Your Unapologetic Career Podcast
179 episodes - English - Latest episode: 4 days ago - ★★★★★ - 141 ratingsAre you ready to become the CEO of your career? Join Kemi Doll – physician, surgeon, researcher, coach, and career strategist – as she guides you on the journey to transform your academic life, so that you can channel your ideas, passions, and skills into a successful and nourishing career. In each episode, she’ll be taking a deep dive into one CORE growth strategy so you can gain confidence and effectiveness in pursuing the dream career in academic medicine that you worked so hard to achieve. Tune in for an always authentic, sometimes a little raw, but unapologetically empowering word. Learn more at www.kemidoll.com.
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105 Coaching Client Spotlight: Dr. Sukeshi Arora, M.D.
April 18, 2023 09:00 - 33 minutes - 20.9 MBDr. Arora graduated from the University of Texas (UT) Southwestern Medical School in Dallas, Texas, and completed her Internal Medicine Residency and Medical Hematology and Oncology Fellowship at UT Health San Antonio. She holds the John Eiler Endowed Professorship in Cancer Research and is an Associate Professor of Medicine in the Division of Hematology/Oncology, at UT Health San Antonio. As a medical oncologist, her clinical and research specialty is in hepatobiliary cancers, focusing on...
104 How Hypervigilance Can Ruin Your Career
April 11, 2023 09:00 - 55 minutes - 38.4 MBBeing “First Only Different” doing the kind of work that we do comes with a needed level of hypervigilance. It’s necessary so that we can be sure that we are not experiencing what otherwise would be a default: lower quality support, pay, space, etc. However, the longer we do that, the easier it bleeds into places it doesn’t belong. If we're constantly having to keep tabs and make sure that we are being supported or we're getting paid appropriately, part of our routine habits includes pay...
103 Dear Mentors
April 04, 2023 09:00 - 36 minutes - 25.2 MBMentorship is a valuable aspect of academic medicine. And although mentors and mentorship are not perfect, it's impossible to be successful with no mentorship. That would be a mess! So, this episode is directly for the Mentors. We thank you. We appreciate you. And also, some of y'all need HELP. This episode is about starting that conversation about help. Listen in as Kemi sheds some light on what she has learned from coaching mid and senior-career faculty around the challenges that make ...
102 Normalizing Transition From Clinical Work
March 28, 2023 09:00 - 36 minutes - 25 MBDespite the fact that it's normal to grow and change over the course of our lives and careers, the culture of academic medicine is not built in ANY WAY to reflect this. We spend at least 7 years going from medical school to training to faculty and all the way through it’s reinforced over and over that once we make the transition to faculty, that's it - the last transition. The norm and the expectation is that we're going to stay in clinical medicine and love it until the day we retire. I...
101 Unapologetically Vulnerable: Kemi's Interview Part 2
March 21, 2023 09:00 - 38 minutes - 22.5 MBIn this episode, we are continuing our conversation from Episode 100:Unapologetically Vulnerable: Kemi's Interview Part 1. Kemi is back in the hot seat, being interviewed by her friend and incredible executive coach, Monique Shields of Seven Pines Leadership. And this week Kemi is revealing a secret pleasure project that’s in the works. Join in as Kemi steps further into vulnerability and shares Her secret pleasure project Her resolve and how it has evolved over time Why she choo...
100 Unapologetically Vulnerable: Kemi's Interview Part 1
March 14, 2023 09:00 - 33 minutes - 23 MBIt's a celebration y’all!! We are celebrating our 100th episode of the Your Unapologetic Career Podcast. Thank you all for listening to the podcast and sharing it with your peeps. This is as much your celebration as it is ours, so thank you. We appreciate your continued support. To celebrate, we have a special treat for you. Kemi is taking the hot seat and is being interviewed by her friend and incredible executive coach, Monique Shields of Seven Pines Leadership. This conversation is so ...
99 Creating Quality Work Amidst Chaos
March 07, 2023 10:00 - 29 minutes - 20.2 MBCreating quality work in our careers is a goal that we all have. But how do we do that consistently? Kemi defines it as work that is intentionally impactful to the people, audience, and place that you desire it to be. And that this impact is durable so that people can go back to it repeatedly and still experience its power. In this episode, Kemi shares the components required to create quality work and how to consistently produce this level of work and not have it feel like luck. Have a ...
