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Feelin Weird

209 episodes - English - Latest episode: 9 months ago - ★★★★★ - 181 ratings

Gentle, intimate & heartfelt conversations about taboo and stigmatized subjects aimed to normalize the humyn experience and to create a feeling of "I'm not alone!"
Hosted by artist/weirdo Kye Plant.

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132. The FUNERAL of Feelin Weird!

July 17, 2023 10:00 - 1 hour - 56.7 MB

  This is the last episode of Feelin Weird! Welcome to the celebration of LIFE for this podcast.  Gaby, Dagenson, Goose, Producer Kye and I all pay our respects to the podcast--along with MANY other listeners and past guests.  We send the podcast off into the abyss wrapped in LOVE. My offering to you: listen to this intentionally.  Sit or lay down and close your eyes--imagine that you are at the funeral with all of us.  Let this be an opportunity to grieve and celebrate something you lo...

131. Life-Changing Support Groups (w/ The Spirit Fingers Collective)

June 13, 2023 15:19 - 1 hour - 85.9 MB

My conversation with the LIFE-CHANGING support group I created (and facilitate) called The Spirit Fingers Collective! Recorded Jan 29, 2023. Buy MERCH: https://kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ SUPPORT via PATREON*: https://www.patreon.com/feelinweird DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: [email protected] Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contribu...

130. Death, Grief & Learning SELF-LOVE

April 13, 2023 14:58 - 2 hours - 116 MB

CW: contains talk of death, surgery, suicide, & grief. Sara returns!!! (ep 4) to talk about being humbled by a CATASTROPHIC year in her life AND how she learned to TRULY love herself through it.  This story is VERY touching and beautiful! Also Producer Kye & Gaby show up to talk about MAGICAL T-SHIRTS We also discuss: there is PURPOSE on the other side of pain; THE END OF FEELIN WEIRD; AA & 12-step recovery; things not going the way we want; addiction & soothing; wanting to creat...

129. Get me a Bigger Shell, I'm GROWING!

December 06, 2022 13:28 - 1 hour - 79.7 MB

Dayle Hendrix returns (episode 120) to talk about death & destroyers, creative endings & new beginnings, surviving capitalism, and the pre/post-apocalypse need for REAL community. We also discuss: Re-learning how to play and celebrate and have fun; Honouring and embracing destroyer/death energy; Running towards your demons; The SHADOW self; The fear of what’s inside; Being an artist AND trying to survive capitalism; Foraging for food; Elders & the internet age; Death & killing as ...

**The Podcast Is Ending**

November 06, 2022 12:52 - 31 minutes - 22.6 MB

Send a LESS THAN 3 minute audio file before DEC 15, 2022 to [email protected] to be a part of the "GOODBYE FEELIN WEIRD listener audio collage".  You are welcome to be anonymous if you choose. It's time for me to move on.  Thank you to all of those who have supported me and my art. Recorded Oct 20, 2022. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod W...

128. The Self is a Community (w/ Hillary L. McBride PhD)

October 22, 2022 14:42 - 1 hour - 49 MB

Hillary L. McBride PhD returns (ep 105) to talk owning the tenderness, pain, & wisdom inside; coming back to the self; becoming a parent; grief & joy; and The Wisdom of Your Body.  This is a BEAUTIFUL conversation! We also talk: making space for the parts which are still in healing process; non-hierarchical community; parenting as a return to self; humanizing podcast interactions; being small AND taking up space; growing & healing; taking your own medicine; learning how to return h...

127. Inner Peace & Learning the Hard Way

September 30, 2022 18:52 - 2 hours - 91.8 MB

Shayne D. returns (ep 60, 72, 73 & 107) to talk about living on his own for the first time in his life, why people do "crazy" things; & how he's finding peace on the inside & outside. we also talk: accountability (do what you say you'll do); owning the pain we carry; generating compassion (for self & others); being highly sensitive; the humyn potential to be a saint & a demon; being Institutionalized; Borderline Personality Disorder; his father's BPD & his death; the energy of gro...

