Uncomfortable is OK Podcast
615 episodes - English - Latest episode: over 1 year ago - ★★★★★ - 6 ratingsWe explore the science, the stories, and the strategies of navigating challenge and discomfort.
This is a mental wellbeing and performance podcast aimed at improving our ability to step outside our comfort zones and take on challenges, whether they be in pursuit of our goals, or the ones life hands to us from time to time.
Join Chris Desmond and guests for some fascinating discussions.
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Episodes
Four lessons from Traver Boehm, the man with a "Year to Live"
October 01, 2017 02:09Traver Boehm was the guest on episode 73 of the Uncomfortable is OK podcast. Traver is also an author, speaker, and transformation coach who consult with clients from around the globe, assisting them in vastly improving the quality of their human experience through One Day Stronger, Inc. With a background high level Executive Protection, Traditional Chinese Medicine, and professional athletics, his approaches to using pain and trauma as catalysts for positive change are pretty awesome. Tra...
UIOK 74: Eric Hodgdon losing someone else doesn't mean you have to lose yourself
September 25, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourWelcome or welcome back to the uncomfortable is OK podcast. I’m your host Chris Desmond and this is the show where I chat with fascinating people who have faced down the Uncomfortable. We hear their stories and jump into the strategies they’ve used for getting uncomfortable. Over the last couple of week’s I’ve appeared as a guest on a couple of other podcasts, The Willosophy podcast, and It’s no secret with Dr T. It’s been an interesting and uncomfortable experience be...
UIOK 74: Eric Hodgdon losing someone else doesn't mean you have to lose yourself
September 25, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourWelcome or welcome back to the uncomfortable is OK podcast. I’m your host Chris Desmond and this is the show where I chat with fascinating people who have faced down the Uncomfortable. We hear their stories and jump into the strategies they’ve used for getting uncomfortable. Over the last couple of week’s I’ve appeared as a guest on a couple of other podcasts, The Willosophy podcast, and It’s no secret with Dr T. It’s been an interesting and uncomfortable experience being on the other ...
Four lessons from adventure sport pioneer and maverick filmmaker Clive Neeson
September 24, 2017 20:00Clive Neeson is the guest on Episode 72 of the “Uncomfortable is OK” podcast. He is also the director of the widely acclaimed film “Last Paradise” Clive grew up on safari in East Africa as his parents filmed wild animals during the 1950’s. In New Zealand and Australia, he joined a group of young mavericks who would become the pioneers of today’s extreme sports. Clive studied for 6 years under pioneering physicist and disciple of Ernest Rutherford, Professor Bruce Liley graduating with Mast...
Four lessons from adventure sport pioneer and maverick filmmaker Clive Neeson
September 24, 2017 20:00Clive Neeson is the guest on Episode 72 of the “Uncomfortable is OK” podcast. He is also the director of the widely acclaimed film “Last Paradise” Clive grew up on safari in East Africa as his parents filmed wild animals during the 1950’s. In New Zealand and Australia, he joined a group of young mavericks who would become the pioneers of today’s extreme sports. Clive studied for 6 years under pioneering physicist and disciple of Ernest Rutherford, Professor Bruce Liley gra...
UIOK 73: Traver Boehm, Zero Fucks Living
September 18, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis episode's guest is Traver Boehm. I first came across Traver on the Man Talks podcast and was enthralled with his conversation. Traver has always felt the call of adventure, whether that is surfing big waves, climbing mountains, or fighting in a cage. Every life has its ups and downs and Traver's was no different. He got to a point where he admits he thought he had it all, the wife, the business, the dog. All of a sudden Traver's life changed. He was overcome with pain. It was time ...
UIOK 73: Traver Boehm, Zero Fucks Living
September 18, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis episode's guest is Traver Boehm. I first came across Traver on the Man Talks podcast and was enthralled with his conversation. Traver has always felt the call of adventure, whether that is surfing big waves, climbing mountains, or fighting in a cage. Every life has its ups and downs and Traver's was no different. He got to a point where he admits he thought he had it all, the wife, the business, the dog. All of a sudden Traver's life changed. He was overcome with p...