98 {ENCORE} Learning How To Quit
February 28, 2023 10:00 - 27 minutes - 18.7 MBENCORE EPISODE! I don’t know about y’all but I never learned how to quit anything in academic medicine. And yet, unless you have some kind of 100% perfect “No” response from the minute you started on faculty, you likely have at least 1 thing on your plate that just needs to go. Knowing it needs to go doesn’t mean you are any closer to quitting – because that’s just not what we do. It’s not about not knowing what to write in the email, we have to go deeper. In this episode, Kemi talks abo...
97 What's Missing In Academic Leadership
February 21, 2023 10:00 - 34 minutes - 23.6 MBThere are many norms around leadership and managing people, yet there are no norms around self-management. It’s true for academics and beyond. Why is this important? Because the skill of self-management is a major component of a successful leader. Listen in as Kemi shares her own experience with various leadership roles, why an expert level of self-management is required to be an effective leader, and the key features of self-management that show up fully in leadership. Have a topic you...
97 What's Missing in Academic Leadership
February 21, 2023 10:00 - 34 minutes - 23.6 MBThere are many norms around leadership and managing people, yet there are no norms around self-management. It’s true for academics and beyond. Why is this important? Because the skill of self-management is a major component of a successful leader. Listen in as Kemi shares her own experience with various leadership roles, why an expert level of self-management is required to be an effective leader, and the key features of self-management that show up fully in leadership. Have a topic you...
96 How To Survive Being A Different Kind Of "First"
February 14, 2023 10:00 - 41 minutes - 28.5 MBIt's not surprising that as women of color in academic medicine and public health, a lot of us have the experience of being the first person of color in our division or department or doing the kind of work we're doing. We know and live this, right? When discussing this experience of being “first, only, or different,” we're talking about it from an identity perspective, which is incredibly critical, but this is just ONE kind of being first. There's another kind of being first. There's the k...
96 How To Survive Being A Different Kind of "First"
February 14, 2023 10:00 - 41 minutes - 28.5 MBIt's not surprising that as women of color in academic medicine and public health, a lot of us have the experience of being the first person of color in our division or department or doing the kind of work we're doing. We know and live this, right? When discussing this experience of being “first, only, or different,” we're talking about it from an identity perspective, which is incredibly critical, but this is just ONE kind of being first. There's another kind of being first. There's the k...
95 Client Spotlight: Dr. Tia N. Barnes, PhD
February 07, 2023 10:00 - 29 minutes - 20.4 MBDr. Barnes is an Assistant Professor in Human Development and Family Sciences at the University of Delaware. Her research examines the social-emotional well-being of minoritized populations. She has published papers in several journals including Infant and Child Development, the Journal of School Violence, Aggression and Violent Behavior, and Beyond Behavior. She is the creator of the Scholarly Self-Care podcast and is the 2021 recipient of the Joseph E. Zins Award for SEL Research from the ...
94 Finding Your Career Spark In 2023
January 31, 2023 10:00 - 31 minutes - 21.8 MBWe are talking today about how to find our career spark in 2023. Kemi defines career spark as the connection to a sense of possibility and growth for the future. This is something that we all want. BUT - how do we know what our career spark is? And once we’ve found it, how do we protect it? Listen in as Kemi walks us through three steps to finding our career spark and keeping it alive for ourselves. Have a topic you want me to cover on the podcast? To submit your Listener Letter, se...
93 Are You Taking Action Or Waiting On A Miracle?
January 24, 2023 10:00 - 26 minutes - 18 MBWhen we want our entire experience to change, we will do something odd: we will want that deeply... while sitting around hoping it happens. Instead of considering the usually inconvenient things that we know work...we will just wait for a miracle. That's not how change works and we are about to get dragged! LOL Listen in as Kemi challenges us to create the experience we want in our careers by answering this question for ourselves: Rather than waiting on a miracle– are you doing what you...
{ENCORE} EP. 29 4 Ways To Stop Saying Yes When You Really Mean No
January 17, 2023 10:00 - 45 minutes - 31.4 MBWe’re taking you back to an oldie, but a goodie, one of our top episodes of 2021, and a forever skill to help you bring ownership to your time and energy. {ENCORE} We all do this. We know we do it, but it’s still so hard to stop. Or we have gotten much better with our Nos, but it’s still painful and energy-draining to execute. Yet, we know we have to say No – a LOT more. This week Kemi tackles one of the biggest self-imposed causes of overwhelm. When we stack our schedule with things we d...
