Artist Personal Journalist
457 episodes - English - Latest episode: 9 days ago -I am an Artist - these are my thoughts, feelings, documents of my life and how I interpret and process the world.
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Episodes
Biggest Fear: Locked in Syndrome (CONVERSATION)
April 10, 2024 03:29 - 9 minutes - 20.7 MBI talk about one of my biggest fears: being Locked In. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 15, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Anxiety Coping Against Present-ness (CONVERSATION)
April 03, 2024 04:07 - 7 minutes - 17.8 MBHow I believe my anxiety is fighting my ability to stay present. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 14, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Modern Dystopian Capitalism (CONVERSATION)
March 30, 2024 00:00 - 14 minutes - 34.4 MBI had no idea what to call this conversation but... The current state of things - it's not meant to be useful to a consumer. I know that's obvious, but it's bananas. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 13, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Non-Linear Mental Health Recovery (CONVERSATION)
March 22, 2024 01:37 - 7 minutes - 16.9 MBI know this is obvious, healing of any kind is non-linear but I've never experienced it like this and I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around it. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 12, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Anxiety Hole (CONVERSATION)
March 11, 2024 04:26 - 11 minutes - 25.6 MBI'm in an anxiety hole and talk about meds. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 11, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
(not) Happy to Wake Up (CONVERSATION)
March 06, 2024 04:18 - 8 minutes - 18.6 MBAt some point I lost the "I'm happy to be alive" in the morning vibes. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 10, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Anxiety Impairment (CONVERSATION)
March 01, 2024 05:41 - 9 minutes - 22.6 MBHow my Anxiety can impair my ability to process situations via not giving my heart enough time to catch up to my over-exaggerated mind. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 9, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Reverence for Media (CONVERSATION)
February 21, 2024 04:01 - 15 minutes - 34.9 MBI think there's an emotional tie to why I treat media with reverence. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 8, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
History of Trying Cannabis (STORY TIME)
February 08, 2024 06:02 - 15 minutes - 35.1 MBI think back to the four times I tried Cannabis before actually using it regularly. (STORY TIME - WEEK 7, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Cannabis Use (CONVERSATION)
February 07, 2024 04:43 - 36 minutes - 83.7 MBI discuss my recent experience with Cannabis Use. Some technical aspects as well as what good it does for me, and some possible detriments I'm keeping an eye on. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 7, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
How Cannabis Effects my Vlogging (BEHIND THE CURTAIN)
February 07, 2024 03:23 - 11 minutes - 27.1 MBI discuss how cannabis use has been effecting my vlogging. (BEHIND THE CURTAIN - WEEK 6, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Natural Disaster Mobs (CONVERSATION)
February 05, 2024 04:02 - 7 minutes - 17.8 MBI get paranoid about mob mentality during a natural disaster. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 6, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Do or Die/Primal Anxiety (CONVERSATION)
January 29, 2024 03:56 - 15 minutes - 34.5 MBWhen my anxiety is at its heights, it only gives me two choices. I reflect on how we're not built to feel this way for this long and why I'm left with The Ultimatum. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 5, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
The Need to Create Meaning for Myself Daily (CONVERSATION)
January 22, 2024 03:43 - 10 minutes - 24 MBI realize how important it is for me to create meaning daily - for myself and only myself. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 4, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
The Role of Anger in my Life (CONVERSATION)
January 16, 2024 05:24 - 14 minutes - 32.6 MBA friend asked me what role anger plays in my life currently. These are my reflections on how far I've come and what work I need to continue to do. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 3, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Artist Mortality and Legacy Anxiety (CONVERSATION)
January 10, 2024 05:30 - 25 minutes - 58.7 MBI really had no idea what to title this. I talk about how I'm anxious about death and how it informs my art practice and vice versa? Why am I so apprehensive to oil paint? Why do I not care if I'm remembered as I thought I did? (CONVERSATION - WEEK 2, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Goalsetting 2024 (CONVERSATION)
January 05, 2024 05:03 - 23 minutes - 54 MBI discuss how I'm treating goal-setting this year. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 1, YEAR 6) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
2023 Wrap-Up (CONVERSATION)
December 30, 2023 02:06 - 6 minutes - 13.8 MBI recount some changes I've made, if I want to continue the vlog, and discuss a couple goals for this upcoming year. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 52, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Acceptance of Neurodivergence as a Parent (CONVERSATION)