UIOK 72: Clive Neeson
September 11, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourToday's guest is Clive Neeson, Director of "Last Paradise". Last Paradise is is the lifetime work of Clive Neeson, a physicist, adventurer, technology innovator and inspirational speaker. Clive grew up on safari in East Africa as his parents filmed wild animals during the 1950’s. In New Zealand and Australia, he joined a group of young mavericks who would become the pioneers of today’s extreme sports. Last Paradise is a 45 year journey gives the audience an insight to ...
UIOK 72: Clive Neeson
September 11, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourToday's guest is Clive Neeson, Director of "Last Paradise". Last Paradise is is the lifetime work of Clive Neeson, a physicist, adventurer, technology innovator and inspirational speaker. Clive grew up on safari in East Africa as his parents filmed wild animals during the 1950’s. In New Zealand and Australia, he joined a group of young mavericks who would become the pioneers of today’s extreme sports. Last Paradise is a 45 year journey gives the audience an insight to how much the worl...
Self analysis inspired by Will Fleming
September 09, 2017 19:30I got the chance to have a chatwith one of the guys who help inspire me to get into podcasting. I started listening to Will Fleming last year when he hosted the “My Kiwi Life” podcast. He pondered life with a bunch of interesting Kiwis. More recently I’ve got into his new podcast “Willosophy” where he willosiphises about life. All up I reckon I’ve spent close to 40 hours listening to Will have conversations without ever having met him, or had a chat with him myself. It’s a...
Self analysis inspired by Will Fleming
September 09, 2017 19:30I got the chance to have a chatwith one of the guys who help inspire me to get into podcasting. I started listening to Will Fleming last year when he hosted the “My Kiwi Life” podcast. He pondered life with a bunch of interesting Kiwis. More recently I’ve got into his new podcast “Willosophy” where he willosiphises about life. All up I reckon I’ve spent close to 40 hours listening to Will have conversations without ever having met him, or had a chat with him myself. It’s a strange dynamic ...
UIOK 71: Anna Guenther helping kiwis fund the things they care about
September 04, 2017 17:00 - 45 minutesToday I chat with Anna Guenther the Chief Bubble blower from PledgeMe. PledgeMe is a crowdfunding platform which helps Kiwi's fund the things they care about. They have run over 1000 successful campaigns and helped raise over $15 million dollars. We chat through the origin story of PledgeMe and Anna's story in getting to the point. Other topics we cover are: + Naievity in the beginning of projects and how it is important + Finding validation points + Shifting the goalposts when y...
UIOK 71: Anna Guenther helping kiwis fund the things they care about
September 04, 2017 17:00 - 45 minutesToday I chat with Anna Guenther the Chief Bubble blower from PledgeMe. PledgeMe is a crowdfunding platform which helps Kiwi's fund the things they care about. They have run over 1000 successful campaigns and helped raise over $15 million dollars. We chat through the origin story of PledgeMe and Anna's story in getting to the point. Other topics we cover are: + Naievity in the beginning of projects and how it is important + Finding validation points + Shifting the...
Why I'm writing
September 02, 2017 19:00I decided a while back that I’d like to start writing and throwing it out to the internet. In particular I thought I wanted to write around the topic of my podcast Uncomfortable is OK. The more I think about it, the more it seems to make sense. I understand that some people get more from engaging with written content than with audio content. The visual learners as opposed to the aural learners, or people that enjoy a mix. I figure that writing may be more interesting to th...
Why I'm writing
September 02, 2017 19:00I decided a while back that I’d like to start writing and throwing it out to the internet. In particular I thought I wanted to write around the topic of my podcast Uncomfortable is OK. The more I think about it, the more it seems to make sense. I understand that some people get more from engaging with written content than with audio content. The visual learners as opposed to the aural learners, or people that enjoy a mix. I figure that writing may be more interesting to those people. It ma...
UIOK 70: Will Fleming
August 28, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis week I got to chat with an awesome dude. He is a Rad Dad, and a Willosopher. That's right it was content creator Will Fleming. I've been wanting to chat with him for a while, ever since I first listened to him on the "My Kiwi Life" podcast. It's a little weird when you get to talk with someone that you've been listening to for a while because you think that you know them without ever having met them. We managed to get over that hurdle pretty quickly though. Will and I spend some tim...