92 Engineering Change In Your Career Experience
January 10, 2023 10:00 - 39 minutes - 27.5 MBAs we begin a new year, there are usually some things that we declare that we don't want to be the same at the end of next year. Whether that thing is tangible or not, what we're trying to do is engineer a transformation so that we have a different experience in our careers. This is excellent - and it is important to identify for ourselves the actual experience that we want to have while changing. Because the process of engineering that kind of change looks very different than just racing...
91 Reclaiming Your Sense of SELF In Your Career
January 03, 2023 10:00 - 31 minutes - 21.6 MBAs women of color in academic medicine, public health, and allied fields, we simultaneously have the following qualities: 1) a desire to serve the greater good and 2) a strong interest in tangible productivity. Because of this, it's common to feel like we lose ourselves in our work. The reason for this is that the academic culture is effective at taking what's already there - our desire to serve and our desire to have tangible productivity - and exploit them in the absence of anything else....
91 Reclaiming Your Sense of SELF in Your Career
January 03, 2023 10:00 - 31 minutes - 21.6 MBAs women of color in academic medicine, public health, and allied fields, we simultaneously have the following qualities: 1) a desire to serve the greater good and 2) a strong interest in tangible productivity. Because of this, it's common to feel like we lose ourselves in our work. The reason for this is that the academic culture is effective at taking what's already there - our desire to serve and our desire to have tangible productivity - and exploit them in the absence of anything else....
90 Reclaiming Your Sense of SELF in Your Career
January 03, 2023 10:00 - 31 minutes - 21.6 MBAs women of color in academic medicine, public health, and allied fields, we simultaneously have the following qualities: 1) a desire to serve the greater good and 2) a strong interest in tangible productivity. Because of this, it's common to feel like we lose ourselves in our work. The reason for this is that the academic culture is effective at taking what's already there - our desire to serve and our desire to have tangible productivity - and exploit them in the absence of anything else....
{Bonus} Top 10 Episodes of 2022
December 19, 2022 10:00 - 40 minutes - 27.8 MBOur Top 10 most popular episodes of 2022 and some behind the scenes of how they came to be. Happy Holidays and Happy New Year! Have a topic you want me to cover on the podcast? To submit your Listener Letter, send an email to [email protected] with your question, and let’s go! 🎧 🎙{Bonus} Top 10 Episodes of 2022. Check out this week’s episode of Your Unapologetic Career today!
90 Top 10 Episodes Of 2022
December 19, 2022 10:00 - 40 minutes - 27.8 MBOur Top 10 most popular episodes of 2022 and some behind the scenes of how they came to be. Happy Holidays and Happy New Year! Have a topic you want me to cover on the podcast? To submit your Listener Letter, send an email to [email protected] with your question, and let’s go! 🎧 🎙{Bonus} Top 10 Episodes of 2022. Check out this week’s episode of Your Unapologetic Career today!
90 Top 10 Episodes of 2022
December 19, 2022 10:00 - 40 minutes - 27.8 MBOur Top 10 most popular episodes of 2022 and some behind the scenes of how they came to be. Happy Holidays and Happy New Year! Have a topic you want me to cover on the podcast? To submit your Listener Letter, send an email to [email protected] with your question, and let’s go! 🎧 🎙{Bonus} Top 10 Episodes of 2022. Check out this week’s episode of Your Unapologetic Career today!
89 Coaching Client Spotlight: Michelle Ogunwole, MD, PhD
December 13, 2022 10:00 - 32 minutes - 22.7 MBDr. Michelle Ogunwole is an Assistant Professor of Medicine at the Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine. She is a health disparities researcher, social epidemiologist, and General Internal Medicine physician additionally boarded in obesity medicine and lifestyle medicine. Dr. Ogunwole’s research focuses on racial disparities in maternal health among African American women with a specific interest in African American women's experience within the healthcare system and barriers to f...
