalich. She has authored books which will help people to understand the healing journey for cult survivors and how those around them can be very supporting in their healing journey. Leaving the cult life had left me feeling wounded, lost, confused, and at times even feeling shame. Dr. Janja Lalich really breaks down the ways my experience was culty and she also gives hope that healing and recovery is possible. For more information you can check out ...
#1- The TRUE meaning of Consent with Joyce Short and Nina Lucas
August 28, 2022 17:45 - 1 hour - 72.9 MBIn today’s episode we will be learning the true meaning of consent to avoid confusion and to protect ourselves. As a survivor of cult tactics and manipulation one of the biggest hurts I had was the thought that I had consented to allowing the craziness to happen to me. Joyce and Nina helped me to see the deception that happened and to understand that I never gave full consent. #FGKIA FREELY GIVEN, KNOWLEDGEABLE, and INFORMED AGREEMENT. For more information here are a few links: http://consen...
The TRUE meaning of Consent with Joyce Short and Nina Lucas
August 28, 2022 17:45 - 1 hour - 72.9 MBIn today’s episode we will be learning the true meaning of consent to avoid confusion and to protect ourselves. As a survivor of cult tactics and manipulation one of the biggest hurts I had was the thought that I had consented to allowing the craziness to happen to me. Joyce and Nina helped me to see the deception that happened and to understand that I never gave full consent. #FGKIA FREELY GIVEN, KNOWLEDGEABLE, and INFORMED AGREEMENT. For more information here are a few links: http://consen...
Interview w/John Corcoran: A Love Story
August 21, 2022 02:51 - 1 hour - 87.4 MBI met John as a postulant in Delaware a few years back. Although he was only there for a few months we became very good friends. Today he shares his story on how he was recruited into the Community, how he was able to leave the Community, and how he ultimately found True Love. Here is the link to their CatholicMatch story https://plus.catholicmatch.com/articles/crystal-wore-an-arwen-costume-when-she-met-john-at-the-airport --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/r...
Revolution of the Mind: How I Left Cult Life
August 16, 2022 21:17 - 37 minutes - 34.3 MBIn the movie Vanilla Sky there is a scene where "revolution of the mind" is mentioned. Tom Cruise then starts to understand that he is in a nightmare and wants to wake up. When I was in the cult everything was "perfect" until I started seeing the truth for what it really was instead of the "truth" fed to me by the community. In today's episode I want to share how I started to change my mind about the group and how I broke free from their iron grip on my mind. --- This episode is sponsor...
My experience Leaving Religious Cult Life
August 16, 2022 21:17 - 36 minutes - 33.4 MBIn the movie Vanilla Sky there is a scene where "revolution of the mind" is mentioned. Tom Cruise then starts to understand that he is in a nightmare and wants to wake up. When I was in the cult everything was "perfect" until I started seeing the truth for what it really was instead of the "truth" fed to me by the community. In today's episode I want to share how I started to change my mind about the group and how I broke free from their iron grip on my mind. --- Support this podcast: http...
Recruitment Manipulation
July 30, 2022 03:30 - 22 minutes - 20.9 MBpeople often ask me how come I stayed in this religious community/cult for so long. Today i want to answer that question by sharing how i was recruited in the first place --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app
My Recruitment Story
July 30, 2022 03:30 - 22 minutes - 20.2 MBpeople often ask me how come I stayed in this religious community/cult for so long. Today i want to answer that question by sharing how i was recruited in the first place --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support
Call For Convent Reform with fellow podcaster Alycia
July 27, 2022 00:46 - 46 minutes - 42.4 MBFor today’s episode I had the honor of chatting with fellow podcaster Alycia who is the host of Call For Convent Reform. We discuss the reasons for her podcast and the things she saw in the convent which need to be addressed. (After editing this episode and fixing a few glitches I am republishing this episode. As a podcaster I am still learning so please bear with my mistakes :) ) --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/ryan-anthony-hern...
Ways Religious Abuse was Justified in my Experience
July 17, 2022 02:16 - 28 minutes - 25.8 MBHave you ever been in a cult? Or in a religious community that took things way too far that abuses were allowed and at times even justified? Today I share two ways in which I saw abuses getting justified as being for a greater good. I am not a expert or doctor of psychology or anything like that however in this podcast I simply share what my experiences were after living in a cult environment for over a decade. The ways religious abuse was justified in my environment might not be what you ...
Loving Your Genuine Self: Healing After Trauma with Claudia M. Villanueva
July 10, 2022 11:23 - 46 minutes - 42.6 MBIn today's episode with Claudia Moreno Villanueva I open up about some of the verbal abuse that I and other members had gone through and the process that needs to start in order for healing to happen. For me it was a mixture of verbal abuse, religious bullying and harassment, manipulation and shaming. After speaking with Claudia I felt so much resilience within me and a new sense of hope. It had been a long journey and I am still trying my best to love my genuine self. I thank God for sending...
