Sebastian LaCause, CHASING HAPPY
19 episodes - English - Latest episode: over 3 years ago -A narrative, non-fiction, queer tale of truth, transformation and realizing who you are. Through personal stories of self-realization, Sebastian examines his life and exposes dark truths. Facing his shadow head on, he learns self-acceptance, self-forgiveness and lights a path toward healing the pain from his past. A real life story about releasing who you thought you should be, to become who you authentically are. An honest, unapologetic story of reaching beyond personal limitations.
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Episodes
Chapter Sixteen, Epilogue | I am Allowed
November 08, 2020 14:00 - 37 minutes - 25.9 MBIn the last chapter of the season, there was still another discovery to be examined. The surprise realization a new affirmation brings, uncovers an even deeper layer of healing and understanding. While reading a new book, a chapter unlocks the mystery behind sex energy and leads me to some personal understanding about my own. Support here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/sebastianlacause - WATCH my short film DISCIPLE here! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/chasinghappy_thepodcast/ ...
Chapter Fourteen, Bread Crumbs | Part One
November 01, 2020 13:00 - 30 minutes - 20.7 MBIn part one of the last chapter in season one, I explore the journey of stepping further into realization and how things that weren't serving my new purpose began to fall away. I discuss my discovery of the states of consciousness that my meditation practice has revealed and the technique I used to help me reach those states . How I stepped further into an understanding of how to access that energy and power that lies within us all and how it began to show itself in my life. Support here! ...
Chapter Fifteen, Bread Crumbs | Part Two
November 01, 2020 13:00 - 32 minutes - 22.6 MBIn part two of Bread Crumbs, I continue the discovery of becoming the witness of life unfolding, instead of the victim. I was coming in to the realization that the universe wasn’t setting me up to fail but was in fact leading me to where I wanted to go and that the only resistance getting in the way was coming from me. I was and still am deepening my trust in life, so that I can be more of a deliberate creator and less reactionary and less living in memorized emotion and unconscious behavio...
Chapter Thirteen, Alchemy
October 25, 2020 13:00 - 37 minutes - 25.8 MBWith my self-exploration kicking into high gear, I found myself struggling to find a balance between this new discovery of my inner world and my practiced behaviors and memorized emotions. The affirmations and visualizations I was doing were elevating my mood, momentarily but I couldn't sustain the momentum or figure out how to apply it to my life and make real changes. That is until I stumbled on to some videos that helped crack it all open and gave me some practices that I could implement ...
Chapter Twelve, Plus One
October 18, 2020 13:00 - 37 minutes - 25.6 MBIn this chapter I examine justification by looking at my state of consciousness during a relationship and after relocating back to Los Angeles from New York. I left New York feeling focused and energized but I got caught up in a life that wasn't mine. Loosing mys sense of self in my relationship and my need for external validation and acceptance, justifying my choices and my circumstances to create the life I thought I should have, in order to reach my goals and succeed. But all the pain, ...
Chapter Eleven, Messy
October 11, 2020 13:00 - 35 minutes - 24.7 MBWhy can it be so difficult for us to be on our own? To walk through the world without a partner. We grow up believing that we are incomplete without a special someone in our lives, to love us and give our lives meaning. We will sacrifice our own growth in order to not feel alone, to not be alone. We tumble into entanglements for safety. At least, that's what I did. I had grown accustom to having that person in my life who made me feel that everything would be okay. What was I without that? I...
Chapter Ten, Hollow
October 04, 2020 13:00 - 35 minutes - 24.6 MBThe anger and resentment I experienced due to a career I couldn't get off the ground, inspired a creative manifestation that brought with it some of the things I had been seeking all my life, recognition and praise. However I still hadn't addressed my state of consciousness in any real way so there was only exterior gratification. There was no real meaning because I was still trying to prove something to the world and to myself. Chasing an idea of what I thought success was and consumed in s...
Chapter Nine, Hustling
September 27, 2020 13:00 - 36 minutes - 25.4 MBLooking back at my life it's easy to see the value of failure. It's so easy to see how life was unfolding purposely for me to learn and to be guided toward what I was wanting. When I was in the trenches of my thirties I was filled with so much panic, urgency and scarcity. Loosing myself in the ideas of what success looked like and felt like. Working against myself in so many ways because I didn't realize the power of my own thoughts and emotions. Pushing against what I didn't want instead of...
Chapter Eight, Don't Ask Don't Tell
September 20, 2020 07:00 - 31 minutes - 21.4 MBThere's no easy way to dive into the story about your love battling cancer. As you can imagine my inner world continued its descent. I tried to balance my relationship, the cancer, my new job as a bartender and my non-existent acting career with some sort of grace. Succeeding at times. But I felt like I was in the dark, searching for myself and for meaning, while my insides were being ripped to shreds by my guilt. Support here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/sebastianlacause Instagram ...
