Under My Skin - True Stories of Family, Cancer, Financial Ruin, Suicide - nothing a family should have to endure
46 episodes - English - Latest episode: almost 2 years ago -Under my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters the most. Under My Skin is a true story. A Drama. A Psycho-thriller and most of all sad that we have humans that can do this. Not just once, but multiple times. Thank you for listening to Under My Skin.The artwork says it all, Lucifer in a woman's body on the left. A Cute She-devil on the right. Two ladies that took the heart of a very sick man and - well - listen to the crazy. It's in these 10 to fifteen minute episodes.The puppy on the left is his dog, a dog he had to leave with his family to follow Lucifer to another state... and he was in no state to be moving away from the best doctors in the world. And the goat - well that's actually Gideon. A goat that Ian Locke loved. Enjoy the Journey, otherwise you would go INSANE!
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Episodes
Season 3 - Episode 4 - Ancestry says WHAT?
July 04, 2022 21:00 - 9 minutes - 6.58 MBWe start on the DNA Results for Kate's spit test on Ancestry.com. Amazing to think that you could have blood out there that you knew nothing about. Well this is what is now happening for KATE and it's now UNDER HER SKIN.
Under My Skin - Mom Hidden Secret - S - 3 EP - 3
June 26, 2022 04:00 - 10 minutes - 7.46 MBFinishing up my story of how my Dad and Mom held their secrets. Discussion on DNA Testing and how it is changing the world. And finally discussing how Families should discuss the hardest secrets because they will rise out of the cesspool of life. Episode 4 starts Kate's story on her DNA test from Ancestory.com. It's a doozy.
Under My Skin - Oh Grandma - S - 3 EP - 2
June 24, 2022 23:00 - 8 minutes - 6.04 MBDeeper dive into what I found on Ancestry about the travels of my grandma and the birth of my dad. Was it rape, an affair, a drunken romp in the hay? Nobody will know. All I know I am obsessed with the trail of DNA and how I now fit in this world and who is my true family. This is Under My Skin.
Under My Skin - DNA TESTS - S - 3 EP - 1
June 24, 2022 20:00 - 11 minutes - 7.87 MBNow we are going down the road for finding out about our family trees. Kate & I have found out some pretty crazy stuff through DNA testing. This season is all about your and our family trees and the secrets that are no longer secret in our life.
UNDER MY SKIN - From DARKNESS Comes LIFE - BONUS - GUNS and GUNS
May 27, 2022 23:00 - 18 minutes - 12.9 MBMay 2022 has been amazing. All of the shootings have gotten under my skin. This is a bonus podcast for you to listen and decide.... are guns a true problem, or could it be way more. Social Media, Video Games, Mental Illness, Society's situation at the moment, Covid Lockdown, the list is long and is truly a part of all of the madness. I ramble - sorry, but there has to be someone to lead us into a new order. An order of kindness and compassion. NOT YELLING AND SCREAMING to get your way ...
From Darkness Comes Life - Season 2 - EP 8. Ending this Season's Discussion
May 20, 2022 23:00 - 9 minutes - 6.56 MBSummary of how I got everything tied up in a bow and solved all the stupid stuff I fretted over and attempted Suicide For. LIFE IS GOOD, Let yourself JUST ENJOY THE JOURNEY. Please listen to Season 1 and 2 from the beginning and you will see what one family has been dealing with. THIS IS 100% TRUE!
From Darkness comes Life - Season 2 Ep 7 - FINDING the Therapist that speaks my language.
May 20, 2022 21:00 - 10 minutes - 7.01 MBAfter Three attmepts for suicide, my pastor finds a great therapist that can speak my language. I also talk about mental health in USA. Plus, talks to others who might be thinking of suicide. Please be sure to listen to Ep 1. That is a summary of where I was.
From Darkness Comes Life - EP6- The Third time is not the CHARM or is it?
May 13, 2022 22:00 - 10 minutes - 7.58 MBThird Attempted suicide and now I have to address my issues. I find the help and a path to helping my mental illness. Please be sure you have listened to episode 1 before listening to this episode. That episode does describe in detail what happens.
From Darkness Comes Life - NUMBER TWO & the IRS?
May 06, 2022 22:00 - 10 minutes - 7.03 MBMASH had a title song that said "Suicide is Painless". Well maybe not, This is the beginning of my first attempted suicide. My thoughts, my reasoning and the results of my attempt. Please listen to the first two episodes of Season Two. The first episode is a portion of a screenplay I wrote and sets the tone of this horrendous act. The IRS is actually looking out for me. AND attempt #2 - the beginning of a very long night.
Darkness Comes Life - NUMBER TWO & the IRS?