December 22, 2023 05:05 - 34 minutes - 78.5 MBI am still processing how to let go of expectations of "normalcy" in practice and not just in theory. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 51, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Documentary Creating is Necessity (CONVERSATION)
December 12, 2023 20:16 - 13 minutes - 31.7 MBI watched the film, "Minding the Gap" and it illustrated how important Artmaking is for working through past trauma and healing in the present. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 50, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Coasting and Crisis Mode (CONVERSATION)
December 07, 2023 00:49 - 16 minutes - 37.9 MBI realize that it's been years since I've been able to Coast and feel relaxed on a consistent basis and that is scary and unhealthy. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 49, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Dopamine Deficiency and Excess (CONVERSATION)
November 28, 2023 15:26 - 14 minutes - 32.9 MBI ponder about my desire for Excess and how it could be linked to a Dopamine Deficiency. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 48, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
When my Anxiety has a Purpose! (CONVERSATION)
November 20, 2023 04:13 - 13 minutes - 30 MBI watch the movie, "Split" again and learn something about myself in regards to giving my anxiety a proper function. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 47, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
"Labyrinth" - Movie Review (REVIEW)
November 16, 2023 03:32 - 8 minutes - 20.2 MBDavid Bowie plays The Goblin King in this Jim Henson family fantasy adventure musical. It's a cool intro to a light fantasy world for kids and kinda fun. *Spoilers*. (REVIEW - WEEK 46, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
"Rounders" - Movie Review (REVIEW)
November 16, 2023 00:15 - 13 minutes - 30.1 MBAn amazing cast tell the story of poker players on an adventure in this high-stakes drama. A Human story about integrity, pride, fate, life's path, and knowing when to cut your losses, *Spoilers*. (REVIEW - WEEK 46, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
The Artist as The Other (CONVERSATION)
November 14, 2023 04:32 - 21 minutes - 49.6 MBThe Artist is Automatically The Other. Why that was good and how it's now, not at all. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 46, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Social Media Censorship (BEHIND THE CURTAIN/CONVERSATION)
November 06, 2023 03:43 - 21 minutes - 50 MBInstagram shadow bans me and restricts me because I used a song in their approved library - now what? (BEHIND THE CURTAIN/CONVERSATION - WEEK 45, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Music to get Women, Pain Scale, Cannabis Learning (WDILTW?)
November 02, 2023 04:06 - 7 minutes - 18.2 MBSomeone gives me a pain scale that helps me out. I reinforce Cannabis Learning, and think about music to get women vs. music about not having women and how they're not the same necessarily. (WDILTW? - WEEK 44, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
Punitive Consequences (CONVERSATION)
November 02, 2023 02:35 - 16 minutes - 37.2 MBWhat is the point of a "rule" without consequences? (CONVERSATION - WEEK 44, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Classroom LoFi, Doom Scrolling, Excess (WDILTW?)
October 26, 2023 05:04 - 9 minutes - 21.2 MBCertain music in the classroom isn't as effective as it used to be, why I'm Doom Scrolling more lately, and ho Excess is still so present in my life. (WDILTW? - WEEK 43, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
"Quills" - Movie Review (REVIEW)
October 24, 2023 05:15 - 10 minutes - 23.5 MBA period piece and re-imagining of the Marquis de Sade's time in Charerenton. This movie is what brought the beautiful Marquis de Sade to my attention years ago. It discusses censorship, cathartic artmaking, and so much more. It is irreverent and challenging and essential for Artists and Art appreciators of every kind. *No Spoilers*. (REVIEW - WEEK 43, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
"Quills - Movie Review (REVIEW)
October 24, 2023 05:15 - 10 minutes - 23.5 MBA period piece and re-imagining of the Marquis de Sade's time in Charerenton. This movie is what brought the beautiful Marquis de Sade to my attention years ago. It discusses censorship, cathartic artmaking, and so much more. It is irreverent and challenging and essential for Artists and Art appreciators of every kind. *No Spoilers*. (REVIEW - WEEK 43, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
"16 Blocks" - Movie Review (REVIEW)
October 23, 2023 05:00 - 7 minutes - 17.9 MBAn unexpected Sweet story amongst the action in the streets of NYC. Can people change?*No Spoilers*. (REVIEW - WEEK 43, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
"The Butterfly Effect" - Movie Review (REVIEW)
October 23, 2023 04:19 - 10 minutes - 24.6 MBChaos Theory. Blockbuster movie gets confrontational, uncomfortable, and pushes boundaries while discussing time travel? *No Spoilers*. (REVIEW - WEEK 43, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
What is Intelligence/Being Smart? (CONVERSATION)
October 23, 2023 03:48 - 5 minutes - 12.3 MBI try and define the difference between having knowledge and being "smart". (CONVERSATION - WEEK 43, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Bucket Lists are for the Privileged? (CONVERSATION)
October 19, 2023 02:41 - 6 minutes - 15.6 MBBucket Lists are for the Privileged and those who like to window shop? Why I don't have one. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 42, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Keep Moving, Every Day is the Same... (WDILTW?)
