Personal Record
48 episodes - English - Latest episode: almost 4 years ago - ★★★★★ - 45 ratings'Why do you run?' Runners are asked this question a thousand times. They are asked by friends, family, strangers, but mostly they ask themselves. Personal Record is a podcast for everyday runners like you looking for the most elusive answer to the most obvious question...Why?
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Ash Gilbertson: The City is Yours
July 05, 2020 15:03 - 52 minutes - 120 MBAshley Gilbertson is an Australian photographer and writer living in New York City widely recognized for his critical eye and unique approaches to social issues. Gilbertson is a member of the VII Photo Agency, a frequent contributor to The New York Times and a collaborator with the United Nations. Early on, Gilbertson’s work focused on refugees, an interest that in 2002, led him to Iraq. Gilbertson’s first book, Whiskey Tango Foxtrot, released in 2007 to critical acclaim, went on to become...
The Legacy of FDNY Deputy Chief Michael Fahy
May 18, 2020 13:10 - 28 minutes - 45.1 MBOn September 27th, 2016 Deputy Chief Michael Fahy of the NYC Fire Department tragically lost his life in the line of duty. Since then the FDNY has held an annual memorial run to honor Chief Fahy and to raise money for the FDNY Foundation. This year’s event will be held virtually and all proceeds will go toward FDNY families most effected by the Covid-19 pandemic. Today we speak with Race Director of the #4forFahy, Firefighter Shane Clarke, and President of the FDNY Run Club, Captain De...
Mitchel Silver: Coronavirus and use of NYC Parks
April 03, 2020 23:08 - 29 minutes - 43.3 MBCoronavirus has NYC on lockdown. We sat down with NYC Parks Department Commissioner Mitchell Silver to discuss the ways in which residents can and cannot use the parks. We also discuss Mr. Silver’s love of running and the ways in which the pandemic could affect the NYC Marathon later this year. Special Thanks to Allison Goldstein.
Dreams Do Come True, with Allison Goldstein
February 28, 2020 18:22 - 36 minutes - 52.8 MBWhen we first spoke with Allison two years ago she was filled with doubt, but willing to state flatly, “I want to qualify for the Olympic Trials”. Now, on the eve of the Olympic Trials Marathon, Allison reflects on the long and windy road as she readies herself for the race of her life.
Can CrossFit Help Your Running: Coach Rob Moloney
February 24, 2020 03:59 - 51 minutes - 71.6 MBIn what ways can CrossFit help your running? In what ways can running help your CrossFit? In our inaugural episode of 2020 we speak with owner and head programmer of Crossfit Island Park, Rob Moloney. He gives us his unique perspective on the physiology behind high intensity interval training and how it can benefit you.
Lucie Beatrix: Throwing Down the Gauntlet
September 23, 2019 16:31 - 51 minutes - 47.8 MBLucie Beatrix is a fashion model, podcast host and gauntlet thrower. After appearing on the cover of Elle magazine, Lucie decided to seek new challenges—ultimately redefining her understanding of beauty, performance and success. Her latest challenge? Training to run an Olympic Trials qualifying time in her first-ever marathon.
The Science of Triathlon with Greg Close
August 07, 2019 13:39 - 51 minutes - 52.5 MBGreg Close is a professional triathlete, triathlon coach and the founder of TriBy3 Performance Coaching. His years of experience in the sport has made him one of the most knowledgable athletes in NYC. Greg practices what he preaches and gives us an idea on how biofeedback markers can help you improve your performances. Special thanks to Allison Goldstein Become a Podcast Patron Check out Personal Record on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook and our website. Email us with any questions, comm...
Eric Gelber: 200 Miles
July 16, 2019 00:58 - 40 minutes - 43.1 MBAfter helplessly watching his friend, Anita, pass away from Multiple Myeloma (a form of blood cancer), Eric Gelber decided to do something about it. He has raised more than $1.3 million for the Multiple Myeloma Research Foundation by running numerous ultra-marathons around the country. In 2016 Eric completed his most epic adventure by running 200 miles around NYC’s Central Park. Eric and I discuss his relationship with the MMRF, the “200 Mile” documentary, and how he finds the strength to ke...