126. Being with the Pain & Joy of Life

August 26, 2022 15:39 - 1 hour - 68 MB

Sone talks growth VS. fixed mindsets; hope & hopelessness;  karma; practicing LOVE & compassion; learning disabilities; & healing relationships. we also talk: being with ALL of the humyn experiences (grief & joy); energy purging; fearful-avoidant attachment styles; sitting with the hurt & not passing it on to others; skepticism & the intersection of parts; fear of failure; shame; colonial mindset; the forget/remember & freeze/thaw cycles; wanting to leave my body; love & gratitu...

125. Vaginismus & Healing PTSD

July 30, 2022 13:26 - 1 hour - 60.6 MB

Maja talks Vaginismus; mind-body connection; finding a safe therapist; trauma therapy; healing through relationship; & PTSD. CW: brief mention of sexual violence & self-harm. We also discuss: shaking, screaming, jumping up and down to release energy; behavioural therapy (CBT) as short term care; learning to hate & disconnect from the body at a young age; disconnection from body as cultural norm; the power of connection; "the problem is physical and the solution is physical"; & mor...

124. Endometriosis & Autism

July 26, 2022 10:48 - 2 hours - 90.2 MB

Karrigan shares her story with autism, sensory issues, letting go of shame, SPECIAL INTERESTS (Lady Gaga & Jurassic Park), chronic pain, Endometriosis & Adenomyosis, shitty doctors, AND getting a hysterectomy in her 20s. We also talk: ADHD; not being taken seriously by doctors; masking chronic pain; self-hatred AND no longer hating the self; being bullied for her special interests; learning to mask at a young age; finding people to unmask with; NEEDING support; the ability to read...

Emotional Stewardship & Internal Community Belonging (Patreon Bonus ep 71)

May 17, 2022 17:17 - 54 minutes - 31.4 MB

In which I sit beside the river and share ideas about decolonizing the inner landscape, slowing down & shifting the Emotional Climate-Change (within every humyn on this planet). Also discussed: Grieving and celebrating as part of honouring life; Carrying grief from ancestors; Sensitivity as a gift to humyns; Colonial mindset ("it only has value if I decide it has value") vs Community mindset ("everything has intrinsic value whether or not I understand it"); "I don’t own my emotio...

123. Grief is Collective

May 06, 2022 21:02 - 2 hours - 87.1 MB

Kitty Sipple talks collective grief; multiplicity; the psychiatric industrial complex; synchronicities, magic & tarot; living in extreme states; & being Mad, Multiple and Autistic. Kitty is Mad & multiple. they are a constellation of neuroqueer/Autistic polymath polymorphic storytellers. kitty exists in this timeline as a white, disabled, trans/non-binary femme creature. We also talk: the collective self (many people within one person); Dissociative Identity Disorder; existing in diff...

122. Creating More Connected Community (w/ Dr. Robyn Henderson-Espinoza)

April 06, 2022 11:50 - 1 hour - 62.7 MB

Dr. Robyn talks developing relationships with our bodies; sitting and BREATHING (coregulation) in nature; rejecting & reclaiming spirituality; autism (sensory overwhelm); & MORE. Dr. Robyn Henderson-Espinoza (TransQueer Latinx Activist Scholar & Politicized Theologian) joins me for a heart-felt conversation about co-creating & rebuilding heart-centered communities and connections (with ourselves, our bodies and our communities)! We also talk: relationships as HEALING; proliferating lov...

WEIRDOCALLINSHOW EP2: Mr. Happy's Stealing Joy From The Cloud People! (bonus ep)

March 16, 2022 16:15 - 1 hour - 59.5 MB

The second episode of THE WEIRDO CALL-IN SHOW features inter-dimensional listener phone calls, listener-submitted songs AND guests like Producer Kye, Colin Show, Dagenson, Sarah Sarenson, Legal-Advisor Timmy, and FUTURE ME!  This one's weird, silly, and heart-centred! Topics include: decolonization; inner peace=outer peace; finding REAL support; belonging & connection; compassion; crying; shape-shifting tricksters; sadness RIGHT underneath anger; the paradoxical nature of reality;...