88 Taking Steps Out Of Overwhelm
December 06, 2022 10:00 - 55 minutes - 38.2 MBBeing overwhelmed is a common feeling for faculty who engage in research as a big part of their role. As we approach the end of the year, we begin to have thoughts about all the places we thought we would be versus where we actually are. Add to that the holiday season to-do list and festivities and it’s the perfect recipe for feeling out of control at a time when you want to just relax and ease into the end of the year. Being able to get to a place where you can recognize and then manage ...
87 Coaching Client Spotlight: Mya Roberson MSPH, Ph.D.
November 29, 2022 10:00 - 31 minutes - 20.8 MBDr. Mya Roberson is a social epidemiologist, health services researcher, and assistant professor. She is also an Associate Editor of Diversity, Equity, and Inclusion at JAMA Dermatology and a Board Member Trustee at Brown University. In 2021, she completed her Ph.D. in Epidemiology at the UNC Gillings School of Global Public Health where she was a Robert Wood Johnson Foundation Health Policy Research Scholar and a Truman Scholar (PA 2015). Her research interests are in applying epidemiolog...
86 Introducing the Get That Grant Program Coaches!
November 22, 2022 10:00 - 49 minutes - 34.2 MBIt's been nearly a year in the making...... Introducing our Get That Grant Program Coaches! These are fantastic, accomplished faculty in their own right who all went through Get That Grant themselves as clients. They are now trained Program Coaches and excited to help other women of color faculty get free. Listen in for: WHO these amazing ladies are... WHY they decided to move from client to coach... REAL TALK on what's challenging about coaching in Get That Grant... Their FAVORITE co...
86 Introducing The Get That Grant Program Coaches!
November 22, 2022 10:00 - 49 minutes - 34.2 MBIt's been nearly a year in the making...... Introducing our Get That Grant Program Coaches! These are fantastic, accomplished faculty in their own right who all went through Get That Grant themselves as clients. They are now trained Program Coaches and excited to help other women of color faculty get free. Listen in for: WHO these amazing ladies are... WHY they decided to move from client to coach... REAL TALK on what's challenging about coaching in Get That Grant... Their FAVORITE co...
85 Learning From 20 Years Of Journals
November 15, 2022 11:00 - 34 minutes - 23.7 MBThis episode is a beautiful story of Kemi’s career evolution. Listen in as Kemi describes how for her 40th birthday, she read through her journals from the previous two decades, reflecting on all the changes and growth she has experienced. She shares the importance of taking time to journal and set clear intentions for your time and your life. Often we disregard the "underneath progress" (the growth of our roots) and only focus on the flowers. Meaning, we start counting our efforts based o...
84 Flipping The Power Of Academic Culture
November 08, 2022 11:00 - 49 minutes - 34 MBThere is a theme in academic medicine that rolls around annually where newbies start tweeting questions like how are you all doing all these meetings and still getting your work done or how do you balance XYZ? This is definitely the culture of academic medicine, yet every year it feels like a new problem where we just woke up and realized that the way that the academic culture is set up is not actually designed for anybody to be able to functionally do all of the things within the time give...
84 Flipping The Power of Academic Culture
November 08, 2022 11:00 - 49 minutes - 34 MBThere is a theme in academic medicine that rolls around annually where newbies start tweeting questions like how are you all doing all these meetings and still getting your work done or how do you balance XYZ? This is definitely the culture of academic medicine, yet every year it feels like a new problem where we just woke up and realized that the way that the academic culture is set up is not actually designed for anybody to be able to functionally do all of the things within the time give...
83 Career Skills Development: From Learning To Mastery
November 01, 2022 10:00 - 38 minutes - 26.8 MBA main ingredient in creating your unapologetic career is clarity. We have established review and evaluation processes for gaining clarity around the more tangible things we do for our jobs but what does this look like for the other things that we constantly bring up difficult such as: organization time management navigating politics and power optimizing mentor and leader relationships developing your vision into actual tangible goals, ETC. All of these things are available to lear...
83 Career Skills Development: From Learning to Mastery
November 01, 2022 10:00 - 38 minutes - 26.8 MBA main ingredient in creating your unapologetic career is clarity. We have established review and evaluation processes for gaining clarity around the more tangible things we do for our jobs but what does this look like for the other things that we constantly bring up difficult such as: organization time management navigating politics and power optimizing mentor and leader relationships developing your vision into actual tangible goals, ETC. All of these things are available to lear...