Chapter Seven, Vanity Fair
September 13, 2020 13:00 - 38 minutes - 26.4 MBExamining my shadow has been the most rewarding work I've ever done. Bringing all the dark aspects of myself into the light requires a lot of trust. It requires me to be non-judgemental of myself. I can't heal what I'm judging. There's tremendous freedom in that. Freedom to share my story without apology and freedom from the fear of telling it. In this chapter, my paranoia surrounding my HIV hits new heights. Still reaching for the white ideal I go under the knife. 9/11 brings a career highl...
Chapter Six, All That Glitters
September 06, 2020 13:00 - 36 minutes - 24.9 MBAs my relationship with Red Speedo deepened and my Broadway career was booming, I slipped further into my identification with my external world, completely ignoring and repressing my emotions surrounding my HIV status or my uncertain future. With so much focus and attention on my outer world and appearances, my insecurities and deep rooted fear slowly began it's surge of self-sabotage. Support here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/sebastianlacause Instagram https://www.instagram.com/c...
Chapter Five, Red Speedo
August 30, 2020 13:00 - 39 minutes - 27.4 MBRed Speedo was the beginning of a beautiful time in my life. But it came with a price. In this extremely exposed and vulnerable episode, I face a dark moment in my life that would set into motion a series of events that would change me forever, leading me toward a life of love that I never thought I'd experience and further away from the healing my soul was desperately craving. Support here! https://www.patreon.com/sebastianlacause https://www.instagram.com/chasinghappy_thepodcast/ http...
Chapter Four, Damaged Goods
August 23, 2020 07:00 - 37 minutes - 26 MBReceiving my HIV diagnosis was one of the most challenging moments of my life. Little did I know that the hard stuff was only just beginning. Processing this in the mind would prove to be my toughest obstacle. Nothing can prepare you for the stigma. The crazy part is that a certain level of the stigma came from my own mind. Support here! https://www.patreon.com/sebastianlacause https://www.instagram.com/chasinghappy_thepodcast/ https://www.facebook.com/ChasingHappyThePodcast/ Reference...
Chapter Three, A State of Lack
August 16, 2020 07:00 - 34 minutes - 24.1 MBAs I began operating in the world on my own, I carried with me all these ideas of who I was based on my history, my upbringing, who and what the world had taught me I was. Unknowingly emitting a signal of lack and desperation to succeed to prove my worthiness to the world and to myself. When you operate from a state of lack, you create more lack, self-doubt and personal limitations. I was creating habits and behavior that were setting a rocky foundation. Support here! https://www.patreon....
Chapter Two, Perfection
August 09, 2020 18:00 - 39 minutes - 27.2 MBLearning to re-know myself beyond my own programmed ideas of perfection, has been a struggle my entire life. Being the only person of color in a very large all white high school, wearing thick glasses and having too many teeth to fit perfectly into my mouth, created a lot of shame about my physical self. Then, discovering my gayness on top of all that, was almost too much for my young mind to process. They were the building blocks for a shaky foundation. It's when I began defining my value b...
Chapter 2, Perfection
August 07, 2020 03:00 - 39 minutes - 27.2 MBLearning to re-know myself beyond my own programmed ideas of perfection, has been a struggle my entire life. Being the only person of color in a very large all white high school, wearing thick glasses and having too many teeth to fit perfectly into my mouth, created a lot of shame about my physical self. Then, discovering my gayness on top of all that, was almost too much for my young mind to process. They were the building blocks for a shaky foundation. It's when I began defining my value b...
Sebastian LaCause, CHASING HAPPY: Chapter 1, The Portal
August 02, 2020 00:00 - 31 minutes - 21.3 MBEven though I felt energetically prepared for the mindset required to process and navigate the quarantine of 2020, I wasn't prepared for the ramifications, a seemingly insignificant decision to watch some old footage of my younger self, would have on my subconscious mind. Opening a Pandora's Box of realization that would catapult me deeper into the journey of overcoming my past to liberate my present. https://www.patreon.com/sebastianlacause https://www.instagram.com/chasinghappy_thepodcas...
Chapter One, The Portal
August 02, 2020 00:00 - 31 minutes - 21.4 MBEven though I felt energetically prepared for the mindset required to process and navigate the quarantine of 2020, I wasn't prepared for the ramifications, a seemingly insignificant decision to watch some old footage of my younger self, would have on my subconscious mind. Opening a Pandora's Box of realization that would catapult me deeper into the journey of overcoming my past to liberate my present. Support here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/sebastianlacause Instagram https://www.i...
Chapter 1, The Portal
August 02, 2020 00:00 - 31 minutes - 21.3 MBEven though I felt energetically prepared for the mindset required to process and navigate the quarantine of 2020, I wasn't prepared for the ramifications, a seemingly insignificant decision to watch some old footage of my younger self, would have on my subconscious mind. Opening a Pandora's Box of realization that would catapult me deeper into the journey of overcoming my past to liberate my present. https://www.patreon.com/sebastianlacause https://www.instagram.com/chasinghappy_thepodcas...