October 19, 2023 00:18 - 8 minutes - 19.1 MBI need some visual aids to Keep it Movin' sometimes. I also realize why these days can seem so pointless. (WDILTW? - WEEK 42, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
"Civil Disobedience" - Book Review (REVIEW)
October 18, 2023 05:00 - 8 minutes - 20.6 MBHenry David Thoreau's essays on being a solid human being. One with integrity and incredibly high morals. Mid 1800's essays that revolve around slavery/racism but also walking in nature for your mental health? *No Spoilers*. (REVIEW - WEEK 42, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
"Across the Universe" - Movie Review (REVIEW)
October 17, 2023 05:13 - 12 minutes - 27.8 MBA movie that can turn you into a Transcendental Space Goat. Boy Meets Girl from across the pond in the 60s set to an original Beatles Soundtrack. This Musical is Amazing. *No Spoilers*. (REVIEW - WEEK 42, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
"Lean on Me" - Movie Review (REVIEW)
October 12, 2023 04:33 - 15 minutes - 34.8 MBThis movie played a role in me wanting to be a teacher. It's abrasive yet heart-warming. Be prepared to be uncomfortable. A fact-based bio drama starring Morgan Freeman playing Joe Clark - a principal sent to a school to turn it around. *No Spoilers*. (REVIEW - WEEK 41, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
"Reign Over Me" - Movie Review (REVIEW)
October 12, 2023 04:18 - 12 minutes - 28.6 MB"Only Love can make it rain..." What a powerful song - what a powerful movie! This drama is nuanced and fun despite its heavy subject matter. A man loses touch with reality and is stuck and an old friend makes a play at trying to bring him back. Relationships, human endeavour, sweetness, passion intensity... Amazing stuff. Also, Adam Sandler knocks this dramatic role out of the park and him and Don Cheadle have great chemistry. *No Spoilers*. (REVIEW - WEEK 41, YEAR 5) . Social Media: ...
Elliptical, Paper, and Losers (WDILTW?)
October 12, 2023 03:33 - 5 minutes - 13.3 MBI use an exercise machine, mess up some art, and define a Loser. (WDILTW? - WEEK 41, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
"It Takes all Types" - Not (CONVERSATION)
October 10, 2023 05:41 - 3 minutes - 8.51 MB"It Takes all Types." Another empty platitude. No, it doesn't. We can do without a lot of types of people. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 41, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Representation, Basketball Restraint, Survival Mode (WDILTW?)
October 06, 2023 05:47 - 18 minutes - 41.7 MBI learn a lot of things that aren't fun. I'm an anxious mess this week - yes, more than normal. (WDILTW? - WEEK 40, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
A Case for Hedonism (CONVERSATION)
October 05, 2023 03:27 - 7 minutes - 17.9 MBA disjointed, weak, and incomplete case for Hedonism brought forth by anxiety and exhaustion with life. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 40, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Art Media, Intuition, Exercising Mind via Rest (WDILTW?)
September 29, 2023 05:24 - 8 minutes - 20 MBI talk about some oil painting, adhesives, how rest is a part of exercise, and Intuition learnings. (WDILTW? - WEEK 39, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
Empty Platitudes Don't Help (CONVERSATION)
September 26, 2023 19:23 - 8 minutes - 19.4 MB"It'll happen!" "Good things come to those who wait." No. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 39, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Cannabis Learning, Vampires, and Health (WDILTW?)
September 21, 2023 15:43 - 10 minutes - 24.2 MBI learn that sometimes hard things come easier when under the influence of cannabis and why my love for vampires may be tied to anxiety. (WDILTW? - WEEK 38, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]
"Everything Is" (CONVERSATION)
September 18, 2023 03:16 - 28 minutes - 65.9 MBI put this "Everything Is" approach to life into practice and see some immediate positive effects in my life. Especially concerning anxiety. (CONVERSATION - WEEK 38, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts, [email protected]
Week Two - Coral and Teleportation (WDILTW?)
September 15, 2023 05:21 - 10 minutes - 24.3 MBWhat did I learn this week? Coral Reef is an animal, teleportation is real, and how to take the pressure off. (WDILTW? - WEEK 37, YEAR 5) . Social Media: http://linktr.ee/Fk_Arts [email protected]