today's episode wasted, fucked up and nearly dead. Is a story this near and dear to my heart because just over 21 years ago, this was my life. That was my life. And a lot of people are shocked. Now did hear that. And I want to talk with you about this because you know what somebody might think with a title, like wasted, fucked up and nearly dead. There were a lot of drugs, a lot of drinking, a lot of sex, whatever comes to your mind. And do you know what I was in the throws of an eating disorder? I was in the throws of bulimia.