121. Psychedelics, Spirituality + Taking in Love

March 01, 2022 20:13 - 1 hour - 72.3 MB

Natalia and I navigate shut down; taking in love; fear of people, spirits, & losing control; magic, mystery & awe; challenging trips; reclaiming spirituality; & "what is my place in this world??" Natalia joins me for what MIGHT be the most interesting & challenging podcast recording I've ever made! We discuss: psychedelics as agents of change, healing + harm; reclaiming spirituality & magic; challenging trips; fear of love, people, ghosts, demons, spirits, bears, cougars, sleeping al...

WEIRDOCALLINSHOW EP1: The Universe is Weirder Than We Thought! (bonus ep)

February 14, 2022 21:50 - 52 minutes - 50 MB

The first episode of THE WEIRDO CALL-IN SHOW featuring 1 hour of inter-dimensional listener phone calls, listener-submitted songs AND guests like Producer Kye, Gaby, Blee-Bleep, and younger versions of me.  This one gets REALLY WEIRD, really silly, AND really REAL! Topics include: waking up crying; getting drunk to avoid feelings; self-compassion; dissociation; learning to love and accept your younger selves; ding-dongs, weirdos, and strangies; depression; peeing your pants; autis...

120.1 Do you need SUPPORT? I can HOLD SPACE (follow up)

January 29, 2022 18:02 - 21 minutes - 14.3 MB

Do you need and/or want someone to listen to and hold space for you as you grieve/feel and reconnect with your body and emotions?  Are you tired of seeing therapists who don't ACTUALLY listen or support you?  Do you like hearing my voice and want to be heard by me?  Do you want to remember how to feel, how to REALLY exist in your body?  Do you need to grieve generations of pain and sorrow?  I can be that person for you (if it feels right).   I have been sitting with people one-on-one in a ...

120. Making Peace with Death + Fabry Disease

January 19, 2022 19:28 - 2 hours - 79.2 MB

Dayle Hendrix's entire life changed when, at age 16, she received a terminal diagnosis (Fabry Disease).  She thought she'd be dead at 30, but she's surpassed that age and now she's making sense of her diagnosis and what LIFE and DEATH mean to her.  This is one of my fav episodes! We also discuss: Being raised as a conservative Christian; Witchcraft; The loneliness & challenge of processing a terminal diagnosis; Martyrdom; Denial of death; Death rituals; Wanting to leave a lega...

119. BPD, CPTSD, Anger + Grief

December 31, 2021 16:03 - 2 hours - 97.4 MB

Dresden von Saturnalia was raised by an emotionally inept military father & an absent mother (who died when Dresden was 18).  Dresden, until recently, struggled VERY hard with stability, friendships, safety, and emotions.  He's found deep healing in his journey and has joined me to share his story. We also discuss: Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD) & Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD); the ripple effects of healing; rapid cycling of moods & shifting; processing, venting...

119. BPD & CPTSD!

December 31, 2021 16:03 - 2 hours - 97.4 MB

Dresden von Saturnalia was raised by an emotionally inept military father & an absent mother (who died when Dresden was 18).  Dresden, until recently, struggled VERY hard with stability, friendships, safety, and emotions.  He's found deep healing in his journey and has joined me to share his story. We also discuss: Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD) & Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD); the ripple effects of healing; rapid cycling of moods & shifting; processing, venting...

BONUS: Pep Talk; Support for a Challenging Time + a Body-Scan Meditation (Patreon Bonus ep 64))

December 23, 2021 16:24 - 43 minutes - 25.1 MB

A solo episode involving a body-scan meditation (to remember what it's like to have a body), a pep talk for anyone experiencing a challenging time (eg. holidays with family), & a heavy dose of love for your healing inner-child (that deep core of you who loves and needs to feel loved) from my healing heart to yours. Recorded Dec 23, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts ...

A Body-Scan Meditation + a Pep Talk for Challenging Times (Patreon Bonus ep 64)

December 23, 2021 16:24 - 43 minutes - 25.1 MB

A solo episode involving a body-scan meditation (to remember what it's like to have a body), a pep talk for anyone experiencing a challenging time (eg. holidays with family), & a heavy dose of love for your healing inner-child (that deep core of you who loves and needs to feel loved) from my healing heart to yours. Recorded Dec 23, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts ...