UIOK 70: Will Fleming
August 28, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis week I got to chat with an awesome dude. He is a Rad Dad, and a Willosopher. That's right it was content creator Will Fleming. I've been wanting to chat with him for a while, ever since I first listened to him on the "My Kiwi Life" podcast. It's a little weird when you get to talk with someone that you've been listening to for a while because you think that you know them without ever having met them. We managed to get over that hurdle pretty quickly though. Will and...
Lessons learned from Kathy Tracy. Rowing the Atlantic and the ABD to Victory
August 28, 2017 06:44A couple of weekends ago I got a chance to go and share a cup of tea, a Pain Au Raison, and an awesome conversation with Kathy Tracey. I’d been pointed in Kathy’s direction by Liv Spencer-Bower, world champion canoe polo athlete who appeared back in episode 26 of the podcast. Kathy came to speak with the team as they were prepping for the world champs and by all accounts was insightful, inspirational and not afraid of the uncomfortable. The conversation I got to have with he...
Lessons learned from Kathy Tracy. Rowing the Atlantic and the ABD to Victory
August 28, 2017 06:44A couple of weekends ago I got a chance to go and share a cup of tea, a Pain Au Raison, and an awesome conversation with Kathy Tracey. I’d been pointed in Kathy’s direction by Liv Spencer-Bower, world champion canoe polo athlete who appeared back in episode 26 of the podcast. Kathy came to speak with the team as they were prepping for the world champs and by all accounts was insightful, inspirational and not afraid of the uncomfortable. The conversation I got to have with her didn’t disappoi...
UIOK 69: Lucy Revill
August 21, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourToday I’m chatting with Lucy Revill creative genius behind The Residents. The Residents showcases the best of Welly, people, places, and products. Lucy is a born and bred Wellingtonian with massive love for this city and a beautiful platform. Lucy this year was the winner of Absolutely Positively Wellingtonian Award, she is the finalist in the New Zealand Social Media Awards, just hosted a Wellington on a Plate event an now to cap it off she has realised her dream of being a...
UIOK 69: Lucy Revill
August 21, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourToday I’m chatting with Lucy Revill creative genius behind The Residents. The Residents showcases the best of Welly, people, places, and products. Lucy is a born and bred Wellingtonian with massive love for this city and a beautiful platform. Lucy this year was the winner of Absolutely Positively Wellingtonian Award, she is the finalist in the New Zealand Social Media Awards, just hosted a Wellington on a Plate event an now to cap it off she has realised her dream of being a podcast guest on...
Lessons from Stephen McDowell "Th Buzzy Kiwi"
August 20, 2017 03:48I had the pleasure of having a conversation with a young Kiwi dude currently residing in L.A. His name is Stephen McDowell, or better known on social media as “The Buzzy Kiwi”. Stephen’s plan for his life hit a bump a couple of years back. Just out of uni and working as a self-employed personal trainer an old rugby injury came back to haunt him. Undergoing what he thought was a routine surgery, he woke up to the news that the cartilage in his hip had started dying and he was experiencing art...
Lessons from Stephen McDowell "Th Buzzy Kiwi"
August 20, 2017 03:48I had the pleasure of having a conversation with a young Kiwi dude currently residing in L.A. His name is Stephen McDowell, or better known on social media as “The Buzzy Kiwi”. Stephen’s plan for his life hit a bump a couple of years back. Just out of uni and working as a self-employed personal trainer an old rugby injury came back to haunt him. Undergoing what he thought was a routine surgery, he woke up to the news that the cartilage in his hip had started dying and he was...
UIOK 68: Digby Scott
August 14, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis week sees me having a chat with Digby Scott over a cup of tea and piece of cake. Among other things Digby is a leadership development thinker and practitioner. He specialises in accelerating the next generation of restless go-getters, which he’ll tell us about in the chat. Digby is all about finding your edge, the point where capability meets uncertainty in all aspects of life. Some of the topics we cover today include; + Being scared of the Ocean and the process of...