The Midnight Half With Joe DiNoto and David Trimble
June 26, 2019 15:32 - 49 minutes - 52.2 MBJoe DiNoto and David Trimble are the race directors, hosts, and one might even say choreographers of the Midnight Half. This alleycat-style unsanctioned event on the streets of NYC is the talk of the running world. We speak with Joe and Dave about the race’s execution, its relationship to the Red Hook Crit, and how these two are at the forefront of a new sport: Urban Running. Cover Photo by Graham Macindoe Special thanks to Allison Goldstein Become a Podcast Patron Check out Personal...
Tim Snow: The Bill Murray of Triathlon
June 11, 2019 18:39 - 55 minutes - 57.1 MBTim Snow, like Bill Murray, is beloved by pretty much everyone. And, like Bill Murray, he is truly a master of his craft. Tim has spent the last 20+ years in the sport of triathlon perfecting what it means to be a coach. He raced professionally for 13 years at a time when not much was known about the Ironman. After a decade of trial, error and engineering he and QT2 Systems founder, Jesse Kropelnicki, put together the most comprehensive coaching protocol in the sport. Listen, laugh and LEARN...
Distance Project NYC
May 14, 2019 02:29 - 39 minutes - 38.2 MBIt's only been a few months, but already Distance Project NYC is making waves in the NYC running world. This all-female runner's "collective" is made up of some of the best runners this side of the Hudson River. We are joined by founders Caitlin Phillips, Allison Goldstein, Angela Ortiz, Aisha Qamar and Colleen McGurk to talk about what makes this team so special. Become a Podcast Patron Check out Personal Record on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook and our website. Email us with any ques...
Jonathan Blyer
April 16, 2019 15:59 - 43 minutes - 44.7 MBIf you've ever ridden a bike, thought about riding a bike or are planning to ride a bike then check out this episode. Jonathan Blyer, a long time triathlete and cyclist, owns and operates ACME Bicycle Co. Jonathan is a professional engineer and one of only about 20 Retul Certified Master Bike Fitters in the country. Before you purchase your next bike this season listen to what JB has to say. Become a Podcast Patron Check out Jonathan on Instagram Contact Acme on Instagram or their we...
Colleen Kelly Alexander
March 17, 2019 23:10 - 43 minutes - 41.1 MBBecome a Podcast Patron COLLEEN KELLY ALEXANDER is a lifelong athlete and motivational speaker who inspires positive change, contribution, determination and actionable gratitude. With her indomitable spirit and incredible story of survival, Colleen teaches others how to aim higher, be stronger and use adversity as a catalyst to make the world a better, brighter place. Check out Colleen on Instagram Save a life by giving blood and learning CPR Check out Personal Record on Twitter, Ins...
John Honerkamp
March 04, 2019 13:36 - 57 minutes - 53.1 MBBecome a Podcast Patron Runner safety awareness week came and went this past January, but the dangers are still all too real. We sit with Coach John Honerkamp to discuss some of the ways you can keep yourself safe on your next run. Check out John on Instagram. Register for Run Kamp Ireland Check out Personal Record on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook and our website. Email us with any questions, comments or concerns. Support the show with your very own Custom Personal Record T-shirt.
Angela Naeth
February 25, 2019 11:00 - 42 minutes - 39.4 MBSupport the show and get premium content by subscribing on Patreon. When we last spoke with Professional Triathlete, Angela Naeth, she had just been diagnosed with Lyme Disease. It was uncertain what, if any, results she was going to have in 2018. But despite tremendous setbacks and a body that just wouldn't cooperate Angela fought and ended her season with some of the best finishes of her career...including 8th place at the Hawaii Ironman World Championship! Angela shows us what it mean...
The Best of the Personal Record Podcast 2018
December 30, 2018 04:51 - 14 minutes - 17.9 MBWe here at the show would like to thank all of our amazing guests and listeners, without whom, none of this would be possible. Here is a quick look at some of what made 2018 an amazing year. Enjoy. Check out Personal Record on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook and our website. Email us with any questions, comments or concerns. Support the show with your very own Custom Personal Record T-shirt.