Body-Scan Meditation + a Pep Talk for Challenging Times (Patreon Bonus ep 64)

December 23, 2021 16:24 - 43 minutes - 25.1 MB

A solo episode involving a body-scan meditation (to remember what it's like to have a body), a pep talk for anyone experiencing a challenging time (eg. holidays with family), & a heavy dose of love for your healing inner-child (that deep core of you who loves and needs to feel loved) from my healing heart to yours. Recorded Dec 23, 2021. This is a PATREON Bonus Episode!  Go to www.patreon.com/feelinweird to listen to every bonus episode. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ ...

118. Relapse into Self Harm

November 30, 2021 16:01 - 1 hour - 97.9 MB

CONTENT ADVISORY: death, suicide, violence, self harm. John Penman returns (episode 76) to talk about his recent relapse into self harm (and how he's learned to treat himself with compassion), processing death, BPD, consent and psychedelics. we also discuss: self-punishment; forgiving self; being a part of a death-centric cycle; watching the self GROW; the WAVES of life; moving through GUILT & shame; accidentally killing animals + the GRIEF; monogamy & partnership & love; clear ...

117. Compassion, Love + TRUE Support (w/ My GURU, Amber)

November 10, 2021 20:07 - 2 hours - 91.4 MB

Amber Nicole (episode 71) reached out to me at a time when I was at my absolute lowest (~5 years ago).  She sat with me as I tried to untangle years of confusion, trauma, and deep, deep shame.  This is a conversation many years later where we discuss what those initial meetings were like and where we're both at now. We also discuss: feeling compassion for past selves; psychedelics; the grief walk; healing the inner child; learning to take love in; needing physical nurturing; relatio...

116. Autism + Neurodiversity

October 19, 2021 18:13 - 2 hours - 85.9 MB

My guest and I are autistic.  We talk about being HIGHLY sensitive, masking, autistic burnout, neurodivergent shame, and getting a diagnosis. We also discuss: the shortcomings of the western medical system; turning off ALL emotions as a response to having big feelings; special interests; the gap between logic and heart; queer and spiritual; O.C.D., G.A.D., & major depression; BPD and not identifying with past diagnoses; understanding and respecting your own needs and boundaries; f...

115. Empathy, Jealousy & Believing in Self (w/ Non Wels)

October 09, 2021 13:15 - 1 hour - 75.9 MB

Non Wels (You, Me, Empathy; Feely Human) and I navigate BIG feelings, jealousy, psilocybin journeys, DIY healing and art, limiting beliefs, self-harm and the belief that "I deserve to be in pain." We also discuss: perfectionism; BPD; the power of podcasts; shutting down in order to survive in our families growing up; reconnecting with our younger parts; being and Eyore; EMDR; mind-stories; unlearning; fear of joy; identifying emotions in the body; small talk; and SO much more....

do you need/want SUPPORT? I can hold SPACE.

October 01, 2021 10:33 - 24 minutes - 14.7 MB

Do you need and/or want someone to listen to and hold space for you as you grieve/feel and reconnect with your body and emotions?  Are you tired of seeing therapists who don't ACTUALLY listen or support you?  Do you want to remember how to feel, how to REALLY exist in your body?  Do you need to grieve generations of pain and sorrow?  I can be that person for you (if it feels right).   I'm opening myself up to seeing people one-on-one in a relational-healing context.  I'm not a therapist/co...

114. PTSD & War

September 01, 2021 05:00 - 1 hour - 48 MB

At age 18, Greg Washington had the chance to enter the NFL draft and instead chose to serve his country (USA) and go to war.  A few years of combat later, his two best-friends were killed and he was forced home by the military, he found himself drinking daily just to cope with his PTSD and TBI.  He almost killed himself but he had a guardian angel who intervened.  Since then, he's found healing and meaning. We also talk about: complicated grief; the cumulative effects of racism and slave...