UIOK 68: Digby Scott
August 14, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis week sees me having a chat with Digby Scott over a cup of tea and piece of cake. Among other things Digby is a leadership development thinker and practitioner. He specialises in accelerating the next generation of restless go-getters, which he’ll tell us about in the chat. Digby is all about finding your edge, the point where capability meets uncertainty in all aspects of life. Some of the topics we cover today include; + Being scared of the Ocean and the process of getting over tha...
UIOK 67: Joel Bouzaid
August 07, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis week I chat with Joel Bouzaid. Joel is a business owner, a father, a leadership coach and speaker. Joel is one of the co-founders of “Against the Grains” which takes people on an adventure to help them create a life by design. He is one of the owners of Maia Crossfit where they aim to foster personal change through fitness. He speaks frequently throughout the country and is just an all-round good dude. Joel was introduced to me by a mutual friend, Pete Halsted – cheers Pete. When I ro...
UIOK 67: Joel Bouzaid
August 07, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis week I chat with Joel Bouzaid. Joel is a business owner, a father, a leadership coach and speaker. Joel is one of the co-founders of “Against the Grains” which takes people on an adventure to help them create a life by design. He is one of the owners of Maia Crossfit where they aim to foster personal change through fitness. He speaks frequently throughout the country and is just an all-round good dude. Joel was introduced to me by a mutual friend, Pete Halsted – cheer...
UIOK 66: Ben Logan The Power of Preparation
July 31, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis week we’ve got Ben Logan of New Age Primal back on the show. Ben was a guest a couple of months ago back in episode 59. We talked about his background and what he is doing with New Age Primal now. Make sure to go back and check it out to get an insight into Ben. Today’s chat is focused on everyday survival, why it’s important and how we can train it. Ben was also gracious enough to introduce me to his good mate, Dr Greg Emmerson who appeared back on the show in episode ...
UIOK 66: Ben Logan The Power of Preparation
July 31, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis week we’ve got Ben Logan of New Age Primal back on the show. Ben was a guest a couple of months ago back in episode 59. We talked about his background and what he is doing with New Age Primal now. Make sure to go back and check it out to get an insight into Ben. Today’s chat is focused on everyday survival, why it’s important and how we can train it. Ben was also gracious enough to introduce me to his good mate, Dr Greg Emmerson who appeared back on the show in episode 62 for another fa...
UIOK 65: Art Green
July 24, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourToday’s guest is Art Green who is a great proponent of getting uncomfortable. Some of you may know him from that guy from that show, some of you may know him as the dude with great teeth, great hair, and great abs. Some of you may know him as a businessman or company director, or some as an advocate for health. Art loves a challenge and as a result has a wealth of experience to share. Some of the topics we cover today are; + Feeling the need to fit in to having a real j...
UIOK 65: Art Green
July 24, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourToday’s guest is Art Green who is a great proponent of getting uncomfortable. Some of you may know him from that guy from that show, some of you may know him as the dude with great teeth, great hair, and great abs. Some of you may know him as a businessman or company director, or some as an advocate for health. Art loves a challenge and as a result has a wealth of experience to share. Some of the topics we cover today are; + Feeling the need to fit in to having a real job because everyo...
UIOK bonus episode: Wuu2k
July 20, 2017 08:10 - 51 minutesThis is a bit of a timelapse through my Wellington Urban Ultra Marathon Journey starting about 5 weeks out and ending up a couple of days afterwards. It includes some training, the race and post-thoughts. + Discussion about pain + The physical side + The mental side + How it went +Will I be back Wuu2k UIOK Facebook UIOK Instagram Twitter
UIOK bonus episode: Wuu2k
July 20, 2017 08:10 - 51 minutesThis is a bit of a timelapse through my Wellington Urban Ultra Marathon Journey starting about 5 weeks out and ending up a couple of days afterwards. It includes some training, the race and post-thoughts. + Discussion about pain + The physical side + The mental side + How it went +Will I be back Wuu2k UIOK Facebook UIOK Instagram Twitter
UIOK 64: Alex Hare - Why you should always make your bed
July 17, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourAlex Hare is a force. Being around her you just pick up her vibe of "unforgiving optimism" it's contagious. Alex has done some pretty awesome things professionally as a young female in the oil and gas industry, the construction industry, and the engineering industry. This hasn't always been easy often being the minority in the room, the only scientist, the only young person, and the only female. She has also experienced the emotional ups and downs that we do in our 20's and has learnt a l...