82 Stop Adapting to Survive
October 25, 2022 10:00 - 54 minutes - 37.3 MBAdapting to survive in the insane structures of academic medicine and public health is a superpower. However, when you adapt to survive in your careers, you are recreating the exact circumstances that you do not want. In this episode, Kemi calls for you to stop using this old strategy to try to create your unapologetic career because it doesn't work. To be clear, this skill of adapting is not a bad thing. It got you really far to where you are. She simply wants you to be able to update you...
82 Stop Adapting To Survive
October 25, 2022 10:00 - 54 minutes - 37.3 MBAdapting to survive in the insane structures of academic medicine and public health is a superpower. However, when you adapt to survive in your careers, you are recreating the exact circumstances that you do not want. In this episode, Kemi calls for you to stop using this old strategy to try to create your unapologetic career because it doesn't work. To be clear, this skill of adapting is not a bad thing. It got you really far to where you are. She simply wants you to be able to update you...
81 Breaking Cycles of Disappointment
October 18, 2022 10:00 - 18 minutes - 12.7 MBBeing in cycles of disappointment is exhausting. But we high achievers often create and sustain them unknowingly, because they are linked to how we succeed in the first place. When what you use to be successful - which is learning what people's expectations are of you, and going hard and crushing it - trying not to do that feels insane. So, we’ll disappoint ourselves instead, then try to make up for that – and launch the cycle. End the madness! There is another option, listen in as Kemi ...
81 Breaking Cycles Of Disappointment
October 18, 2022 10:00 - 18 minutes - 12.7 MBBeing in cycles of disappointment is exhausting. But we high achievers often create and sustain them unknowingly, because they are linked to how we succeed in the first place. When what you use to be successful - which is learning what people's expectations are of you, and going hard and crushing it - trying not to do that feels insane. So, we’ll disappoint ourselves instead, then try to make up for that – and launch the cycle. End the madness! There is another option, listen in as Kemi ...
80 Coaching Client Spotlight: Toyosi Onwuemene, M.D. MS.
October 11, 2022 10:00 - 22 minutes - 15.5 MBDr. Toyosi Onwuemene is an Assistant Professor of Medicine-Hematology at Duke University School of Medicine and has clinical and research interests in hemostasis/thrombosis and therapeutic apheresis. Her long-term goal is to develop and run therapeutic apheresis multi-center trials with a focus on applications of therapeutic plasma exchange in thrombotic disorders which disproportionately affect women of color. She is also an alumna of our Get That Grant coaching program! Listen in as we di...
79 How High Achievers Can Flip The Script
October 04, 2022 10:00 - 31 minutes - 21.9 MBThere are two very powerful characteristics that are admirable in high-achieving women of color faculty in academic medicine and public health: 1) a dogged determination to get things done and 2) a private, inner working world These same two reasons can also cause so much pain, challenge, and frustration for you and your career. In this episode, Kemi celebrates these characteristics and shares how they can be transformed into tools that can be used in service of you, your own freedom, and bu...
78 Discerning True Supporters From Frenemy Energy
September 27, 2022 09:00 - 46 minutes - 32.1 MBRelationships have the power to both help you grow and stunt your growth. That is why discerning between healthy and unhealthy professional relationships is an important skill. In this episode, Kemi discusses frenemy energy. What it is, how it shows up, how to discern it, and how you can minimize the impact of it on your professional life and the career moves you're trying to make. Let's go! Have a topic you want me to cover on the podcast? To submit your Listener Letter, send an email to ...
77 The Academic Bait and Switch
September 20, 2022 10:00 - 34 minutes - 23.6 MBUnpopular opinion: successful integrated research careers and the folks who get successfully funded don’t just get there by luck. There is a gap between the dream academic medicine sells and the reality of the research training, or lack thereof, that is provided. As a field, Kemi would like us to stop lying about that gap. Listen in this week for why Kemi thinks it’s critical to tell people the truth about the kinds of careers they are and *are not* prepared for and how that knowledge lead...
77 The Academic Bait And Switch
September 20, 2022 10:00 - 34 minutes - 23.6 MBUnpopular opinion: successful integrated research careers and the folks who get successfully funded don’t just get there by luck. There is a gap between the dream academic medicine sells and the reality of the research training, or lack thereof, that is provided. As a field, Kemi would like us to stop lying about that gap. Listen in this week for why Kemi thinks it’s critical to tell people the truth about the kinds of careers they are and *are not* prepared for and how that knowledge lead...