114. PTSD + War

September 01, 2021 05:00 - 1 hour - 48 MB

At age 18, Greg Washington had the chance to enter the NFL draft and instead chose to serve his country (USA) and go to war.  A few years of combat later, his two best-friends were killed and he was forced home by the military, he found himself drinking daily just to cope with his PTSD and TBI.  He almost killed himself but he had a guardian angel who intervened.  Since then, he's found healing and meaning. We also talk about: complicated grief; the cumulative effects of racism and slave...

Shifting Coping Mechanisms (BONUS audio journal)

August 13, 2021 11:11 - 1 hour - 46.3 MB

An audio journal discussing my relationship with coping mechanisms (porn, food, alcohol/drugs, spending money, avoiding, etc.): what they offer me, how they hinder me, and how I've watched them shift. I also talk about: when SOOTHING becomes SELF-HARM; coping mechanisms as SURVIVAL strategies; FEAR of INTIMACY and touch; my Dad's burnout/depression; addiction & bulimia; binge-eating; understanding "I am my parents and I am also not my parents"; the POWER of understanding my emotion...

113. One Year of Gaslighting & Cyberbullying!

August 06, 2021 13:21 - 1 hour - 78.4 MB

An anonymous guest was cyberbullied and gaslit by students in his college for an entire year, he shares how this DEEPLY impacted his sense of safety and self! We also discuss: fear of eye contact; understanding trauma response (fight/flight/freeze); the impact of trauma; "I am a failure"; self sabotage; psychosis or gaslighting???; fear of "going crazy"; PTSD; sitting with emotions; coming out after being bullied; intrusive thoughts; and SO much more! Recorded Dec 15, 2020 & ...

113. Gaslighting & Cyberbullying

August 06, 2021 13:21 - 1 hour - 78.4 MB

An anonymous guest was cyberbullied and gaslit by students in his college for an entire year, he shares how this DEEPLY impacted his sense of safety and self! We also discuss: fear of eye contact; understanding trauma response (fight/flight/freeze); the impact of trauma; "I am a failure"; self sabotage; psychosis or gaslighting???; fear of "going crazy"; PTSD; sitting with emotions; coming out after being bullied; intrusive thoughts; and SO much more! Recorded Dec 15, 2020 & ...

112. Psychedelics & Emotions (w/ James W. Jesso)

July 19, 2021 13:00 - 1 hour - 64.7 MB

James W. Jesso (Adventures Through The Mind) and I discuss the potential of psychedelics for DEEP-healing, the POWER of understanding emotions. and the MAGIC of words. We also discuss: transforming a "BAD TRIP" into a life-changing experience, experiencing "I AM HOME in my body", AFTER the wave of terror, "WHAT IS mental health?", harm reduction, "these are NOT party drugs", context of use, feeling triggered, understanding emotions, being shown DEEP traumas, entheogens & plant m...

112. Psychedelics, Emotions + Language (w/ James W. Jesso)

July 19, 2021 13:00 - 1 hour - 64.7 MB

James W. Jesso (Adventures Through The Mind) and I discuss the potential of psychedelics for DEEP-healing, the POWER of understanding emotions. and the MAGIC of words. We also discuss: transforming a "BAD TRIP" into a life-changing experience, experiencing "I AM HOME in my body", AFTER the wave of terror, "WHAT IS mental health?", harm reduction, "these are NOT party drugs", context of use, feeling triggered, understanding emotions, being shown DEEP traumas, entheogens & plant m...

111. Making Meaningful Conflict (w/ Tuna Melt!)

July 07, 2021 09:20 - 1 hour - 71.2 MB

Conflict is inevitable. My partner, Tuna, joins me to destigmatize conflict within relationships (especially for people with deep attachment wounds and traumas)--to normalize "sometimes it feels really hard to be in relationship (and this is how we find meaning within that)." We also discuss: FEAR of CLOSENESS, intimacy & love; crying together (healing); being HIGHLY sensitive; developing code words and unique language; learning to sit with my feelings before responding or reacting; ...

