System Speak: Dissociative Identity Disorder ( Multiple Personality Disorder ), Complex Trauma , and Dissociation
536 episodes - English - Latest episode: 10 days ago - ★★★★★ - 174 ratingsDiagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder at age 36, Emma and her system share what they learn along the way about DID, dissociation, trauma, and mental health. Educational, supportive, inclusive, and inspiring, System Speak documents her healing journey through the best and worst of life in recovery through insights, conversations, and collaborations.
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Episodes
Guest: Katie Keech & Masking
April 15, 2024 09:00 - 1 hour - 60.4 MBWe talk with Katie Keech about lived experience, masking, and advocacy. Note: She misattributed the master’s house/tools quote to bell hooks. Audre Lorde wrote that one. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or ...
Recap: OG Episode 7
April 10, 2024 19:20 - 1 hour - 78 MBWe recap the original Episode 7 with Jules... it's about getting oriented to diagnosis, therapy, the past, and receiving care. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of wh...
ReCap: OG Episode 7
April 10, 2024 19:20 - 1 hour - 78 MBWe recap the original Episode 7 with Jules... it's about getting oriented to diagnosis, therapy, the past, and receiving care. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of wh...
Rainbow Guild
April 01, 2024 09:00 - 1 hour - 63.9 MBWe close out the conference with Jules. Link to video referenced with a content warning: The Weeping Camel. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared...
Barbie Girls in a Conference World
March 25, 2024 21:33 - 1 hour - 68.7 MBJules and I share about our adventures at the ISSTD conference. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are gen...
Dr. E's 2024 ISSTD Plenary Presentation
March 24, 2024 18:30 - 1 hour - 64.2 MBDr. E shares her rehearsal practice presentation of her plenary for speaking at the annual ISSTD conference. Previous CFAS talks: https://cfas.isst-d.org/content/diminish-deter-destroy-dissociate-passing-trauma https://cfas.isst-d.org/content/intergenerational-trauma-plurality-cultural-incompetence-0 It's not my job to educate you: https://medium.com/@classylore/on-terms-its-not-my-job-to-educate-you-1bace85ddd74 https://www.thecrimson.com/column/between-the-lines/article/2018...
Attachment Strategy: Approach
March 23, 2024 11:00 - 1 hour - 56 MBJules and I share about our adventures at the ISSTD conference. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are gen...
Attachment Strategy: Avoidant
March 22, 2024 11:00 - 1 hour - 66.4 MBJules and I share about a presentation we attended (given by Ana Gomez), specifically focusing on what we learned about avoidant attachment. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the...
In the Wild
March 21, 2024 08:48 - 55 minutes - 50.8 MBJules and I share about our adventures at the ISSTD conference. Recorded Wednesday night. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. ...
Swamp of Shame
March 20, 2024 11:00 - 1 hour - 74.1 MBWe discuss avoidance with Jules, and recap our hard winter, as we try to apply what we learned from it to care for ourselves as the ISSTD conference approaches. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociativ...
Pole Poll
March 18, 2024 11:00 - 54 minutes - 49.8 MBWe are painting. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger...
Guest(s): The Gianu System, Part 2
March 14, 2024 11:00 - 44 minutes - 41 MBWe talk with The Gianu System about their lived experience and presence on social media. You can find them online here: https://youtube.com/c/gianusystem https://www.instagram.com/gianusystem/ https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM87rXFFb/ www.jekraft.com You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: ...
Guest(s): The Gianu System, Part 1
March 11, 2024 11:00 - 39 minutes - 35.8 MBWe talk with The Gianu System about their lived experience and presence on social media. You can find them online here: https://youtube.com/c/gianusystem https://www.instagram.com/gianusystem/ https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM87rXFFb/ www.jekraft.com You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: ...
Brave Spaces
March 04, 2024 11:00 - 40 minutes - 37.3 MBWe piece together our outline of our winter, what we have learned since the retreat, and commit to talking in therapy. We give community updates, including new international forums. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be tra...
Guest: Tabs Talks About DID in the Workplace
February 26, 2024 12:00 - 1 hour - 78.4 MBTabs joins us in the community for a dress rehearsal of the presentation for Healing Together about professionalism and dissociation. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature...
