If Not Now, When?
61 episodes - English - Latest episode: about 4 years ago - ★★★★★ - 7 ratingsAn ordinary woman bares her soul in order to force a self-reckoning. Middle-age caught me by surprise. Our nest had recently become empty, I was working in the same office job for the last seven years, and like so many others before me, I wondered— Is this all there is? I had lost track of my writing dreams decades ago. This podcast is a record of, not only the journey back to a writing life, but also the journey back to my Self. Who was I before alcoholism, marriage, parenting, career, and surviving consumed me? If I didn’t start living life on my own terms now, when was I ever going to begin?
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Episodes
010 Understanding My Purpose
March 09, 2018 11:00 - 24 minutes - 33.2 MBRealizing what my purpose is in these solocasts, not only as host, but also as writer and researcher of friendship stories among black women. Seeing myself as the writer and occasional subject of the stories I have researched. I also talk about the movie, Black Panther and why its story means so much to black people. A few movies spoilers are shared.
009 A New Direction for the Show
March 04, 2018 17:06 - 26 minutes - 36.2 MBTaking a step back and looking at this podcast journey so far. Exploring my lessons learned and announcing the impetus for this new direction. No more plugging and/or promoting of the show. I'm taking a page out of my blogging style and allowing my heart to guide me. I realize that I am seriously deviating even further from the usual podcasting format and that I may fall on my face here, but in the interest of being true to my authenticity, I am willing to take the risk.
008 Shadow-Self Badassery
March 02, 2018 11:00 - 20 minutes - 28.1 MBUnscripted and plenty of potty mouth. In this episode I am letting my hair down and sharing my favorite quotes from Jen Sincero's book, You Are A Badass. Sometimes I get so caught up in life's daily routines, I forget that I am in fact, a woman with her own unique talents and inimitable style. A show to remind us all just how badass we can be when we remember who we are.
007 The Unveiling, Triggers & Feeling Foolish
February 26, 2018 14:25 - 21 minutes - 29.9 MBNow that I've announced the podcast on my blog, I'm left with the triggered old feelings of waiting and wondering. I confess to feeling a little foolish about continuing along the podcasting road. I explore the discomfort of pursuing new ventures and adjusting to change.
006 This is Me! - Going Toe to Toe With My Fears
February 22, 2018 17:41 - 20 minutes - 28.5 MBTalking in the last episode about quitting the podcast really stirred up my fears and insecurities. In this episode I tell how I stood up to the negative voices of my mind and chased them away. And I discover how therapeutic shadow boxing to the tune of a kick-a$$ song can be.
005 Maybe I Should Quit Podcasting
February 22, 2018 17:41 - 20 minutes - 28.5 MBA look at a recent moment of uncertainty during this podcasting journey. My confession about feeling in over my head as a newbie to the podcasting arena. Talking myself through the cons versus zero pros for continuing.
004 Becoming a Writer in Middle-Age
February 20, 2018 11:20 - 22 minutes - 30.5 MBAfter quitting my job in middle-age to become a full-time writer, I really struggled with actually calling myself a writer. This is the journey of how I finally learned to see myself as the writer and creative I was born to be.
003 An Apologetic Affliction
February 19, 2018 19:29 - 18 minutes - 25.5 MBConfessing my apologetic affliction to the world. I'm not proud of it but I also refuse to shrink from it any longer. I think it's time others understand and discuss the often painful root of an apologetic demeanor.
002 Bravery vs. Bravado
February 18, 2018 23:14 - 21 minutes - 29.7 MBLearning the difference between the two. One is inspired by fear, while the other is inspired by faith. How I learned to understand the difference and apply it to my daily life. How being a black woman in America complicated my feelings, self-esteem and perspective. A nod to Black History Month.
001 My Discovery of Self
February 14, 2018 21:30 - 21 minutes - 29.5 MBArriving in mid-life only to discover, you've been pretending for decades to be someone you're not. And to make matters worse, you pretended for so long, you've lost track of who you really are. This episode is about my journey in uncovering my authentic self.
000 Trailer: Welcome to INNW
February 13, 2018 17:00 - 3 minutes - 4.56 MBWhat is If Not Now, When? Here is a brief description of the inspiration behind the podcast, how I decided on the name, and what I hope to achieve by sharing my journey.