James Lawrence: 50 Ironmans in 50 States in 50 Days
December 12, 2018 13:59 - 41 minutes - 42.8 MBJames Lawrence, The Iron Cowboy, decided to redefine “impossible” in 2015 when he took on one of the most challenging endeavors in the history of sport. He completed 50 Ironmans in 50 states in 50 days. James and I talk about how his historic journey brought him to places, both literally and figuratively, he never thought possible. Check out James on Instagram. Read his Book Redefine Impossible Check out Personal Record on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook and our website. Email us with ...
Personal Recordings: "Such as we are made of" By Sarah Crouch
November 19, 2018 10:00 - 6 minutes - 12.2 MBSupport the show with your very own Custom Personal Record T-shirt. Sarah Crouch is professional runner and a prolific writer. In this essay “Such as we are made of”, Sarah delves deep into the struggles she has dealt with, both physically and mentally, in being a professional runner. Sometimes you see your personal bests just slip away and sometimes they won’t come back for quite a while. Sarah was in that position earlier this year where she hadn’t run a personal record in a very long ...
The Godfather of NYC Unsanctioned Racing: Joe DiNoto
November 07, 2018 23:14 - 55 minutes - 57.4 MBJoe DiNoto is the pioneer behind the latest craze in NYC running: unsanctioned racing. These dangerous events through the streets of New York capture the imagination of runners around the world as some of NYC’s most elite athletes bob and weave through traffic hoping to be the first across the finish line. Joe, the founder of Orchard Street Runners, explains why racing in general and unsanctioned racing in particular taps into one of the most fundamental aspects of being human. Check ou...
TCS NYC Marathon: Everything you need to know with Coach Justin Wood
October 16, 2018 16:22 - 45 minutes - 47.7 MBJustin Wood and I have run the TCS NYC Marathon a combined 9 times. In this special episode, we break the race down into its most fundamental components. We discuss race-day logistics as well as execution. We answer common questions regarding the mysteries behind tapering and the infamous carbo-load. Whether you're running this race for the 1st time or the 100th, you’ll come away from this episode with a plan to get from your bed to the finish line on November 4th. Justin Wood is an RR...
Glenn Hartrick: The Overly Motivated Triathlete
September 25, 2018 21:43 - 37 minutes - 40.1 MBGlenn Hartrick was on top of the world. He had completed multiple marathons and triathlons, including a sub 10 hour finish at the NYC Ironman. His physique was so exceptional that he was featured on the cover of the Runner's World Body Issue in December 2012. But in June of 2014, just weeks after completing Ironman Texas, Glenn was struck by a car while on a training ride. He was paralyzed from the chest down. With new definitions of pain, struggle and determination Glenn battled back a...
Tina Muir on Being Brave, Being Strong and Being You
September 04, 2018 00:27 - 42 minutes - 44.2 MBTina Muir is a Professional Runner and Olympic hopeful from the United Kingdom. After years competing at the highest level, she made the difficult decision to hang up her shoes and start a family. Tina and I speak candidly about her reasons for leaving the world of competitive running and how the sport affected her health. When she’s not on mom duty (and sometimes while she is), Tina continues to inspire thousands with her podcast, Running for Real, as she honestly and openly discusses re...
Personal Recordings: "I Fired My Coach" by Allison Goldstein
August 27, 2018 20:01 - 6 minutes - 11.2 MBHave you ever fired your coach? Did it feel like breaking up? Allison Goldstein delivers another poetic tale of her struggles with firing her old coach and her optimism with hiring her new one. Whether you are a coached athlete or not Allison brings an interesting perspective on what can become a surprisingly intimate relationship. Listen to Allison's full interview on the Personal Record Podcast. http://jerseycitywriters.org/the-step/ http://www.allisonlgoldstein.com/ Foll...
24 Marathons in 24 Days with Shane Finn
August 21, 2018 15:21 - 43 minutes - 45.2 MBHave you ever wondered what it's like to run 24 marathons in 24 days? Well Shane Finn can tell you all about it. This Irish native embarked upon an endurance journey of epic proportions in the summer of 2017 and raised €142,000 ($165,000) for Spina Bifida & Hydrocephalus Ireland. While that might be enough for most people Shane plans to raise the bar even higher in 2019 by running and biking across America to continue his crusade for SBHI. Find out why Shane always needs to do more and h...