UIOK 64: Alex Hare - Why you should always make your bed
July 17, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourAlex Hare is a force. Being around her you just pick up her vibe of "unforgiving optimism" it's contagious. Alex has done some pretty awesome things professionally as a young female in the oil and gas industry, the construction industry, and the engineering industry. This hasn't always been easy often being the minority in the room, the only scientist, the only young person, and the only female. She has also experienced the emotional ups and downs that we do in our 20's a...
UIOK 63: Perry Newburn
July 10, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourToday I get to chat with Perry Newburn. We talk about his upcoming world record attempt to run the length of New Zealand in 17 days. We also chat about his run across the United States to celebrate his 60th birthday. Topics covered today include; + Overcoming a 16 year heroin addiction + Asking the question "do I want to live or do I want to die" + Rebuilding physically, mentally, and emotionally + Learning to laugh at yourself +Learning you don't have to be perfect +...
UIOK 63: Perry Newburn
July 10, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourToday I get to chat with Perry Newburn. We talk about his upcoming world record attempt to run the length of New Zealand in 17 days. We also chat about his run across the United States to celebrate his 60th birthday. Topics covered today include; + Overcoming a 16 year heroin addiction + Asking the question "do I want to live or do I want to die" + Rebuilding physically, mentally, and emotionally + Learning to laugh at yourself +Learning you don't have to be perfect + The journey into...
UIOK 62: Dr Greg Emerson - Riding in the saddle and not in the armchair
July 03, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourToday's chat is with Dr Greg Emerson. Greg is a physician who seeks out the cause. He trained as an emergency physician and has run large emergency rooms in Canada and Australia. He became disenchanted with only treating the symptoms of illness rather than treating the root cause and optimising health. Today we talk through Greg's 7 principles of health. Other topics we cover are; Chasing after achievement for achievement's sake, and where that leads. Reshaping our own...
UIOK 62: Dr Greg Emerson - Riding in the saddle and not in the armchair
July 03, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourToday's chat is with Dr Greg Emerson. Greg is a physician who seeks out the cause. He trained as an emergency physician and has run large emergency rooms in Canada and Australia. He became disenchanted with only treating the symptoms of illness rather than treating the root cause and optimising health. Today we talk through Greg's 7 principles of health. Other topics we cover are; Chasing after achievement for achievement's sake, and where that leads. Reshaping our own world views. B...
UIOK 61: Jerram Watts
June 26, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis week I chat with Jerram Watts, CEO of Child Rescue in New Zealand. Child Rescue is part of Destiny Rescue which is a charitable organisation that rescues, restores, protects, and empowers children caught up in the sex trade. To date they have rescued and rehabilitated 2300 children with the goal of 100,000 children by 2020. Jerram tells us his story about how he came to work for Child Rescue, the work that they do, as well as his story. Today's topics cover; Res...
UIOK 61: Jerram Watts
June 26, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis week I chat with Jerram Watts, CEO of Child Rescue in New Zealand. Child Rescue is part of Destiny Rescue which is a charitable organisation that rescues, restores, protects, and empowers children caught up in the sex trade. To date they have rescued and rehabilitated 2300 children with the goal of 100,000 children by 2020. Jerram tells us his story about how he came to work for Child Rescue, the work that they do, as well as his story. Today's topics cover; Rescuing children fr...
UIOK 60: Lynn "Red" Paterson return of the kayaking nomad
June 19, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourLynn "Red" Paterson is back on the podcast. I first caught up with her back on episode 24 as she was somewhere of Taranaki in her mission to kayak around New Zealand. I wanted to catch up with her again to hear how the rest of her journey went, as well as finding out what she had learnt about herself and being uncomfortable with the benefit of some time after finishing. Red tells a great story and the conversation didn't disappoint and left me with some cool insights. We talk about th...
