QT with LOVELLE E106 :: Abyss

Traci Lords was a porn star, then actress in John Waters' Cry Baby and on Roseanne and somewhere in between she had an album. The first song in this dismal set is her song called Father's Field. It's very curious and I've heard it interpreted as two possible scenarios. One is the description of an alien abduction, the other is a sort of violent attack. I believe the ladder is correct and if you listen closely to the words, it is very disturbing in its description. Sometimes people express a lot through music and I can only guess she wrote and recorded this as a cathartic release from a painful childhood memory.
Warning: this track may bring up emotions and painful memories for some. If you have a reaction to violence or would not want to hear this story, please skip to the 9 minute mark.

The motivation for this mix was a direct response to a scene in a movie where a young Marine is essentially drown by his commanding officer during boot camp. The movie is called The Inspection (2022). "In Elegance Bratton's deeply moving film inspired by his own story, a young, gay Black man, rejected by his mother and with few options for his future, decides to join the Marines, doing whatever it takes to succeed in a system that would cast him aside." I actually paused the movie at this scene, went to my desk and spent the next 2 hours making this mix, then continued the movie. It has a happy ending. 

Ambient music & sound is something I enjoy and in creating mixes often find hidden emotions, thoughts and feelings within myself. Perhaps this is my own cathartic release in a way, or just some grounding of my mind in an otherwise hectic space. 

Headphones are the best way to listen.