Amy Freeze: NYC's Favorite Meteorologist
August 06, 2018 15:54 - 45 minutes - 47.2 MBAmy Freeze can be seen most mornings on NYC's WABC Eyewitness News Team reporting on the weather. But when she's not scanning Doppler images she can most often be seen running in Central Park. This Indiana native picked up endurance sports at an early age and credits much of her success with the lessons learned from running. Besides being a multi-time marathoner and triathlete she uses her time and influence to help raise money and awareness for charity organizations such as the Challenge...
Personal Recordings: Death Be Not Proud by Sarah Crouch
July 30, 2018 02:19 - 8 minutes - 7.43 MBSarah Crouch discusses the philosophy of strategy in "Death Be Not Proud". After a conservative effort at a 5 mile race, Sarah is forced to reflect on her tactics and what it says about her and her running career. Sarah is a professional runner, 361 USA sponsored athlete and a contributor to the Personal Record Podcast. Visit Sarah on her website. Check out Sarah on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram. Check out Personal Record on Twitter, Instagram Facebook and our website. Email...
Find out how strength work will make you faster with Jason Fitzgerald
July 23, 2018 22:16 - 51 minutes - 47.4 MBHas your running performance plateaued despite logging countless miles? Every wonder why you keep getting injured? Well maybe Jason Fitzgerald can help. Jason is a USATF-certified coach, Founder and Head Coach of Strength Running and author of Running for Health & Happiness. As a blogger, podcast host, and independent coach, Jason has advised hundreds of thousands of runners and has helped tens of thousands more accomplish their goals with results-oriented coaching programs. On this e...
Eating Disorders in Sports with Rachael Steil
July 09, 2018 15:04 - 44 minutes - 43.6 MBRachael Steil is the author of Running in Silence: My Drive for Perfection and the Eating Disorder That Fed It. In the book she details her struggles with eating disorders throughout her high school and college track career and the ways in which the diseases affected her performance, her relationships and her health. Rachael has since dedicated her life to helping women and men who struggle with similar disorders, including offering advice to coaches and family members of these athletes. T...
Personal Recordings: Talent or Hard work? By Allison Goldstein
July 03, 2018 14:26 - 5 minutes - 5.98 MBAllison Goldstein is a NYC local elite runner and freelance writer and editor. She contributes regularly to Women's Running, Runner's World and to the Personal Record Podcast. Listen to Allison's full interview on the Personal Record Podcast. Runner's World Can This 'Fourth Macronutrient' Help You Run Faster? Women's Running Articles The 10 Commandments Of Running On The Track What If Your Ghosts Of Marathons Past Wrote You A Letter? One Runner Says You Can’t Have It All...
Jeff Gaudette: Founder and head coach of Runner's Connect
June 25, 2018 19:02 - 45 minutes - 44.6 MBJeff Gaudette has been running for 13 years, at all levels of the sport. He was a two time Division-I All-American in Cross Country while at Brown University and competed professionally for 4 years after college. Jeff has competed all over the world, in numerous marathons, and recorded Olympic Trials qualifying times in the marathon and 10,000 meters. Jeff and I have a fascinating conversation about Runner's Connect and their unique ability to coach athletes of all abilities. We discuss p...
Personal Recordings: Digging to China by Sarah Crouch
June 19, 2018 20:47 - 6 minutes - 7.39 MBSarah Crouch is a professional runner, 361 USA sponsored athlete and a contributor to the Personal Record Podcast. Digging to China brilliantly captures one of her more hellish experiences in racing. She explores pain and what it takes to get to the finish line. Visit Sarah on her website. Check out Sarah on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram. Check out Personal Record on Twitter, Instagram Facebook and our website. Email us with any questions, comments or concerns.
Sarah Crouch: Professional Runner and 13X NCAA All American
June 11, 2018 02:02 - 49 minutes - 46.4 MBSarah Crouch is a Professional Runner, 13 X NCAA All American, and a 2:32 marathoner with too many other running achievements to name. In this fantastic conversation, Sarah and I tackle everything from doping and PEDs to eating disorders in sports. Sarah is also a prolific writer and will be a regular fixture on the Personal Record Podcast with a new segment we are calling "Personal Recordings.” Athlete-writers will be periodically featured reading essays and articles they've written on s...
