6- Ying or yang- the choice is yours!

I always beat myself up about wasting time,especially now that I can truly feel that I am in recovery. Today I was finding it difficult to find something interesting to watch on youtube, I almost started to give myself negative mind chatter about it. I had a flash back in which I remembered myself crying and instinctively I resonated with that because that is how I was used to being most days. I had to ask myself which is better? Crying or watching the video I was watching!