Being Your Genuine Self: Healing After Trauma with Claudia M. Villanueva
July 10, 2022 11:23 - 47 minutes - 43.6 MBIn today's episode with Claudia Moreno Villanueva I open up about some of the verbal abuse that I and other members had gone through and the process that needs to start in order for healing to happen. For me it was a mixture of verbal abuse, religious bullying and harassment, manipulation and shaming. After speaking with Claudia I felt so much resilience within me and a new sense of hope. It had been a long journey and I am still trying my best to love my genuine self. I thank God for sendin...
Positives and Negatives of the Alliance (Interview w/Daniel Holland)
June 28, 2022 00:04 - 2 hours - 157 MBIn today's episode I am joined by my good friend Daniel Holland who also joined the same religious community that I joined. You will hear his story from his point of view. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support
Exorcisms in a Cult/Religious Community and Mental Health
June 11, 2022 01:54 - 37 minutes - 34.5 MBThe Catholic Church has protocols in place to make sure that exorcisms are done carefully and with much respect to the person in need of deliverance. In today's episode I want to share my experience of having exorcisms done on me and the rest of the members in a bizarre way and how the founder, in his cult like ways, used exorcism at his own whim instead of following the proper protocols which have been put in place by the Church. Unfortunately, many mental issues would be dismissed and they...
What is Spiritual Abuse?
May 27, 2022 22:29 - 21 minutes - 19.5 MBIn todays episode I quoted from an article I found on spiritual abuse. The link to that article can be found here https://www.ncronline.org/news/accountability/spiritual-abuse-occurs-more-frequently-believed-vatican-official-says Sadly there is spiritual abuse that happens and my goal is that by speaking up people will be aware as to what it is and be open to allowing victims to heal instead of always putting victims down. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show...
Calling For Transparency of a Cult
May 22, 2022 18:22 - 19 minutes - 17.6 MBThere are so many dark areas in cults. I joined a religious community in 2004 and was there for 11 years. I thought I was just joining a good religious community until I discovered after leaving that in fact the way some superiors ran the show was very cult like. The side that wanted to do things the right way are being very transparent and are working on doing things the right way and I applaud them for their endeavors. The side that went with Fr. Bing however are still in the dark and are ...
Toxic Environments and the Cross: Understanding the Difference
May 17, 2022 21:53 - 32 minutes - 30 MBIn today's episode I want to shed light on how people can mistaken being in a toxic environment as carrying your cross and following God. With the cross there should also be prayer and discernment. For music shout out to my cousin Mauricio. You can find him on Instagram under @decideriobeats and you can find his band @wallatheband --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support
Separating the Christ Like from the Cult Like
May 12, 2022 22:39 - 45 minutes - 41.4 MBIn today's episode I will be discussing some questions and clarifications which were brought up to me by a few of the listeners. We'll be talking a bit more of some of the cult like details and how these tactics make people feel that it is their fault for being the victim. Also will be discussing the need for priests and religious men and women to be allowed to have a proper education. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support
Was I in a Cult
May 04, 2022 00:51 - 53 minutes - 49.3 MBIn today's episode I want to share the tactics which I experienced as well as observed on how the Founder Fr. Bing took the community down a path of fear and paranoia and made it a cult like experience. Trigger Warning: This episode deals with a lot of abuse. If you would like to read my blog format which may get into different details of the same tactics you may find it here at this link https://ryantonyblogs.wordpress.com/2022/04/28/was-i-in-a-cult/ --- Support this podcast: https://p...
Silenced and Shamed- A Deeper look into some of the tactics to keep victims of abuse silent
April 19, 2022 16:50 - 31 minutes - 29.4 MBRead my blog post Why I remained Silent part 3 here https://ryantonyblogs.wordpress.com/2022/04/01/why-i-remained-silent-part-3-the-founder/ In this episode I talk a bit deeper about the lies that were fed to the members and how there is abuse that is allowed to happen in the Alliance Movement. The mission might be good. I am not against spreading devotion to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. I am however against the lies, manipulation, and abuse that happens all under the disguise of saving ...
Silenced and Shamed- A Deeper look into tactics to keep victims of abuse silent
April 19, 2022 16:50 - 31 minutes - 28.5 MBRead my blog post Why I remained Silent part 3 here https://ryantonyblogs.wordpress.com/2022/04/01/why-i-remained-silent-part-3-the-founder/ In this episode I talk a bit deeper about the lies that were fed to the members and how there is abuse that is allowed to happen in the Alliance Movement. The mission might be good. I am not against spreading devotion to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. I am however against the lies, manipulation, and abuse that happens all under the disguise of saving s...