110. Health Obsession & Depression!

June 29, 2021 13:13 - 2 hours - 114 MB

Alex Benbow Carter (artist, musician) and I talk ALL things ANXIETY, depression and CREATIVITY. We also discuss: panic attacks during class presentations; SMALL talk; opening up to strangers; INSOMNIA; challenging relationships with our dads; HOW TO be an adult?; grieving death in family; health-anxiety ("I HAVE CANCER!!!" (except I don't)); parent's divorce; finding moments of PEACE; CBT, meditation, being present; trying to avoid conflict; needing to slow my thoughts down; ART and PAIN; ...

110. G.A.D.s, Dads; Health Obsession & Depression!

June 29, 2021 13:13 - 2 hours - 114 MB

Alex Benbow Carter (artist, musician) and I talk ALL things ANXIETY, depression and CREATIVITY. We also discuss: panic attacks during class presentations; SMALL talk; opening up to strangers; INSOMNIA; challenging relationships with our dads; HOW TO be an adult?; grieving death in family; health-anxiety ("I HAVE CANCER!!!" (except I don't)); parent's divorce; finding moments of PEACE; CBT, meditation, being present; trying to avoid conflict; needing to slow my thoughts down; ART and PAIN; ...

109. Unlocking Your MEAT Prison?

June 14, 2021 14:59 - 2 hours - 84.2 MB

Christina Jumper (Pickles and Vodka podcast) and I question REALITY, spirituality/Christianity, Brene Brown & celebrity WHILE also wondering "is riding a motorcycle meditation for people who need danger to feel safe??" CW: BRIEF mention of suicide. We also discuss: IS THIS A SIMULATION?; TAKING UP sssspppaaaaaccceeee; meditation or "I HATE SITTING STILL!"; RIDING motorcycles and loving it; bulimia; cannabis & psychedelics; learning to DANCE again!; reconnecting to the heart; the...

108. Feeling Triggered + Having Fun!

May 31, 2021 18:51 - 2 hours - 87.5 MB

Ruth/Haha and I explore a challenging conversation which results in me feeling triggered (listen as we gently resolve it, through non-violent communication, and come back into a really beautiful connection)! We also discuss: playfulness and FUN; DEEP depression; hula-hooping & riding scooters; the fear of upsetting people; wanting SO badly to love and be loved; being KIND; giving advice; advocating for my needs; wearing LOTS of colours; reconnecting with the child self; "is reac...

108. Being Triggered in Conversation (& how to resolve it and find connection)

May 31, 2021 18:51 - 2 hours - 87.5 MB

Ruth/Haha and I explore a challenging conversation which results in me feeling triggered (listen as we gently resolve it, through non-violent communication, and come back into a really beautiful connection)! We also discuss: playfulness and FUN; DEEP depression; hula-hooping & riding scooters; the fear of upsetting people; wanting SO badly to love and be loved; being KIND; giving advice; advocating for my needs; wearing LOTS of colours; reconnecting with the child self; "is reac...

(BONUS) Why I question the concept of "Mental Illness" (and the Western Medical Industry as a whole) (audio journal)

May 23, 2021 14:48 - 52 minutes - 45.3 MB

In which I discuss WHY I believe that framing my neurodiverse brain and the way I experience the world as a DISORDER, a disability and/or a PROBLEM which NEEDS to BE FIXed is only ONE way to frame it (and is potentially very limiting and dangerous). I discuss: decolonization begins within (how I treat my self and my parts) (decolonizing the self); unlearning and questioning the colonial capitalist mindset; reconnecting my parts; learning love and compassion; CURIOSITY as the polar opp...

Why I question the concept of "Mental Illness" (and the Western Medical Industry as a whole) (PATREON Bonus Ep 51)

May 23, 2021 14:48 - 52 minutes - 45.3 MB

In which I discuss WHY I believe that framing my neurodiverse brain and the way I experience the world as a DISORDER, a disability and/or a PROBLEM which NEEDS to BE FIXed is only ONE way to frame it (and is potentially very limiting and dangerous). I discuss: decolonization begins within (how I treat my self and my parts) (decolonizing the self); unlearning and questioning the colonial capitalist mindset; reconnecting my parts; learning love and compassion; CURIOSITY as the polar opp...