76 Coaching Client Spotlight: Nneka Ufere, M.D.
September 13, 2022 10:00 - 33 minutes - 23.2 MBDr. Ufere is a transplant hepatologist and medicine instructor in the gastroenterology division at Massachusetts General Hospital and Harvard Medical School in Boston, MA. Her work focuses on building palliative and supportive care interventions and increasing health care system empathy to improve the quality of life and care for patients with advanced liver disease and their caregivers. She is also an alumnae of our Get That Grant coaching program! Listen in as we discuss her coaching jour...
75 Why You Should Be Skeptical Of Coaching!
September 06, 2022 09:00 - 49 minutes - 34 MBWe are finally recognizing the importance of ongoing active professional development for faculty to grow their skills, self-awareness, and ability to take action toward their goals. Fortunately, coaching is gaining traction in academic medicine and public health - and I think this is a good thing, especially for women of color. Still, I want you to be skeptical about coaching. Spoiler alert, I am not about to extol all the reasons why you need to make sure you have an uber-certified coach....
75 Why You Should be Skeptical of Coaching!
September 06, 2022 09:00 - 49 minutes - 34 MBWe are finally recognizing the importance of ongoing active professional development for faculty to grow their skills, self-awareness, and ability to take action toward their goals. Fortunately, coaching is gaining traction in academic medicine and public health - and I think this is a good thing, especially for women of color. Still, I want you to be skeptical about coaching. Spoiler alert, I am not about to extol all the reasons why you need to make sure you have an uber-certified coach....
74 Excellence vs. Perfection
August 30, 2022 05:00 - 25 minutes - 17.3 MBThere is this thing that is baked into so much of our experiences and the culture of academics where the expectation is that if you're ever going to be high achieving, ideally, you need to be perfect. Your point needs to be perfect. Your presentation needs to be flawless. Your paper needs to be invulnerable to critique. And - that's just not possible. Yes, this is a very strong motivator but it’s a strong motivator that has multiple consequences including stress, anxiety, and distraction fr...
73 Coaching Client Spotlight: Lachelle Weeks , M.D., Ph.D.
August 23, 2022 10:00 - 29 minutes - 19.8 MBDr. Weeks is a physician and scientist at the Dana Farber Cancer Institute in Boston, MA. She is passionately driven to study the prediction of myeloid malignancies or acute leukemias in people who have precursor conditions. She is also an advocate and peer-educator on issues of racial justice and health equity and she currently serves as co-chair on the anti-racism task force for the American Society of Hematology. She is a junior faculty mentor for the “Dismantling Inequities in Medicine”...
72 Supporting Us In Our Academic Careers
August 16, 2022 10:00 - 34 minutes - 23.6 MBThis week we are doing a listener letter with a #plottwist. This letter is from a supportive bae wanting to know how he can best support his person! 😍 For us high-achieving women, finding a supportive oasis is *rare.* And so I’d like to give a special shout-out to all of you who are in those supportive roles. Boos, baes, friends, mamas, cousins - we appreciate you. We need you. And this episode just might help you understand how to support us better. In this episode, I’ll help shed some...
72 Supporting Us in Our Academic Careers
August 16, 2022 10:00 - 34 minutes - 23.6 MBThis week we are doing a listener letter with a #plottwist. This letter is from a supportive bae wanting to know how he can best support his person! 😍 For us high-achieving women, finding a supportive oasis is *rare.* And so I’d like to give a special shout-out to all of you who are in those supportive roles. Boos, baes, friends, mamas, cousins - we appreciate you. We need you. And this episode just might help you understand how to support us better. In this episode, I’ll help shed some...
71 How Shadow Tasks Sabotage Your Productivity
August 09, 2022 10:00 - 49 minutes - 34.1 MBAs high-achieving women of color in academic medicine being able to get done what we want to get done is a priority but we often sabotage this goal with what I’m calling shadow tasks. These are tasks that we have agreed to do but they don't have space, time, or structure anywhere on our calendar or to-do list. The reason why they are so detrimental to productivity is that the task doesn't actually matter yet they keep us constantly living in this world of vague overwhelm. Listen in as I ...