May 06, 2022 22:00 - 10 minutes - 7.03 MBMASH had a title song that said "Suicide is Painless". Well maybe not, This is the beginning of my first attempted suicide. My thoughts, my reasoning and the results of my attempt. Please listen to the first two episodes of Season Two. The first episode is a portion of a screenplay I wrote and sets the tone of this horrendous act. The IRS is actually looking out for me. AND attempt #2 - the beginning of a very long night.
From Darkness Come Life - It's 5150 TIME
May 01, 2022 00:00 - 13 minutes - 9.44 MBMASH had a title song that said "Suicide is Painless". Well maybe not, This is the beginning of my first attempted suicide. My thoughts, my reasoning and the results of my attempt. Please listen to the first two episodes of Season Two. The first episode is a portion of a screenplay I wrote and sets the tone of this horrendous act. This episode talks about the Mental Health care we have for people like me. You make your own decision on this.
Under My Skin - It's 5150 TIME
May 01, 2022 00:00 - 13 minutes - 9.44 MBMASH had a title song that said "Suicide is Painless". Well maybe not, This is the beginning of my first attempted suicide. My thoughts, my reasoning and the results of my attempt. Please listen to the first two episodes of Season Two. The first episode is a portion of a screenplay I wrote and sets the tone of this horrendous act. This episode talks about the Mental Health care we have for people like me. You make your own decision on this.
From Darkness Comes Life - S-2 EP 3 - My First Attempt
April 19, 2022 23:00 - 11 minutes - 7.83 MBMASH had a title song that said "Suicide is Painless". Well maybe not, This is the beginning of my first attempted suicide. My thoughts, my reasoning and the results of my attempt. Please listen to the first two episodes of Season Two. The first episode is a portion of a screenplay I wrote and sets the tone of this horrendous act.
Under My Skin - S-2 EP 3 - My First
April 19, 2022 23:00 - 11 minutes - 7.83 MBMASH had a title song that said "Suicide is Painless". Well maybe not, This is the beginning of my first attempted suicide. My thoughts, my reasoning and the results of my attempt. Please listen to the first two episodes of Season Two. The first episode is a portion of a screenplay I wrote and sets the tone of this horrendous act.
Under My Skin - S-2 EP 2 - We Start at the beginning
April 16, 2022 00:00 - 10 minutes - 7.48 MBSUICIDE - This episode begins a season of discussion on the beginning of my SUICIDE. I 100% did attempted suicide and failed. This is my journey, a path that my brain took me on. If not for God's intervention, I would not be here. This is a personal season.... RELIVING MY MENTAL ILLNESS and how I overcame the situation.
From Darkness Comes Life - S-2 EP 2 - We Start at the beginning
April 16, 2022 00:00 - 10 minutes - 7.48 MBSUICIDE - This episode begins a season of discussion on the beginning of my SUICIDE. I 100% did attempted suicide and failed. This is my journey, a path that my brain took me on. If not for God's intervention, I would not be here. This is a personal season.... RELIVING MY MENTAL ILLNESS and how I overcame the situation.
Under My Skin - S-2 EP 1 - From Darkness comes LIFE
March 20, 2022 19:00 - 11 minutes - 7.64 MBSUICIDE - This episode begins a season of discussion on SUICIDE. I attempted suicide. This is my journey and it begins with a couple pages of a therapy I wrote. I screenplay called A Night of Coyotes. This is a personal season. MY MENTAL ILLNESS and how I overcame them.
From Darkness comes LIFE- S-2 EP 1 - A summary of the Beginning of my mental illnes
March 20, 2022 19:00 - 11 minutes - 7.64 MBSUICIDE - This episode begins a season of discussion on SUICIDE. I attempted suicide. This is my journey and it begins with a couple pages of a therapy I wrote. I screenplay called A Night of Coyotes. This is a personal season. MY MENTAL ILLNESS and how I overcame them.
Ep.25 - Under My Skin - A Mother's Perspective
January 10, 2022 01:00 - 16 minutes - 11.2 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 24 - Under My Skin - Rest Quietly Ian
December 31, 2021 00:00 - 13 minutes - 9.4 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 23 - Under My Skin - The Rules of Therapy
December 24, 2021 08:00 - 11 minutes - 7.93 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 22 - Under My Skin - GOODBYE PDX!
December 17, 2021 08:00 - 15 minutes - 10.9 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 21 - Under My Skin - You're Where?
December 14, 2021 08:00 - 11 minutes - 7.86 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 20 - Under My Skin - Covid Strikes
December 10, 2021 08:00 - 10 minutes - 7.03 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 19 - Under My Skin - Happy New...WAIT, WHAT?