From the Bar to the Bike: Trading one Addiction for Another
May 29, 2018 15:02 - 46 minutes - 44.8 MBWhy does triathlon attract people with addictive personalities? Joe Dussich is a family man, businessman, Ironman and a recovering alcoholic. In this episode he discusses his battle with alcoholism and how a bike helped change his life. Check out Personal Record on Twitter, Instagram Facebook and our website. Email us with any questions, comments or concerns. Also check out Trimara Sports races at a NYC park near you to set your next personal record. Whether you run a 10k or a half ...
Angela Naeth: North American Ironman Champion
May 17, 2018 21:14 - 50 minutes - 45.8 MBHave you ever dealt with long term injury or illness? Angela Naeth is the 2015 North American Ironman Champion. Along with two sub-9 hour Ironman performances she founded the "I Race Like a Girl" Triathlon Team. In 2016 she suffered a broken foot requiring surgery and months of rehabilitation. She battled back in 2017 only to be diagnosed with Lyme disease; a misunderstood and often misdiagnosed bacterial infection. Learn how Angela stays positive by using sport psychology and shamanism ...
Nicole Falcaro: NYC's Newest Pro Triathlete
May 14, 2018 16:29 - 41 minutes - 38.4 MBNicole Falcaro is NYC's newest professional triathlete. With a background in running she found herself looking for something more and discovered triathlon. She rose through the amateur ranks winning almost every race in which she competed before deciding to take the next step. Her love of endurance sports and her obsessive need to work as hard as she can served her well at the Wildflower 70.3 Triathlon where she recently took 7th place. Find out what makes Nicole tick and why she needs t...
Scott Douglas: NY Times Best Selling Author on Running
April 29, 2018 17:19 - 54 minutes - 52.5 MBScott Douglas, NY Times best-selling author, joins us to speak about his latest book, Running is My Therapy, which shows how running can make us HAPPIER. Scott speaks candidly about his own battles with depression and how running has helped make him whole. Listen as Scott shares his hard-earned wisdom after 40 years and over 110,000 miles of running. Scott's Amazon Author Page: Purchase your copy of Running is my Therapy as well as any of Scott's other books. Scott's Website Fo...
Geoff Smith: 2X Boston Marathon Champion
April 16, 2018 10:00 - 54 minutes - 51 MBGeoff Smith, the 2X Boston Marathon Champion and former Liverpool Fire Fighter joins Personal Record. We talk about the Boston Marathon, his podium finish at the NYC Marathon and his Olympic Marathon heartbreak. If there was a college course on running Geoff Smith would be the professor. Listen as Geoff dispenses his hard earned wisdom and find out why running makes him happy. Check out Geoff on Instagram and Facebook. Register for Geoff's Races Fort Taber 5k Narragansett Bay Half ...
Jenna Tanenbaum: President and Co-Founder of Green Blender
April 08, 2018 22:26 - 46 minutes - 45 MBFind out more about Green Blender on their website or you can like them on Facebook and follow them on Twitter and Instagram. Use Promo Code PERSONALRECORD and get $20 off of your first box of Green Blender. Check out Jenna on Twitter, Instagram and Facebook. Check out Personal Record on Twitter, Instagram Facebook and our website. Email us with any questions, comments or concerns. Also check out Trimara Sports races at a NYC park near you to set your next personal record. Whether ...
Kirsty Jahn: Pro Triathlete and Half Ironman Champion
March 29, 2018 10:00 - 55 minutes - 51.2 MBIf you like funny Canadian accents then you will love this podcast. Kirsty Jahn is a Professional Triathlete and Ironman 70.3 Champion. This former NYC resident talks about growing up in British Columbia and the challenges of training in NYC. Kirsty talks about the good times and the bad over her triathlon career and reminds us there are no secrets to becoming a champion. All it took was 24 years of training. Follow Kirsty on Twitter, Instagram and Facebook. Follow Foxy Zoey on Insta...
Matt Long: NYC Fire Fighter and Crash Survivor
March 18, 2018 11:00 - 51 minutes - 46.9 MBAre you looking for inspiration? Matt Long has a story you need to hear. This Brooklyn native and NYC Fire Fighter overcame all odds to complete the NYC Marathon and Lake Placid Ironman after recovering from a horrific bus accident. Matt's doctors gave him a 1% chance of living, but he battled back in one of the most amazing tales of strength and resilience. "The Long Run" By Matt Long & Charles Butler Check out Matt on Facebook, Instagram and Twitter. Train with Matt at Orangetheo...