Mapping
February 19, 2024 12:00 - 44 minutes - 40.4 MBJules and I talk about mapping our systems - and manage to attempt it. Apologies for the writing sounds on the table - the sound quality in these two episodes prompted us to get new microphones! Here were the reflection questions we looked at during (and since) the retreat, in case that is helpful, as well as the link where we got these specific questions: Questions from this website: What percentage of time does [alter] come out and occupy the host? Who is [alter] closest too?...
Pre-Mapping
February 13, 2024 12:00 - 1 hour - 56.5 MBJules and I talk about mapping our systems - and manage to avoid it. Apologies for the writing sounds on the table - the sound quality in these two episodes prompted us to get new microphones! You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assume...
Dingy and Mad
January 29, 2024 12:00 - 1 hour - 68.5 MBWe talk with Jules about the rupture at the end of the retreat, and repair since then. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Cont...
Cheesecake & Queso
January 22, 2024 12:00 - 44 minutes - 41.2 MBJules, Max, Mar-Lev, Debs, and Alex Meow reflect on our Advanced Topics Retreat weekend. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Co...
Alone-ness
January 01, 2024 12:00 - 48 minutes - 44.3 MBWe reflect on Thanksgiving about gathering, alone. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given ...
Parenting and Daydreaming
December 25, 2023 12:00 - 43 minutes - 39.7 MBWe vent about parenting. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific...
Co-Dependent No More (Part 2)
December 18, 2023 11:00 - 45 minutes - 41.6 MBWe talk with Nathan about co-dependency. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each ep...
Co-Dependent No More (Part 1)
December 11, 2023 11:00 - 44 minutes - 40.9 MBWe talk with Nathan about co-dependency. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each ep...
Busted
December 04, 2023 12:00 - 36 minutes - 33.5 MBJohnMark gets busted. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific tr...
War
November 13, 2023 12:00 - 51 minutes - 47.7 MBWe reflect on what happened to our colleagues. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in e...
Window Waving
November 06, 2023 12:00 - 38 minutes - 35.5 MBWe reflect on the transitions of the last year. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in ...
Inner Child(ren)
October 30, 2023 10:00 - 46 minutes - 42.7 MBWe discuss an “inner child” chapter from the book Leaving the Fold. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are...
Announcement(s)
October 05, 2023 10:00 - 26 minutes - 24.1 MBThree Anouncements: 1.) I am speaking on Saturday, October 21st at the ISSTD Virtual Conference, which clinicians can register for HERE. 2.) I am a plenary speaker for the ISSTD annual conference in March in Texas, which clinicians can register for HERE. 3.) Jules and I will be teaching together for ISSTD's professional training program, starting in January. Clinicians can register for that HERE. We also have a grand idea for lived experience peeps in the future, so be excit...
Guest: Judith Herman
October 02, 2023 10:00 - 50 minutes - 46.2 MBWe speak with Judith Herman, who wrote the history of trauma in the book Trauma and Recovery we have discussed so often. She is also credited with establishing the phased based treatment model, including adding safety and stabilization where prior to this it was primarily abreactive treatment approach. Write to the podcast HERE. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-...
This Just Happen.
September 27, 2023 10:00 - 33 minutes - 30.3 MBDelicious. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★
Popcorn
September 25, 2023 11:00 - 34 minutes - 31.6 MBJohnMark makes popcorn. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific ...
Fawning 4.0
September 25, 2023 10:00 - 44 minutes - 40.6 MBWe reflect with Jules about another podcast we listened to a specific episode about fawning. The link to the Spotify podcast we listened to and are responding to in this episode: WTF Do I Know? The documentary that podcast host is on HBO and it is called "The Vow" (non-religious philisophical cult and related court case). Link to the book by the guest author in that episode: Believing Me: Healing from Narcissistic Abuse and Complex Trauma Link to Pete Walker's book that the au...
Pivot
September 18, 2023 11:00 - 30 minutes - 28.4 MBWe reflect on therapy and re-engaging talking about DID and what our life is going to look like living here, without dissociating or daydreaming. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE. We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events. Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us! Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due t...
Fawning 3.0
September 18, 2023 10:00 - 49 minutes - 45.1 MBWe reflect with Jules about another podcast we listened to a specific episode about fawning. The link to the Spotify podcast we listened to and are responding to in this episode: WTF Do I Know? The documentary that podcast host is on HBO and it is called "The Vow" (non-religious philisophical cult and related court case). Link to the book by the guest author in that episode: Believing Me: Healing from Narcissistic Abuse and Complex Trauma Link to Pete Walker's book that the au...