Why I remained Silent Part II Plus Commentary
April 08, 2022 02:04 - 28 minutes - 25.7 MBIn this episode I continue talking about my experience in Alabama after trying to find peace with the religious community I had just left. I thought it would be nice to see them but instead I saw how messed up they treated me and other ex members. You don't wanna miss the commentary! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support
Why I Remained Silent Part 1 plus BONUS COMMENTARY at the end
March 29, 2022 22:02 - 19 minutes - 17.5 MBFor years I have been living in silence about the things that I went through as well as the pain and suffering I observed in a religious community, which in my opinion, evolved into a cult and has a cult leader. This story is Part 1 in a series of 3 parts. This part of my life was very critical because I still did not see this as a cult at the time but once we get to the end you will understand why I had more questions. here is the link to my blog https://ryantonyblogs.wordpress.com/2022/0...
How to talk to ex religious Followed by: CALLING OUT CULT LIKE MEMBERS
March 09, 2022 23:17 - 21 minutes - 19.5 MBAs I was leaving the religious life I was approached by two religious members from my community. One of them was offering me his prayers, support and wishing me the best. The other member tried to shame me and put me down which resulted in me putting my foot down that his behavior towards me would not be tolerated anymore. Towards the end of this podcast I call out the members who have been cult like by brainwashing their members and manipulating people that they come clean and be transparent...
Beaten but not Broken
February 19, 2022 01:04 - 28 minutes - 26.3 MBIn this episode I talk about the current journey I am on when it comes to healing and the long road that I have been on over the years. Sadly, many victims of abuse are silenced and shamed. I want to bring hope by sharing my journey and the difficulties that I have been in. For years I had felt all alone. In this episode I also pick up from where I left off in my last episode and describe an incident that really set me off and brought me into a deep darkness. I was beaten for nothing reall...
Hidden in the Jungle: Dark Side of Religious Life
February 08, 2022 20:37 - 27 minutes - 24.9 MBI continue sharing my experiences from the religious life on this podcast. In today's episode I share the story when I was sent to a jungle area up in the mountains in the Philippines. At first I was under a superior who treated me well until he was replaces by a superior who loved to slap, humiliate, and physically beat members through the vow of "obedience." I had tried to do every thing in my religious life perfectly by the standards of my superiors yet I was always getting punished. I ha...
Why I Stayed
February 04, 2022 19:11 - 24 minutes - 22.9 MBIn this episode I break down 3 huge elements which kept me in the religious community that I was in. Yes, many of the things that we experienced there were very cult like, but, they were not the main reasons why I stayed. In this episode I break down the beauty of religious life when it is done right as well as the peace that came with it. These things kept me strong during my religious journey but when these 3 things were taken away from me, my life felt like it was going downhill. Liste...
The Good Side of Religious Life
February 04, 2022 19:11 - 24 minutes - 22.1 MBIn this podcast episode I share about what I loved from living the religious life. It’s a beautiful vocation however the life of obedience can often be abused. I want to make a distinction between the wrong ways of religious life and the beauty of the religious life when it is done the right way. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support
When Following God Feels Like a Mistake Part II
January 26, 2022 00:00 - 28 minutes - 26.4 MBIn this podcast episode I tell the true story about how I held on to my sanity while being isolated from the other community members and how my family life was played with. Psychological abuse and gaslighting was a big part of it. There is a web of lies in this story and I want to get to the truth. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support
Santo AngHELL
January 16, 2022 09:57 - 18 minutes - 16.8 MBIn this podcast I talk about how there was a force of good and evil that was very much alive during my time as a religious brother. There was one side of religious life that was truly Christian and there was another side of it that was Cultish and abusive. The Cultish members tried to ruin my life and found pleasure in seeing my sufferings and the sufferings of others which caused me severe PTSD. Being between the two sides of good and bad members in religious life was very difficult but I...
Forgiveness + Surviving Santo angHELL vs Surviving Cultlike Superiors
January 16, 2022 09:57 - 18 minutes - 17.8 MBIn this podcast I talk about how there was a force of good and evil that was very much alive during my time as a religious brother. There was one side of religious life that was truly Christian and there was another side of it that was Cultish and abusive. The Cultish members tried to ruin my life and found pleasure in seeing my sufferings and the sufferings of others which caused me severe PTSD. Being between the two sides of good and bad members in religious life was very difficult but ...
PTSD of a former religious
January 10, 2022 04:56 - 24 minutes - 22.2 MBIn this podcast I touch briefly on the excitement I had when I first joined the religious life and the depression and misery that resulted after my return. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/ryan-anthony-hernandez/support
Response to Episode When Following God Feels like a Mistake
January 02, 2022 23:31 - 13 minutes - 12.7 MBI am overwhelmed by the amount of people have reached out to me. I had to make a response to that episode because I want to be clear: I am not doing this to please people or as some sort of healing. I primarily want to do this because I believe that my story is something that can be shared with many people, particularly those who left religious life. Entering the religious life as a Catholic was so exciting but by the time I left I was so messed up. It has taken years for me to find peace. No...