107. Prison, BIG feelings + the CYCLE of TRAUMA (w/ Shayne Dyment)

May 14, 2021 13:03 - 2 hours - 98.2 MB

Shayne Dyment returns (episodes 60, 72, 73) on his 2-years-out-of-prison anniversary!  Shayne spent 22 years (a life sentence) in prison for murder, he's finding his meaning and NEW ways to express himself emotionally and artistically! CW: brief talk of violence, murder, childhood sexual abuse. We discuss: BPD + ADHD; the CYCLE of violence & pain; understanding BOUNDARIES; true crime & the FASCINATION with violence & murder; learning to be a NObody; PAIN as a teacher; learning the...

107. BIG feelings & the CYCLE of TRAUMA

May 14, 2021 13:03 - 2 hours - 98.2 MB

Shayne D. returns (episodes 60, 72, 73) on his 2-years-out-of-prison anniversary!  Shayne spent 22 years (a life sentence) in prison for murder, he's finding his meaning and NEW ways to express himself emotionally and artistically! CW: brief talk of violence, murder, childhood sexual abuse. We discuss: BPD + ADHD; the CYCLE of violence & pain; understanding BOUNDARIES; true crime & the FASCINATION with violence & murder; learning to be a NObody; PAIN as a teacher; learning the HAR...

On PAIN, LOVE + making amends (PATREON Bonus Ep 50)

May 11, 2021 15:07 - 45 minutes - 29.7 MB

A BONUS audio journal in which I discuss my relationship with the GIANT beaming volcano of LOVE inside of me and how I've been taught to repress it and to feel shame about it (and shame about how I experience the world differently than other people) AND how I'm learning to live authentically and to LET THAT LOVE SHIIIIIINE! Take the mask off, take the armour off, let the love in, let love shine! I also discuss: the PAIN of being alive; disconnection + reconnection with self; autism, s...

BONUS: On PAIN, LOVE + making amends (audio journal)

May 11, 2021 15:07 - 45 minutes - 29.7 MB

A BONUS audio journal in which I discuss my relationship with the GIANT beaming volcano of LOVE inside of me and how I've been taught to repress it and to feel shame about it (and shame about how I experience the world differently than other people) AND how I'm learning to live authentically and to LET THAT LOVE SHIIIIIINE! Take the mask off, take the armour off, let the love in, let love shine! I also discuss: the PAIN of being alive; disconnection + reconnection with self; autism, s...

106. Masc, Trans + big FEELINGS

April 20, 2021 16:33 - 2 hours - 85 MB

Two trans artist people talk about gender, masculinity, + processing and reacting to BIG feelings!  Jared was raised female, I was raised male; neither of us identify with our gender assignment (at birth) and THUS we EACH have a unique take on GENDER. We also discuss: Gandalf as the ideal masculine archetype; reclaiming gender; men wearing skirts; crying A LOT; gender as an expression of self; dissociation & depersonalization; gender dysphoria; puffing up when feeling scared; performing ge...

(BONUS) Struggles in Masculinity & Gender (audio journal)

April 09, 2021 15:22 - 1 hour - 58.1 MB

A gentle and intimate trip down memory lane that DEEPLY connects me with toxic masculinity (and how that REALLY impacted and harmed me).  This is me exploring what it MEANS to be raised male in a world that celebrates emotional disconnection and disregulation. Highlights include: crying at house parties; driving a friend to get an abortion; my sensitive, gentle parts not being nurtured (because I was a BOY); fist fights; a friend dying; grief; listening to inner wisdom; reconnecting my par...

Struggles in Masculinity & Gender (PATREON Bonus Ep 49)

April 09, 2021 15:22 - 1 hour - 58.1 MB

A gentle and intimate trip down memory lane that DEEPLY connects me with toxic masculinity (and how that REALLY impacted and harmed me).  This is me exploring what it MEANS to be raised male in a world that celebrates emotional disconnection and disregulation. Highlights include: crying at house parties; driving a friend to get an abortion; my sensitive, gentle parts not being nurtured (because I was a BOY); fist fights; a friend dying; grief; listening to inner wisdom; reconnecting my par...