Protection: listener question

I just wanted to let you know that the Energy Course was brilliant how much it has opened up and deepened my curiosity and inquiry into "Who am I".  Thank you so much for your wonderful guidance and help in opening up the cracks, enabling me to see so much more.

My question relates initially to Day 28 "Takeaways" video and then secondly to the Podcast question from 30th January regarding Energy and Capacity.

You spoke about social situations and the use of alcohol as a coping tool in the Day 28 video.  What if "avoidance" instead of alcohol is used to cope?  For example, making social situations as something to avoid - easier to not go than cope with fear, humiliation, anxiety, etc.

This is an area in my life that I have been looking more and more at recently.  I see myself going to some social occasions now - but there still appears to be a lot of thinking and physical symptoms around them.  Some occasions I just find myself not attending - this is then followed with shame, lack, remorse - why can't I just go, what is there to fear, dreading the next one.

And then I listened to today's podcast (30 Jan) regarding Energy and Capacity.  Brilliant question and answer!  Near the end, what I took from it was, that there is no capacity at all to be with an experience, when all energy is used to protect and try and keep in place "that version of myself".  Why do I need to protect "that version of myself"?  I'm curious now?  What's in it for the "ME"?