Java and Jenuflections

Parentification and other Gen X experiences

This episode covers a lot of ground. Stop expecting teenagers and young adults to carry the burden of childhood trauma alone, and the lifetime it can take to recover from childhood trauma

Epiphany at noon

In this episode I share my recent, sudden, epiphany, that really isn't as recent or sudden as I initially thought. Moving into a new change and trying to navigate the guilt of PTSD and how it impacts my day to day

Found object gardening episode 4

Gardening on a budget? Limited space? This episode is about using what is on hand, what to save, and where to look for garden bargains. I also discuss vertical gardening. https://www.facebook.com/BillsLockerOnLenoxAvenue/posts/pfbid024J4K6N4c66MBceHcWJuCxYP1JJ3hasapX3NwBAUoC9LthRqE8pG1eGD5W4p7gMgcl

Winter bed prep episode 5

It's cold and windy, but you can still start prepping beds for spring.

Garden Goals episode 2 of gardening

What do you want from your 2024 garden? Salsa, sauce, pickles? Whatever your needs, you need to plan now. www.gurneys.com www.soil-dynamics.com

Garden fails 2023 episode 1 of gardening

What worked and what didn't in my 2023 garden and what I would do differently www.gurneys.com www.soil-dynamics.com @bubbes_victory_gardens on IG

Garden plant math and seed starting basics episode 3 of gardening

How many plants do you need to reach your garden goals? Supplies needed to start seeds indoors www.gurneys.com www.soil-dynamics.com www.gettreesfast.com for giant sunflowers

2022-2023 Wrapped

Where have I been for over a year? Tune in and find out.

I"m Back!

Trigger warning! Brief segment about my dog having a seizure and dying. Otherwise it's an episode about how I am failing at gardening

Let the garden sleep

I know that the weather is unusually fantastic, but now is not the time to get to work on those garden beds.

Remembering Scott Boles

The recent passing of Scott Boles has sent me down a rabbit hole of reflection and reminiscence. Please listen to my story of how working for Scott Boles shaped who I am today. There a couple bad words in this episode 

Garden planning

What are your gardening goals for this upcoming season? What do you need to acquire or buy for the upcoming season? Start now to find some good deals, some freebies and to get the seeds you really want. 

Fibro and illness

As I continue to recover from a serious illness I am also dealing with managing a fibro flare as well. 

Daycare

How a red light helped me process years of trauma

Breathe easy

A recent health scare demonstrates the need to be sure your medical records are accurate and following you to your new providers. Also includes info on lung cancer screenings

Green lights

Late musings of an insomniac who loves the book Greenlights. Find out what it has taught me

Handle with Care

Impossible tasks, constant fight or flight mode. Another glimpse into the life and mind of a person with an anxiety disorder. What helps, what doesn't and how we think differently than you

Have we met before?

I share 3 stories of reincarnation in my family.

Let's grow Up

Gardening is one of the first things people give up when they develop chronic illness or disabilities. I did. But then I found ways that I can garden, grow what I want, and use less space and not exacerbate my health issues. Gardening should be mostly fun!  @bubbes_victory_gardens https://www.instagram.com/p/CDp8leNAiIp/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

Will that be smoking or non?

A visit from the great beyond lead to me being a successful quitter. In this episode I talk about my experience as a smoker who doesn't, and explain what I think non smoking campaigns get wrong. I am now a life long smoker who doesn't smoke.

Ableism at the Self Check

Self checks are ableist, as are daytime only store hours! Take a listen 

PTSD and sleep

PTSD seriously affects sleep, and that affects your whole family. 

Bucket gardening

Now is the time to plan your gardens, regardless of the method you plan on using. It can take time to acquire the necessary tools, seeds or seedlings. Being disabled should not prevent you from having your own urban farm!

Java and Jenuflections (Trailer)

My experiences with the KKK

In my life I have had 2 experiences with the Klan. I will share the worst one, the event that gave me nightmares, in this episode

Jew Hate

many don't know what term anti semitism means, so we are going with Jew hate. This is about our experiences with hate. 

Laverne has to go

An update on new health issues

Gray rocking

I discuss gray rocking. What it is, how to do it, and when to avoid it.  If you are in an abusive relationship please contact the National Domestic Abuse hotline at 1800 799 SAFE Remember that internet usage can be monitored and is impossible to erase completely. I fyou are concerned your internet use is being monitored please call the number. Otherwise visit www.thehotline.org. There is a safety button on the page that will close out the page.  Delete your browsing history frequently. 

Beyond Love Bombing; what's next in a relationship with a narcissist

The first part is called love bombing because that's what potential abusers and narcissist do. I discuss more red flags, safety concerns and things to consider. I do use some curse words in this episode

Love Bombing, a look at abusive relationships

What does a narcissistic relationship look like in the beginning? What are some red flags to avoid a an abusive, pre abusive relationship?

How to make a holiday meal without causing a flare

Let's start with some tips and tricks from a disabled chic! I got a new tool to make life easier. Then I will discuss how I managed to cook Thanksgiving without having a massive or even minor flare.

How Do You know you're sick when you're chronically sick

I have been ill lately, but is it a new issue or more of the same? 

Sadness

Waves of sadness wash over me for no reason and this is what I am going to try next to feel better

The dangers of not being "enough"

There can be dire consequences when others are allowed to determine what enough means. This episode does contain references to repeated sexual assaults and threats of rape.

Being Enough part 2

I continue to explore the concept of what it means to be "enough" and why others shouldn't define it for us

The time change

Intrusive thoughts and the winter seem to go hand in hand for me. 

The grief of illness

Chronic illness and grief

I am enough

Are you Jewish enough? Are you sure? 

Are you sleepy?

Somniphobia is the fear of sleep, and it's not as far out as you think. Apparently it is fairly common amongst those of us who have anxiety in general. What is it and what can we do to fix it?

Black Market Candy Karen

What will those Karens come up with next? Please follow me and SHARE Thanks Jen

The Man in the Bathrobe

This is a story about former psychiatrist Tobin Jones, my neighbor, in Norfolk, VA

Weather, clothing and disabilities

Making necessary wardrobe changes that are disability friendly

Self check and me

Today I went grocery shopping and it was awful. Self checkouts are not good news and other things I've learned as a disabled person

The door

A story about a date gone really wrong

Dating Safety

Bonus episode! Here are some tips and tricks I have leaned over the years. Some are personal experience, others are from Secret Service and FBI agents

Letting go

Letting go of old dreams and old goals is hard, but it can be good too.

Angels and Demons

No spoilers here! Just listen to hear about my encounter with something wicked. 

Chronic pain and disassociation

I have recently realized that I "zone out" when experiencing high pain days. But zoning out has progressed to disassociation. TW dislocated joints 

Stories from the Bridge 1

A recap of my day speaking to the Tri- Faith community and hearing other peoples renewal stories. 

Living with chronic hives

I have had CIU for many years, but was only recently diagnosed. Come listen to my surprisingly affordable solution that my doctor prescribed.