December 07, 2021 08:00 - 11 minutes - 8.06 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 18 - Under My Skin - What is She Doing Here?
December 03, 2021 08:00 - 13 minutes - 9.55 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 17 - Under My Skin - Slamming the Door
November 30, 2021 08:00 - 12 minutes - 8.56 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep 16 - Under My Skin - Really Ian - REALLY?
November 26, 2021 08:00 - 13 minutes - 9.3 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 15 - Under My Skin - WTF IS HAPPENING
November 23, 2021 08:00 - 10 minutes - 7.63 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 14 - Under My Skin - NOT MY IAN
November 19, 2021 08:00 - 11 minutes - 8.32 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 13 - Under My Skin - It REALLY BEGINS NOW - Pt 2
November 16, 2021 08:00 - 11 minutes - 7.83 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
EP 11 - Under My Skin - IAN's ON HIS OWN
November 12, 2021 08:00 - 10 minutes - 7.25 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 12 - Under My Skin - It REALLY BEGINS NOW - Pt 1
November 09, 2021 08:00 - 10 minutes - 7.48 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep 10 - Under My Skin - IT'sTIME TO SAY GOODBYE
November 05, 2021 07:00 - 12 minutes - 8.5 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep 9 - Under My Skin - Now Begins CRAZY
November 02, 2021 07:00 - 12 minutes - 8.96 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep 8 - Under My Skin - Elvira
October 29, 2021 07:00 - 12 minutes - 8.89 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep 7 - Under My Skin - Whatever this is?
October 26, 2021 07:00 - 10 minutes - 7.18 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 5 - Under My Skin - It BACK
October 25, 2021 02:00 - 12 minutes - 8.79 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Er. 5 - Under My Skin - It BACK
October 25, 2021 02:00 - 12 minutes - 8.79 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 4 - Under My Skin - Coming Home
October 22, 2021 23:00 - 10 minutes - 7.29 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 6-Under My Skin - The Good-Bye
October 22, 2021 07:00 - 12 minutes - 8.53 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 5-Under My Skin - It BACK
October 19, 2021 07:00 - 12 minutes - 8.79 MBUnder my Skin is a dialog of a family going through the most unimaginable torture from a crazy mentally unstable woman and the so called love of a son dying from Melanoma cancer. Beginning with the discovery of the cancer, dropping out of school, working at a church camp in the hopes of finding God by helping others, Girlfriends who use and abuse him and ultimately dying a death with none of his family around. And the ultimate crazy mentally ill girlfriend and then leaves with what matters...
Ep. 4-Under My Skin - Coming Home
October 15, 2021 07:00 - 10 minutes - 7.29 MBEpisode 4 – Coming Home Moving forward from the financial ruins, the family buys a new home. Ian comes home for a long vacation from church camp. Ian spends time looking for a new direction in his life. Ian wants to be a police officer. He takes a test along with physical tryouts and is accepted in a police academy. The stories of his various interviews and the tryouts are entertaining. Ian is starting the academy and something comes back to haunt him. His cancer is back – again. ...
Ep. 3-Under My Skin - Camping Full Time
October 12, 2021 07:00 - 10 minutes - 7.45 MBEpisode 2 –Camping Full Time Church camp life is starting to agree with Ian. Turning 21, budding friendships with both male buddies and female – well buddies/with benefits?.!. He is now working at two different camps that are under the same religion and area council. He’s driving two and a half hours from one to the other, fixing septic tanks, working with farm animals and still being a counselor for the various visitors (young and old) at the camps. SNOW – yes plowing snow is a new exp...
Ep. 2-Under My Skin - It's Here
October 08, 2021 07:00 - 9 minutes - 6.94 MBIan ends up with a very bad case of Melanoma along with a surgery at UCLA Medical by a well-known surgical dermatologist. There were radioactive isotopes involved to trace the blood flow to see which lymph nodes needed to be removed and tested. He ended up with about a dozen lymph nodes removed from his arm pit. Ian starts work regularly at the church camp and succeeds in both his work and his mental growth with this horrible disease. Using this work at church camp as a place of reflect...
Ep. 1-Under My Skin - It Begins
October 05, 2021 07:00 - 12 minutes - 8.64 MBEpisode One - It Begins This is a series of the life of Ian Lucas and his struggles after he is diagnosed with Melanoma on his Arm. The first episode brings a summary of the life of Ian until his diagnoses and how life will change for Ian and our family. There is a caricature of Ian in the middle of the Podcast Logo. From baseball, paintball and being involved with the youth group at our church Ian was doing what a good youth does, enjoy growing up. Ian ends up starting to work with...