Santino Panico: Creator, Filmmaker, Marathoner
March 05, 2018 11:00 - 56 minutes - 53.2 MBHave you ever watched a documentary and thought, "I could do that better"? Well Santino Panico didn't just say it. He did it! This runner and first-time filmmaker decided he wanted to share his experience as a plant-based eater training for the NYC Marathon in his film From the Ground Up. In it, he speaks with elite athletes including Scott Jurek and Rich Roll about why they became plant-based eaters and how it affects their performance. Santino and I discuss nutrition, motivation and w...
Caitlin Phillips: Olympic Trials and Beyond
February 19, 2018 05:00 - 45 minutes - 42 MBCaitlin Phillips is a working professional, a runner and an Olympic Trials Qualifier. Even though some weeks she spends 80 hours at the office she still manages to put in the training. Caitlin ran a 2:38 at the Berlin Marathon finishing top overall American. Find out how this Brooklyn resident makes it all work in this fascinating conversation about training, life and why we do what we do. This episode is brought to you by Health IQ. Health IQ uses science & data to secure lower rat...
Liam McCabe: Future President of the United States
February 06, 2018 16:15 - 46 minutes - 44.9 MBLiam McCabe is a runner, race director and NYC politician. This former City Council candidate and congressional staffer joins us to discuss the Willie McCabe Memorial run to benefit homeless veterans, why working class neighborhoods produce excellent endurance athletes and how he thwarted the Secret Service in order to meet President Clinton. Listen and learn as Liam tells us how running shaped who he is and how he sees the world. Willie McCabe Memorial Run Liam McCabe Facebook This e...
Michael Clarke: My brother.
January 22, 2018 10:30 - 33 minutes - 30.4 MBCheck out Personal Record on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook and our webpage. Email us with any questions, comments or concerns. Also check out Trimara Sports races at a NYC park near you to set your next personal record. February: The Go Hard or Go Home Half Marathon June: The Tavern Cup 10k September: The Prospect Park 10k October: The Bay Ridge Half Marathon December: The Holiday Half Marathon And special thank you to Shawn Manigly from Hotel 137 Entertainment, Miriam Weiskind...
Kevin Duffy: Plant Based Super Hero?
January 07, 2018 16:43 - 51 minutes - 47 MBVisit Kevin on Instagram (@Fire_and_Ironman) and learn more about how a vegan plant based diet could benefit you. Check out Personal Record on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook and our webpage. Email us with any questions, comments or concerns. Also check out Trimara Sports races at a NYC park near you to set your next personal record. And special thank you to Shawn Manigly from Hotel 137 Entertainment, Miriam Weiskind at MdoubleU for her logos and art work and Renee Mudd Web Design for a...
Allison Goldstein
December 26, 2017 18:09 - 37 minutes - 36 MBCheck out more of Allison on her Blog. Women's Running Articles The 10 Commandments Of Running On The Track What If Your Ghosts Of Marathons Past Wrote You A Letter? One Runner Says You Can’t Have It All—Here’s Why We Know We Have To Taper—But Why Exactly? Why Racing Before Your Race Is The Best Mental Training Other Works http://jerseycitywriters.org/the-step/ http://www.allisonlgoldstein.com/ Check us out on Twitter, Instagram and Facebook and our webpage. Email...
Joe Redmond
December 10, 2017 15:55 - 32 minutes - 30 MBIn this episode of Personal Record we speak with Joe Redmond, a NYC Police Officer, about running, triathlon, fatherhood and what it is that keeps him going. Joe brings great insight into why runners run and offers some amazing advice to those just getting started. See how Joe overcomes those "miles of trials and trials of miles" while still maintaining balance in both his career and family life. If you like what you hear then check out Personal Record on Instagram, Twitter and Facebook...
Personal Record
November 21, 2017 00:06 - 1 minute - 1.06 MB'Why do you run?' Runners are asked this question a thousand times. They are asked by friends, family, strangers, but mostly they ask themselves. Personal Record is a podcast by everyday runners like you looking for the most elusive answer to the most obvious question...'Why?'