UIOK 60: Lynn "Red" Paterson return of the kayaking nomad
June 19, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourLynn "Red" Paterson is back on the podcast. I first caught up with her back on episode 24 as she was somewhere of Taranaki in her mission to kayak around New Zealand. I wanted to catch up with her again to hear how the rest of her journey went, as well as finding out what she had learnt about herself and being uncomfortable with the benefit of some time after finishing. Red tells a great story and the conversation didn't disappoint and left me with some cool insights. ...
UIOK 59: The Art of Survival with Ben Logan
June 12, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis week’s guest is Ben Logan who I got to have a Skype conversation with last weekend. Ben is a former pro triathlete representing New Zealand. He stopped the competitive triathlon circuit a few years ago and moved from Auckland down to Central Otago when he felt the call of the wilderness. Since he has been down there he has teamed up with Dr Greg Emerson to start up a company called New Age Primal. New Age Primal is about teaching people the unique mindset skills to thri...
UIOK 59: The Art of Survival with Ben Logan
June 12, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourThis week’s guest is Ben Logan who I got to have a Skype conversation with last weekend. Ben is a former pro triathlete representing New Zealand. He stopped the competitive triathlon circuit a few years ago and moved from Auckland down to Central Otago when he felt the call of the wilderness. Since he has been down there he has teamed up with Dr Greg Emerson to start up a company called New Age Primal. New Age Primal is about teaching people the unique mindset skills to thrive in life throug...
UIOK 58: Leaving a legacy I can be proud of with Thomas Maharaj
June 05, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourA couple of months ago I had the good fortune of striking up a conversation while waiting in line to get into a conference. The guy that I was talking to was called Tommie Maharaj and he pointed my in the direction of Noa Woolloof as someone to have a podcast conversation with. That went well and Noa and I had a chat back in episode 52 of the podcast. Noa also told me that I needed to get Tommie on the show to share his inspiring story. Tommie and I managed to have a chat ...
UIOK 58: Leaving a legacy I can be proud of with Thomas Maharaj
June 05, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourA couple of months ago I had the good fortune of striking up a conversation while waiting in line to get into a conference. The guy that I was talking to was called Tommie Maharaj and he pointed my in the direction of Noa Woolloof as someone to have a podcast conversation with. That went well and Noa and I had a chat back in episode 52 of the podcast. Noa also told me that I needed to get Tommie on the show to share his inspiring story. Tommie and I managed to have a chat and create a podc...
UIOK 57: Kathy Tracey
May 29, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourLast weekend I got a chance to go and share a cup of tea, a Pain Au Raison, and an awesome conversation with Kathy Tracey. I’d been pointed in Kathy’s direction by Liv Spencer-Bower, world champion canoe polo athlete who appeared back in episode 26 of the podcast. Kathy came to speak with the team as they were prepping for the world champs and by all accounts was insightful, inspirational and not afraid of the uncomfortable. The conversation I got to have with her didn’t dis...
UIOK 57: Kathy Tracey
May 29, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourLast weekend I got a chance to go and share a cup of tea, a Pain Au Raison, and an awesome conversation with Kathy Tracey. I’d been pointed in Kathy’s direction by Liv Spencer-Bower, world champion canoe polo athlete who appeared back in episode 26 of the podcast. Kathy came to speak with the team as they were prepping for the world champs and by all accounts was insightful, inspirational and not afraid of the uncomfortable. The conversation I got to have with her didn’t disappoint. Kathy’s ...
UIOK 56: Travelling the world and finding new passion with Stephen McDowell "The Buzzy Kiwi"
May 22, 2017 17:00 - 1 hourI had the pleasure of having a conversation with a young Kiwi dude currently residing in L.A. His name is Stephen McDowell, or better known on social media as “The Buzzy Kiwi”. Stephen’s plan for his life hit a bump a couple of years back. Just out of uni and working as a self-employed personal trainer an old rugby injury came back to haunt him. Undergoing what he thought was a routine surgery, he woke up to the news that the cartilage in his hip had started dying and he was...