Fawning 2.0
September 11, 2023 10:00 - 48 minutes - 44.9 MBWe reflect with Jules about another podcast we listened to a specific episode about fawning. The link to the Spotify podcast we listened to and are responding to in this episode: WTF Do I Know? The documentary that podcast host is on HBO and it is called "The Vow" (non-religious philisophical cult and related court case). Link to the book by the guest author in that episode: Believing Me: Healing from Narcissistic Abuse and Complex Trauma Link to Pete Walker's book that the au...
Guest: Rick Hohfeler, PhD
September 04, 2023 10:00 - 1 hour - 58.1 MBWe talk with Rick Hohfeler, PhD, who shares about shame. Write to the podcast HERE. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber. If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma an...
Broke My Ankle. Twice.
August 31, 2023 10:00 - 24 minutes - 22.3 MBBroke it good. Write to the podcast HERE. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber. If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to sup...
Shirts
August 28, 2023 10:00 - 29 minutes - 27.4 MBWe share a therapy update. Write to the podcast HERE. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber. If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also d...
Family Fold
August 24, 2023 10:00 - 1 hour - 88.4 MBWe talk with the children about the “Leaving the Fold” book, and have a conversation about healthy family dynamics. CLICK HERE for our page of support resources for religious trauma. Write to the podcast HERE. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber. If you would like to support our efforts at sharin...
Shiny Happy Me
August 21, 2023 10:00 - 1 hour - 85.9 MBWe talked about the “Shiny Happy People” documentary about the religious trauma we grew up in and in which our college experiences happened. CLICK HERE for our page of support resources for religious trauma. Write to the podcast HERE. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber. If you would like to supp...
Landing Safe
August 14, 2023 10:00 - 39 minutes - 36.2 MBWe share about meeting our new therapist, finally, and how we know we can stay with her. Write to the podcast HERE. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber. If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the communi...
Guest: Katherine Wood
August 07, 2023 10:00 - 56 minutes - 51.7 MBWe talk with Katie Wood, who presented at Healing Together about medical abuse. Write to the podcast HERE. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber. If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and th...
Religious Trauma Manipulations
July 31, 2023 10:00 - 1 hour - 57.1 MBWe go through more of the book “Leaving the Fold” about religious trauma. At the ten minute mark, in my example of leaving the family, I am talking about my family of origin when I was barely an adult. CLICK HERE for our page of support resources for religious trauma. Write to the podcast HERE. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podca...
Sunday
July 24, 2023 10:00 - 50 minutes - 46.4 MBWe share updates about our new job, our new home, and letting go of the house in Oklahoma. Write to the podcast HERE. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber. If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the commu...
The Fold (Rescue)
July 14, 2023 17:58 - 34 minutes - 31.7 MBWe continue reading “Leaving the Fold” about religious trauma Link to Lev's podcast, where we were a guest to talk about our spiritual journey as an adult (available only on spotify): Click HERE or copy and paste: https://open.spotify.com/episode/0k2s08TvY9VzVIokCIYWoi?si=9Pb9tVq5RxCbeuZueszEmw CLICK HERE for our page of support resources for religious trauma. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcas...
Guest: Shelly Itzkowitz
July 03, 2023 10:00 - 1 hour - 60.6 MBWe talk with Shelly Itzkowitz. Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse. Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience. Natural...
Back to the Beginning
June 19, 2023 10:00 - 34 minutes - 32 MBWe start over, again. Almost. Trying a coach to support therapy topics does not work when we panic about starting with someone new. We ask hard questions about this being part of a re-enactment. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber. If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story an...
Recap of the Recap (Part 2)
June 15, 2023 10:00 - 49 minutes - 45 MBWe walk through the notes of the recap of the Janina Fisher webinar. Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse. Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and duri...
Recap of the Recap (Part 1)
June 12, 2023 10:00 - 48 minutes - 44.5 MBWe walk through the notes of the recap of the Janina Fisher webinar. Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse. Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and duri...
Guest: D. Michael Coy
June 05, 2023 10:00 - 1 hour - 61.3 MBWe talk with D. Michael Coy. He shares about somatic dissociation, medical trauma, and his own lived experience. We discuss identity development and movements. We explore intersectionality. We talk about dissociation informed EMDR and the MID. Links provided in the podcast intro: The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber. If you would l...