Chapter 17... Lifegasm Book I: Marshall's Promise

*The Sex Club* EXCERPT: In theory, I was familiar with the concept of a spank bank, but I had never consciously cultivated my own inner reel of sexually-charged moments. This was probably because I’d been so ashamed to have sexual thoughts in the first place, especially if the sexual thoughts involved fucked-up cult sex, like in Martha Marcy May Marlene. But how unhealthy was that? I was a thirty-six-year-old human adult and I was ashamed of having sexual thoughts? What the fuck, right? Are human adults not supposed to have sexual thoughts? Or are they supposed to be only vanilla, traditional sexual thoughts? Or are we supposed to have sexual thoughts but just never admit to or act on them?